2.5195 : 7/24/19 : BIG RED X (The Experiment: 30/100)

I joke about it

what I secretly cling to

I will mark the big red X

and surprisingly bring you

the perfect from now on

the smooth ascent

and that's not even my song

and by noon it's well bent

only to stop

this litany of nonsense

the dumb inner voice

what passes for the present tense

the poetic passage

of an age of regret

X marks the zero start

how long oh Lord oh please reset

what

2.5065 : 3/16/19 : Proof

Don't I do enough?

what the hell

proof do you want?

Most every outing

seems at best

a stupid stunt

And I doubt

I will regret

cutting any of it

short

when I come

around again

to register

my dump report

what

2.5048 : 2/27/19 : War

Funny joke

triumph

then regret

a cake thing

I guess

not having

or eating

easy bet

Don't know

what this is

but it isn't war

and I'm sure

not feeling

my excelsior

what

2.4635 : 1/10/18 : Instant Regret

Regrets

I've had a few

Some as instant

as how I fell for you

And I hope it all

adds up on

your side of the scales

my instant regrets

my epic fails

stacked against

my tiny triumphs

my most favorite tales

what

2.4502 : 8/30/17 : All Regrets

All regrets as

still unrecovered

I find there isn't

much I discovered

really in all those

channels and shards

a kind of weary

send up

for the fool-king

of the bards

what

2.4448 : 7/7/17 : Loose Net

Sensation thought and feelings fade

leave memory that unreliable aid

and sole assist to continuity

loose net versus personality's superfluity

been reading too much utopian sci-fi

have connected in a hotel's inadequate wi-fi

ambitons I may regret in seven clicks

but hey it's the time I've got

to get my kicks

So to hell with theoretical

let's dwell in the meat

live without fear

of what lurks down the dark street

the net fails us all

on a long enough scale

and as to your schemes

I won't condescend

to point out the hole in

that pail

what

2.3729 : 7/19/15 : Another World (Endless Axis 462/500)

Another world

could I find my heart

and move right in

and really start

broadcast straight

at you from there

and would anyone hear

and would anyone care

I don't look back

with envy or regret

every year still feels

could be the best yet

and potential it is

stashed and curled

all ready to discover

in another world

what

2.3721 : 7/11/15 : Forget Get (Endless Axis 454/500)

Technically again

forgot to pull the pin

Or is it the other way

Keep forget get in

a little local light show

past midnight

facing five hours

hell I'm so not right

Feeling regret

Scratch at my side door

all things considered

What the hell is it for

Guess I better find

new ways to cope

I guess I wish I knew

who handed me all this rope

what

2.3695 : 6/15/15 : Old Play (Endless Axis 428/500)

Isn't there danger

in finding the moment great

I don't regret every

time I chose to hesitate

I should be questioning

this how hard

I know what I'm dealing

tomorrow's card

all the same tracks

fall behind the same way

full stop I'm sick of

giving the same old play

what

2.3683 : 6/3/15 : Lawn (Endless Axis 416/500)

This ring won't come off

this day won't end

and I'll regret it

I'll regret it all my friend

And how to piece out

the way from here to unknown

unimaginable dawn

Maybe just never get it

Maybe get off my damn lawn

what

2.3580 : 2/20/15 : Stretched (Endless Axis 313/500)

Last stretched hour

hah yeah right

Better repent now

gonna be a long night

grant me the patience

Because it's nowhere near the end

and I'm long on regrets

and sure could use a new friend

what

2.3527 : 12/29/14 : Sacrifice (Endless Axis 260/500)

Is all fear of time

fear of regret

is all fear that

this is all we get

remembered joy

it comes with a price

and there is no true life

without sacrifice

what

2.3513 : 12/15/14 : Join Them (Endless Axis 246/500)

The million mes

Billions? Maybe

some degree

of infinity

and the fractures

have been cracking me up

the fighting

regrets

and I'm no young pup

I'm not beaten

but anyway

got to join them

and brilliant

new sayings

we'll coin them

what

2.3485 : 11/17/14 : The Beast (Endless Axis 218/500)

One way or another

the beast will out

but the way's clouded

So I've got to scout

turned out in darkness

hardly tooled up

hang tight I'll get

another world spooled up

Wake up too early

think I detect the beast stalk

Stay up too late

dirty pictures and cheap talk

I try to fight it

when it's nowhere to be seen

regret the distraction

back to building the machine

what

2.3477 : 11/9/14 : Harmed (Endless Axis 210/500)

Harmed early in

is there any chance at recovery

oh please be this time

find I'm still on

the voyage of discovery

oh be the end

of denial and regret

and every thing

I couldn't get

what

2.3184 : 1/20/14 : What Kind

The irony and my story

the 19 year old mind

thinking it has such developed

notions of what kind

It's not regret, second guessing

still self awareness is a mixed blessing

double it, it feels like

It could be critical hit

losing steps right and left

chancing the pendulum pit

these days doom feels imminent

feel dead old; need black tea and liniment

What kind will they say

When I'm the daisy pushing type

Will anyone even remember the hype?

what

2.31634: 12/31/13 : Before the Party

Before the party

in the quiet of the night

vow to make something nice

to bathe in the light

tonight tonight tonight

I'll commit my soul

and swear to scorn every regret

and smile through every toll

I hearby pledge

my life to beauty

regardless of the price

necessity exacts

Oh prince of dark designs

I do hereby refute thee

and declare this book henceforth

to be my Book of Acts

what

2.3100 : 10/28/13 : Waiting (Lou: 3/3)

Still waiting for the bells, Lou

did you hear

did I ever tell you

I could never put it

quite so bold

and the life I live is quieter

by a hundred fold

Who am I fooling

a thousand at least

and when you're left on this side

regret is a beast

but I don't regret on hour

I spent with you

So thanks for the sound

So thanks for the bells too

what

2.3088 : 10/16/13 : Stop Fighting Time

And just like that

he says I:

stop fighting time

no more

such thing as a deadline

show me

the beautiful

show me anciency standing

I will stop saying

I'm sick of everything

I will stop demanding

I will stop

fighting time

and make truce with regret

and you're smiling, nodding

but you're

betting against me

I bet

what

2.3070 : 09/28/13 : Ally

Fed up with the

lingering impressions of dreams

I can't remember

but the feeling that they leave behind

reminds me of

some past regret you know it seems

Sometimes like I have

no ally in my own mind

I know many

by name who surely are on my side

and believe me

that I have true gratitude

and still I need

a true ally on the inside

I know what's required

is more than just attitude

Waking I dreamed

sour pessimism might just carry the day

If I could teach a way

of hope to the dour depressed

physician heal thyself

you know I say it just as you say

your dreams leave an impression

but your dreaming doesn't leave me impressed

what