2.4523 : 9/20/17 : Envy Stones

Once I felt defiant

these days I'm not so sure

the ground is very trodden

not much left you'd call pure

closing my eyes I only

see a hundred envy stones

and everything everything

I cannot wring

from my own bones

the show doesn't slow down

the players get youger

whet thin and whittled

by a differet sort of hunger

And if I had to bet

I'd probably try to hedge

and the whisper in the back

I must be losing my edge

what

2.4065 : 6/19/16 : Evaporation

Before another minute

Evaporates

I'll sling this hash

on seven plates

discipline hunger

chance and loss

redemption salvation

and of course

the way across

what

2.3250 : 3/27/14 : The Decision to Fast

The decision to fast

and all it entails

try to transcend this plateau

of freaks and fails

hunger is a medicine

and anodyne a sauce

contrast for those getting soft

and and antidote for loss

what

2.3170 : 1/06/14 : Hunger

Can't whine about the hunger

all self-imposed

explaining cold to those

so terribly exposed

yet it creeps through all

and drifts from every pore

and there's even a strange beast within

Who hisses more and more

what

2.2889 : 03/31/13 : Wicked Cruel

Apparently I hunger
apparently I thirst
it seems that I am selfish
and always think the worst
of men and situations
and women don't get me started
Apparently I'm wicked cruel
but I protest
I'm tender hearted
It all just came from dreams
and who can account for those
they don't tell me who I am
they can't tell me what I chose
and if the prose of it
doesn't really make my case
still take another look
how can you mistrust this face?

what

2.2724 : 10/17/12 : Sell Out

If they offered me a paycheck
and a slot to tuck in
I'd sell out this mess so fast
your little head would spin
but there is no they
and nobody is buying
So it's back to the blank sheet
as it seems I'm far from dying
What a miserable topic
You must be so bored
as I struggle to embrace
what I claimed I once abhorred
we who never truly hungered
never truly faced the street
will sell out industry's last dregs
as we drag and drag our feet

what

2.2493 : 2/29/12 : Disordered

It isn't scarcity
I's not exactly disease
I am disordered
with a hunger unappeased
certainly I'm choosing it
certainly there are options
I eye the plan every day
and everyday
I put off it's adoption
It must be treated
the disorder must be overcome
heap a silver plate with black powder
now bring me some

what

2.2447 : 1/14/12 : Hunger

When philosophy fails
the hunger remains
and so the striving
remains a refrain
the object is hazy
but the hunger is sharp
and it bangs ever discordant
on this tacky gilded harp
and the creaky tune it cranks out
doesn't please even a little
it's just hunger sawing out
the standard plot on its
wrecked fiddle

what

2.2390 : 11/18/11 : Lost

I was compelled to contemplate
how little I have lost
and the sin of taking for granted
and its terrible cost
Do not hesitate to send the letter
Now is the only time to make it better
Loss comes for all
its hunger can't be sated
and its mark on me so far
it scarcely can be rated
Be brave declare your love
he here below as you imagine it above
loss serves its purpose
but it is harsh, unforgiving
remind you life is for nothing
but hard joyous living
stand up hold out your hand
beckon sadly to the lost and promised land

what

2.2087 : 01/19/11 : Hungers

Dwelling in hungers
an unhealthy thirst
I've got not excuse
not to do my worst
turned too far inward
path out's obscure
and I'm loathe to rouse up
until I'm totally sure
and that isn't coming
and hungers just ramp
and I'm wishing I hadn't
let go of my amp

what

2.1765 : 3/3/10 : Fill

Fill the tank just getting there
everyone will stop and stare
watching some insane parade
everybody drink the kool aid
they are no different than me
living out this parody
filling up the hungry tube
just use plenty plenty of lube
Despite it all I'll carry on
deliver you a daily song
yeah, you've heard the thing before
I live with it and still make more
do I crave the limelight stage
to somehow turn to a simpler age
no right now is fine by me
fill today defying entropy

what

2.1658 : 11/16/09 : What to Do with a $10 Gift Certificate to Walmart

Principles are great

but hunger’s real

think about not having enough

think about how you’d feel

Spend it on food 

give it to the poor

ignore the big picture

strangely you feel you have more

A thousand dilemmas

who can guess what’s really right

it keeps me guessing

it keeps me up all night

I’ll make the great chart

I’ll figure it out

the devil will be damned

it’s going to be a god damned rout

I’ll be here again

none to tweak the circumstances

a thousand and one hours

makes a thousand and one chances

forget about what you read

in some old moldy book

I’m going to make the video

that makes

everyone want to buy

the Book

what

2.1237 : 9/21/08 : Waiting Game

It's a waiting game

No matter how you roll

we’re all waiting

for that bell to toll

We're all hungry

We're all insane

thinking of the potential

on that membrane

So I'll hear my sounds

I'll do my mantra

you can almost

hear it can't ya

double space final fold

I better ditch it before it gets old

what

2.1077 : 4/14/08 : Free Will! Free Will!

Holy shit!

free will is back

better wake up pay attention

it’s a sneak attack!

free will free will

it’s a strange estate

I think it’s an illusion

but still true:

and great!

Oh man I can’t decide

What I’ll do first

satiate this hunger

or slake this thirst

I’m looking some disheveled

I’m feeling slightly tight

but I’ll exercise my free will

and not stay up all night

what

2.868 : 9/18/07 : The Moment

If the moment ever came

it’s passed now

I’m faking gains

like Skilling and Fastow

I’m maybe not the sharpest

knife in the block

I’m dying for a moment

just to rest and take stock

Why am I hungry

why so sick and tired

how did I ever manage

to avoid getting fired

and now that I’m

the only boss I’ve got

there’s no one else to pin on

how I got in this spot

it’s been too long

that it’s all been a slog

trying to hunt with

this no-account dog

In time the moment

will come ‘round again

but what will I make of it

I won’t know till I begin

what

2.547 : 11/1/06 : Efficiency

With the efficiency of
a cyanide shower
none of the evil
all of the power
I’ll slash slash through
the evidence of my disaster
stumble through the trials
like an august die-caster
It’s never really mattered
if it’s good or bad
when the yahoos figure that one out
they’ll know they been had
but when that shoe falls
I’ll be long gone
barefoot, hungry
still going strong
So don’t bother asking
what it’s for
I’ll just whip you up another
and tomorrow one more
maybe it's genius
or deficiency
but none can question
my efficiency

what

2.497 : 9/12/06 : The Path of Three

Oh path oh path of three
will you not show yourself to me
Built on strength on discipline
And the whipcord of hunger
for the journey to begin
The path is long but the map is brief
I’ll let this versling stand as an aperitif
Sure it’s been said a million times before
but as always in this case
it seems less might be more

what

2.487 : 9/2/06 : The Future of 3 Part 2

Five year plan title
The future of:
3 pages mission
vision
goal there was
Had to admit
there was some
chuckling at the gall
said:
Work
hunger
discipline
& that was all

what