2.5279 : 10/16/19 : Sign Off

One of those

wrap it up days

American flag

sign-off music plays

been none of that

a whole lot of years

all goes non-stop

So many tiers

So many channels

such a chaos mob

that barely notes

while it stuffs its gob

but not to dwell

focus on the beam

on the sign off kick

and conserve my steam

what

2.5207 : 8/5/19 : One Place (The Experiment: 42/100)

Stay in one place

how goes the race

don't ask dad

this is not dew on my face

Easy to predict

the outcome of late

not much will change

in the disunited state

and sure every generation

thinks we hit the wall for real

but this latest round of chaos

has a different feel

or so I say

when I should be recreating

try to elevate the tone

in the next reiterating

what

2.5175 : 7/4/19 : Freedom (The Experiment: 10/100)

243

could choosing be

the opposite of

freedom

good lord

sure sounds dumb

each choice

a lock

potential

stumbling block

is mere chaos

the alternative

I can't make sense

of how we live

what

2.4676 : 2/20/18 : Reason for Being

Waves and water

great rolling clouds

all these words dissolving

get no cheering

got no crowds

just a sense of turmoil

a great roiling chaos

some how the capitalists

will harness

to preplex the players

and I'm bobbing along

the surface like a cork

obsessed with my

reason for being

won't be delivered by a stork

won't be wrapped

like a package

sublty marked in a book

for all that I can't give

up on it

and so I wriggle

on the hook

what

2.4329 : 3/10/17 : Scatter

My business all

a scatter pattern

lost that guy

who had the lantern

guess I didn't measure up

again again

invoke the cup

too old

eclipsed

no grails

feels like the rest's

on rails

my business alla

chaos moiré

only in my dreams

the crystal array

what

2.4325 : 3/6/17 : The Plot

Mighta lost the plot too

far back to find the trail

again do we tray to make

or find by hammer thread lens or sail

many think it's hardly a real thing

bound by book cross rope rail or ring

but I loved it so

just can't say goodbye

I swear I saw it far off

once with my good eye

So what it explains the chaos

say it don't exist

Say that's just more rising action

know I've got a list

play it one two three

when I'm down by four

for the breath of a rumor

I'll get up off the floor

what

2.4261 : 1/1/17 : Rune

So the sucking void

asserts its space

too soon

Please don't ask me to

explain the chaos rune

just the armies

of the hateful

Still on every side

and does the light really abide?

I'm just cranky

I'm just low on sleep

fucked up on legal

uppers

downers

too much wheat

too many words

too many minds

everted

on this backwards warped

panoptic

where all progress

is perverted

what

2.4179 : 10/11/16 : Just What Abides

The fall's so far

I fall asleep

dream I'm walking

a tightrope

up an incline steep

I got so caught up

in the oohs and ahs

I forgot to pull

my contract out

read the escape clause

everyone was hot

and taking sides

I was lost in

contemplation

of just what abides

can anything hold up

to the deeptime shuffle

the chaos boys

were grinning

I got ready for a scuffle

what

2.3543 : 1/14/15 : The Chaos Script (Endless Axis 276/500)

I try to tap the leisure well

but all I get's the chaos script

try again try again try again

or so the motivation robots quipped

If I only had a hero's heart

I would just toss it all and write the book

but I want a sure thing or at least some insurance

So I keep searching searching for that hook

what

2.3496 : 11/28/14 : Ice Arrives (Endless Axis 229/500)

Ice arrives

I know for sure you mean to cool me

Fooled me twice

So now never forever fool me

anymore

and this ice I mean to beat it

this halting state

I'm no machine I will defeat it

Get out ahead

race the ice's leading edge

So say hello

to my little thin end of the wedge

I mean to dive into

the crack of this dumb earth

So spun to chaos

yet I can't contain my mirth

what

2.3456 : 10/19/14 : Bad Skeptic (Endless Axis 189/500)

Had be been a

bad skeptic

listened to emotion

heard the spirit

as it hovered

over the chaos ocean

His story

an inkblot

everybody

bring their baggage

ignoring how

it's all talk talk

ignoring

it's all cabbage

what

2.3023 : 08/12/13 : Chaos Wrangler

Probably

got me dead to rights

guy

no chaos wrangler

well I am

I guess I have to

but I'd rather be an angler

Slow and steady patient type

but I'm not sure

how long I can wait

and the 

unknowing

disorder's

put me into

such a state

101 Curious Professions 68: Wrangler

what

2.2953 : 06/03/13 : Our Ways

Say things are falling all apart
say that things are fine
You've got a right to your opinion
just like I've got mine
but the truth doesn't care
what anyone might think
and when I think about our ways
my heart does tend to sink
I've been thinking too much of bad luck
of sickness and death
forget the living in the moment
and taking in my own breath
the easy fixes
just dim lights on a crooked path
trying to prop up the continuity
and dodge chaotic wrath

what

2.2067 : 12/30/10 : Recover

How do I recover from
the sucker punch
the feeling of breaking free
however unwise
could I feel it if I didn't act it
always as the last time
the grand prize
after this and after that
I'm always surviving
some ordeal
and just want a little help
a little help to
recover how I did feel
put recovery on the back burner
I listen to the beast tonight
know it means it's all in chaos
whatever it will be all right

what

2.1989 : 10/13/2010 : Certain

To be certain
just can't be certain
So pull the curtain
and get on with it
Words lost to chaos
Well probably no great loss
it irks but who knows
it could be a hit
but this hit calls
and maybe that's all
remember to forget

what

2.1793 : 3/31/10 : Chaos

Chaos reigns in the small hours
chaos reigns in the ivory towers
I dream of an idea that transcends
in a crazy universe where nothing ends
make your movie make your novel
it won't mean much in this hovel
I dream of a day free of obligation
but I don't pretend, I've learned my station
whatever has been sent in the past
tomorrow's open, empty, ho, avast
I'll translate it when the moment comes
I won't remember the context or the sums
that add up to a final reckoning
and I hear the wild calling beckoning

what

2.1723 : 1/20/10 : Pessimism

Had to feel good about
being the most popular pessimist
I'd be much better off
to ignore but I can't resist
but things must really endure
because the tide's not going to wait
and it will sweep you into chaos
in a moment if you hesitate
We've pulled it off before
I guess we could one last
the long term doesn't look so hot
but by then my time will be past
and if I think of something
better I will write a book
but I wouldn't lay a bet on that
so kindly let me off the hook

what

2.1641 : 10/30/09 : Bulge

Push one thing down another swells up

battle of the bulge and the steady state

with one battle up comes another

no option but to choose not to participate

no different than the rest all soldiers no generals

no orders no instructions no maps

no radios no high command to call

just this dumb rolling ball fighting over the scraps

throw another book into the void screaming hole

Throw another handful of pocket change

spend another night listening to doom prophets

and another and another and another will be arranged

come sweet silence a little for a little while

war and chaos will roll over again

and to hope for any truce is a weakness I cannot indulge

what

2.1625 : 10/14/09 : Pattern Recognition

Why this brain’s supposedly so great

a point I tend to think you overrate

I guess it comes in handy

spotting the connections dandy

But in the valley where chaos reigns

it asks more questions than it ever explains

Pattern recognition

Won’t explain my grim position

Why isn’t it clearer or completely opaque

If I’m never going to make it will I always

have to fake

I recognize this pattern but

feel powerless to halt it

If I can’t blame my brain who can I blame

Still it feels wrong to fault it

Keep looking for the patterns

don’t you get discouraged

see long hours late of screwing off

hey maybe you should act your age

and I know recognizing it’s the easy part

scribing a new pattern is wholly the realm of art

but you’ve got to start where you are

if you hope to gin up a new avatar

what

2.1604 : 9/23/09 : Numbers Racket

Should I be playing in a

numbers racket

running a numbers racket

odds are odd and

I couldn’t hack it

Guess I’ll stick to

seeking wages

messing up and

filling pages

till I tip the

rock of ages

see what’s crawling

underneath

run tongue over my

wearing teeth

and lay down this

mourning wreath

No more numbers

rackets no quick fix

and all the chaos

it inflicts

the other path is slow and dull

I just hope I’ve got a few more tricks

what