So the writing of these things doesn't end here, indeed it continues to this day. The recording of them here... will continue here, soonish, maybe? Life has changed and I haven't found the fit of this thing, and it has remained fairly secret and no one reads it, much, anyway. Maybe more of an explanation, later. In the meantime feel free to listen to this, for however long it takes.
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Friday, October 30, 2015
Saturday, August 22, 2015
if you lead your life the right way... the dreams will come to you
thus buried in the middle of this somewhat unplanned "summer vacation" ends A Song A Day Volume 2.9 Unabridged, and we continue onto Volume 2.10, Notebook 23, forthwith
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2.1551 : 8/1/09 : A Wrap (The Golden Age 96/100)
I can’t remember the start
and the records are out of order
and memory is a liar
and this ain’t no tape recorder
Still that’s a wrap
watch me, ta da, snap
let’s all celebrate
no matter it’s a little late
it isn’t big or small
some days it’s barely anything at all
but it’s here nonetheless
hey my persistence is as good as your guess
So hey that’s a wrap
watch me, ta da, snap
let’s all celebrate
no matter it’s a little late
Yes sir that’s a wrap
watch me, ta da, snap
let’s all celebrate
no matter it’s a little late
So long that’s a wrap
watch me, ta da, snap
let’s all celebrate
no matter it’s a little late
2.1550 : 7/31/09 : Wheel (The Golden Age 95/100)
Bend another link around the form
tell myself I’m getting warm
tell myself I know how I want to feel
tell you this is it, this is real
But the wheel keeps getting larger
and the hill keeps getting taller
and this trend makes my poor chance
of seeing daylight ever smaller
You don’t know what the chain you forge will bind
the future changes everything and there we all are blind
but the work that is at hand is the work I do
I hope someday maybe it will speak to you
But the wheel keeps getting larger
and the hill keeps getting taller
and this trend makes my poor chance
of seeing daylight ever smaller
But the wheel keeps getting larger
and the hill keeps getting taller
and this trend makes my poor chance
of seeing daylight ever smaller
And the wheel keeps getting larger
and the hill keeps getting taller
and this trend makes my poor chance
of seeing daylight ever smaller
2.1549 : 7/30/09 : Wishes Were Weapons (The Golden Age 94/100)
I like the pacifist
a bravery there I respect
the hawks will merely sneer to hear
Such sentiments or I expect
If wishes were weapons
the world would be gone
the high cost of living
is all that’s saved us so long
God bless and God speed Harry Patch
someday maybe they’ll listen
I wouldn’t hold my breath myself
there’s just something we’re missing
If wishes were weapons
the world would be gone
the high cost of living
is all that’s saved us so long
If wishes were weapons
the world would be gone
the high cost of living
is all that’s saved us so long
If wishes were weapons
the world would be gone
the high cost of living
is all that’s saved us so long
2.1548 : 7/29/09 : Geek (The Golden Age 93/100)
Is it just the geek thing
fighting off the bullies
trying to get the ladies
wow how lame would that be
hey get over it geek
I’ll get there by the end of the week
Don’t go to your reunion
No matter what those people said
it’s just a matter of daily bread
just trying to get a spoon in
hey get over it geek
I’ll get there by the end of the week
hey get over it geek
I’ll get there by the end of the week
hey get over it geek
I’ll get there by the end of the week
2.1547 : 7/28/09 : Dreams Die Harder (The Golden Age 92/100)
How hard are your dreams dying my old friend
I find myself hoping I never talk to you again
Keep my guitar keep my Marshall Jazz
I’ll keep my own dreams desiccating under glass
The flesh dies hard but dream die harder
But I could never figure where dreaming ended with you
And it’s a funny story but everything was a non-starter
And I’d rather forget because remembering makes me blue
I hope you’re far away starting from scratch
Under an assumed name tending some green patch
But I’m guessing that dream is untrue
like so much I never understood about you
The flesh dies hard but dream die harder
But I could never figure where dreaming ended with you
And it’s a funny story but everything was a non-starter
And I’d rather forget because remembering makes me blue
The flesh dies hard but dream die harder
But I could never figure where dreaming ended with you
And it’s a funny story but everything was a non-starter
And I’d rather forget because remembering makes me blue
The flesh dies hard but dream die harder
But I could never figure where dreaming ended with you
And it’s a funny story but everything was a non-starter
And I’d rather forget because remembering makes me blue
2.1546 : 7/27/09 : Serial (The Golden Age 91/100)
What’s left to deny I’m a serial recidivist
Not much left but to wait to be punished by your iron fist
It’s all your fault you made me this way
Mr. Mom Mr. Dad Mr. God Mr. State
It’s all your fault and I’m your problem to solve
If I could get a number that would be great
It takes longer to describe the problem than for Mr. Doctor to shake his head
There’s nothing I can do and it isn’t covered plus it’s all in your mind is all he said
It’s all your fault you made me this way
Mr. Mom Mr. Dad Mr. God Mr. State
It’s all your fault and I’m your problem to solve
If I could get a number that would be great
It’s all your fault you made me this way
Mr. Mom Mr. Dad Mr. God Mr. State
It’s all your fault and I’m your problem to solve
If I could get a number that would be great
It’s all your fault you made me this way
Mr. Mom Mr. Dad Mr. God Mr. State
It’s all your fault and I’m your problem to solve
If I could get a number that would be great
2.1545 : 7/26/09 : The Judgment (The Golden Age 90/100)
Almost forgot where I stood
almost stumbled into the stream
there’s one chapter left
one last movement to the dream
Set it down the judgment
Drive the nail home with one blow
A day you’ll always remember
no one will ever know
Gather ridiculous confidence
Swagger inside like a samurai
I’ll be so nice after I save you
I’m just that kind of guy
Set it down the judgment
Drive the nail home with one blow
A day you’ll always remember
no one will ever know
Set it down the judgment
Drive the nail home with one blow
A day you’ll always remember
no one will ever know
Set it down the judgment
Drive the year nail home with one blow
A day to always remember, forever
None must ever know
2.1544 : 7/25/09 : Pony (The Golden Age 89/100)
There’s supposed to be a pony in here somewhere
Optimism might not be all that it’s chalked up to
But I cannot pretend it hasn’t got me so far
Can’t pretend I didn’t need it that one night I talked to you
Got no room for a pony anyway
Still somebody has to shovel it away
Grandpa told his stories back in the day
And I didn’t want a pony anyway
there’s supposed to be some silver in this cloud
no offense but that thunder’s getting loud
And I want to trust but I’m not sure what in
And I want to stand out but still fade into the crowd
Got no room for a pony anyway
Still somebody has to shovel it away
Grandpa told his stories back in the day
And I didn’t want a pony anyway
Got no room for a pony anyway
Still somebody has to shovel it away
Grandpa told his stories back in the day
And I didn’t want a pony anyway
Got no room for a pony anyway
But I guess I’ve got to shovel it away
Yeah Grandpa told great stories back in the day
But I never got that pony anyway
2.1543 : 7/24/09 : Old Refrains (The Golden Age 88/100)
I can’t say that and I can’t say that
Oh it’s all been said before
dragging used up husks and busted suitcases
and still that not so still voice says more
and I’m feeling the drag of old refrains
clichés and tired truisms
circling the drains
Sick old and tired go take your pick
exaggerating a commonplace state of affairs
but I can’t bring myself to say where it’s really at
Pretty soon again I’ll have to climb those stairs
and I’m feeling the drag of old refrains
clichés and tired truisms
circling the drains
and I’m feeling the drag of old refrains
clichés and tired truisms
circling the drains
and I’m feeling the drag of old refrains
clichés and tired truisms
circling the drains
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
2.1542 : 7/23/09 : Haven’t a Clue (The Golden Age 87/100)
I haven’t a clue
where truth or meaning comes from
if there’s any such thing
you could say I’m quite dumb
I haven’t a clue
and I’m making it up
as I’m going along
And I’m no young pup
Stick one more in the vault
it’ll be rare some day
for my kid to redeem
I hope one ace left to play
I haven’t a clue
and I’m making it up
as I’m going along
And I’m no young pup
I haven’t a clue
and I’m making it up
as I’m going along
And I’m no young pup
I haven’t a clue
and I’m making it up
as I’m going along
And I’m no young pup
2.1541 : 7/22/09 : King of Pop (The Golden Age 86/100)
I am the once and future king of pop
when you see my big new thing your jaw will drop
Cause America has only had itself two kings
You just have me left poor earthlings
Oh let the glorious day
Shine down upon me
I think I feel it now at last
my moment of clarity
now they’re seeing and believing
It’s true I’m really back earthling
and I’m going to show you all I’m one of you
I have returned to you, now you know you wanted me too
Oh let the glorious day
Shine down upon me
I think I feel it now at last
my moment of clarity
Oh let the glorious day
Shine down upon me
I think I feel it now at last
my moment of clarity
Oh my glorious day
I think it’s shining down on me
this is it no, this is it
the moment of clarity
2.2.1540 : 7/21/09 : Bad News (The Golden Age 85/100)
Easy to ignore
keep your eyes on the floor
It’ll come no matter what
So keep that door shut
When you get the bad news
You’re going to walk in my shoes
you’re going to walk in my shoes
and here I am dealing
every minute I’m stealing
from my childhood dreams
if there’s a day that redeems
When you get the bad news
You’re going to walk in my shoes
you’re going to walk in my shoes
When you get the bad news
You’re going to walk in my shoes
you’re going to walk in my shoes
When you get the bad news
You’re going to walk in my shoes
you’re going to walk in my shoes
2.1539 : 7/20/09 : Something Right (The Golden Age 84/100)
fading light to total darkness
another night predictable oh this noise
just want to get out quick, settle it
no possibility but there it is boys
Maybe I’ll get something right yet
in one last flickering push
As days and years go by
trying to hold on but it all goes whoosh
Been unhappy been so anxious
Please God take the angry away
I want to do so much more get so much better
If I can just hold onto it is always today
Maybe I’ll get something right yet
in one last flickering push
As days and years go by
trying to hold on but it all goes whoosh
Maybe I’ll get something right yet
in one last flickering push
As days and years go by
trying to hold on but it all goes whoosh
Maybe I’ll get something right yet
in one last flickering push
As days and years go flying by
wave goodbye to another one, whoosh
2.1538 : 7/19/09 : Childhood Dreams (The Golden Age 83/100)
Get things done just to stop feeling guilty
Got no idea what I’d do with real freedom
There is a theory in there, and a grim one
A decade and a half and just what I flee’d from
Don’t have a clue what my childhood dreams were
Seems like I always had other things on my mind
So if you see anyone who was there
tell them to send a message if they’d be so kind
I’m sure as hell though that it wasn’t this lot
got realistic young but more optimistic than that
I haven’t been beside home plate in years
I haven’t got high hopes for this at bat
Don’t have a clue what my childhood dreams were
Seems like I always had other things on my mind
So if you see anyone who was actually there
tell them to send me a message if they’d be so kind
Don’t have a clue what my childhood dreams were
Seems like I always had other things on my mind
So if you see anyone who was actually there
tell them to send a me message if they’d be so kind
Don’t have a clue what my childhood dreams were
Seems like I always had other things on my mind
So if you see anyone who was there
tell them to send a message if they’d be so kind
2.1537 : 7/18/09 : Inspiration (The Golden Age 82/100)
Thank you for the inspiration
hope I take it somewhere good
been a long time saying I should
hoping just to do what I would
Inspiration
Such a situation
get along, go along
hey, today, another song
Moments do not make the nut
it’s a long haul I’m hauling
and the overhead is appalling
get it done, no more stalling
Inspiration
Such a situation
get along, go along
hey, today, another song
Inspiration
Such a situation
get along, go along
hey, today, another song
Inspiration
Such a situation
get along, go along
hey, today, another song
2.1536 : 7/17/09 : Night of the Fight (The Golden Age 81/100)
I wasn’t there, I heard the story
it was a bummer I felt sorry
It was another screwed up night
making a stink, hearing about the fight
the night of the fight
oh baby might does not make right
learn from someone out of sight
farewell dear traveler on your endless night
Maybe tomorrow such a sad tale
maybe there’s glory beyond the vale
I’ll write it all up when the time is right
this is your gift the gift of flight
the night of the fight
oh baby might does not make right
learn from someone out of sight
farewell dear traveler on your endless night
the night of the fight
oh baby might does not make right
learn from someone out of sight
farewell dear traveler on your endless night
the night of the fight
oh baby might does not make right
learn from someone out of sight
farewell dear traveler
I like to dream I might meet you
some trackless night
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Thursday, July 16, 2015
2.1535 : 7/16/09 : The Hour that Stretches (The Golden Age 80/100)
I remember everything a little bit too well
and why not this is war and war is hell
but if I took a thousand pages I could not tell
the half of it, weak sauce on the half shell
and still searching for
the hour that stretches
the bitter cup
and he drinks until he retches
but maybe one moment maybe tell half
or go until I reach another paragraph
and the notes climb up and down the staff
and if you knew the whole secret you sure would laugh
and still searching for
the hour that stretches
the bitter cup
and he drinks until he retches
and still searching for
the hour that stretches
the bitter cup
and he drinks until he retches
and me still I’m searching
and the hour does stretch
give me the bitter cup
Let me drink until I retch
2.1534 : 7/15/09 : Alive With Pain (The Golden Age 79/100)
You could say pain’s a blessing as proof of life
If you value life above all things
But then what could you value if you weren’t alive
Hallelujah for the headache such questioning brings
As forgotten nerves
come alive with pain
already lost track of the last time
I said so, you again
If you justify suffering on behalf of the almighty
just how do you keep compassion on the plate
if you could write a report up deliver it by angels
so I can understand that would be just great
As forgotten nerves
come alive with pain
already lost track of the last time
I said so, you again As forgotten nerves
come alive with pain
already lost track of the last time
I said so, you again
As forgotten nerves
come alive with pain
already lost track of the last time
I said so, you again
2.1533 : 7/14/09 : Technically (The Golden Age 78/100)
Technically today
though there’s many a slip
I can just hear the gory tubes that drip
Fangs and membranes
beasts with teeth
all the horrors that
push up from underneath
Look away a moment
and one day the truth is gone, gone
and yet have to go on
Fangs and membranes
beasts with teeth
all the horrors that
push up from underneath
Fangs and membranes
beasts with teeth
all the horrors that
push up from underneath
Fangs and membranes
beasts with teeth
all the horrors that
push up from underneath
2.1532 : 7/13/09 : Stupid As It Gets (The Golden Age 77/100)
What in the world what in the world
my leisure running in the background
my future become past and half started
listening to someone else’s song
What if this is as stupid as it gets?
that would be a relief
time is the greatest thief
I could go for a drink
Some kind of cheap thrill
So many important jobs
And I’m pushing my luck still
What if this is as stupid as it gets?
that would be a relief
time is the greatest thief
What if this is as stupid as it gets?
that would be a relief
time is the greatest thief
What if this is as stupid as it gets?
that would be a relief
time is the greatest thief
Sunday, July 12, 2015
2.1531 : 7/12/09 : Scratch (The Golden Age 76/100)
It doesn’t matter how long or how deep
you’ve got to scratch your way up and out just the same
the rules are the rules, it ends how it ends
whether or not you treat it like a game
You better start scratching now
because it’s a long way up and out
Don’t worry about me in my own hole
you’ll know I’m free when you hear me shout
Before I start again may I just
daydream some moments about lifting my face
to the sun out of that hole I surely dug
Under the shining empty canopy of space
You better start scratching now
because it’s a long way up and out
Don’t worry about me in my own hole
you’ll know I’m free when you hear me shout
You better start scratching now
because it’s a long way up and out
Don’t worry about me in my own hole
you’ll know I’m free when you hear me shout
You better start scratching now
because it’s a long way up and out
Don’t worry about me in my own hole
you’ll know I’m free
You’ll hear my shout
2.1530 : 7/11/09 : Failure With Progress (The Golden Age 75/100)
Did what I said I would not
made progress yet tonight it’s all I got
Failure with progress
Does that add up to zero?
Does it make me the fool I feel
or some kind of cut rate hero
Some last ritual what does it mean
Whatever I make it if I finally come clean
Failure with progress
Does that add up to zero?
Does it make me the fool I feel
or some kind of cut rate hero
Failure with progress
Does that add up to zero?
Does it make me the fool I feel
or some kind of cut rate hero
Failure but with progress
is it anything but zero
Do I even want to be
that kind of hero?
Friday, July 10, 2015
2.1529 : 7/10/09 : Tangling Ghost (The Golden Age 74/100)
Willfully I’m tangling
with a tangling ghost
quick race to the bottom
Who will think the most?
Tangling ghost can’t escape the trap
Waiting and waiting for something to snap
I could make a list
twice as tall as me
Why I have to wait till later
why I can’t be free
Tangling ghost can’t escape the trap
Waiting and waiting for something to snap
Tangling ghost can’t escape the trap
Waiting and waiting for something to snap
Tangling ghost can’t escape the trap
Waiting and waiting
but the catch won’t snap
Thursday, July 09, 2015
2.1528 : 7/9/09 : Better or Worse Than Expected (The Golden Age 73/100)
How will it turn out
the question is outrageous
who knows what any moment brings
just that I turn the pages
Better or worse than expected
A broken clock that’s never right
there must be some kind of equation
to explain this parasite
So much is just as I anticipate
you get used to not being surprised
and what throws you is usually worse than expected
When the troubles come jumbo sized
Better or worse than expected
A broken clock that’s never right
there must be some kind of equation
to explain this parasite
Better or worse than expected
A broken clock that’s never right
there must be some kind of equation
to explain this parasite
Better or worse than expected
A broken clock that’s never right
there must be some kind of equation
to explain this parasite
Wednesday, July 08, 2015
2.1527 : 7/8/09 : Silver Lining (The Golden Age 72/100)
There is no intervention
Divine or otherwise
It’s clearly how it’s set up
We’re on our own below the skies
You are my silver lining
You are my shining star
You are my luck my intervention
no matter when or how far
There’s not a gap or blank space
no stone is left unturned
what is is what is no matter
What it is you think you’ve spurned
You are my silver lining
You are my shining star
You are my luck my intervention
no matter when or how far
You are my silver lining
You are my shining star
You are my luck my intervention
no matter when or how far
You are my silver lining
You are my shining star
You are my luck my intervention
no matter when or how far
2.1526 : 7/7/09 : Wheel (The Golden Age 71/100)
If everything goes in cycles
progress retreat left to right
the wheel though is it rolling somewhere
If not I’d like to jump off if I might
A wheel’s no good unless it’s rolling somewhere
please tell me wheresoever you’ll wait for me there
Equilibrium looks better as an equation
in here it feels like stagnation, death
As soon as it stands still I feel like pushing
I’ll push and push right up to my last breath
A wheel’s no good unless it’s rolling somewhere
please tell me wheresoever you’ll wait for me there
A wheel’s no good unless it’s rolling somewhere
please tell me wheresoever you’ll wait for me there
A wheel’s no good unless it’s rolling somewhere
please tell me wheresoever you’ll wait for me there
Monday, July 06, 2015
2.1525 : 7/6/09 : First and Last Principles (The Golden Age 70/100)
Get in and get out fast
Shovel the present into the past
first and last principles
Only now is invincible
Nothing to show and no one to see
nobody nobody
here but me
first and last principles
Only now is invincible
first and last principles
Only now is invincible
first and last principles
Only now is invincible
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