2.5273: 10/10/19 : Someday for Sure

Pain's in the head

is it anywhere

else

is it anything

else

Someday

for sure

and no

real cure

But while

you've got me here

best

keep busy

teacher's

not coming

is he?

what

2.5241 : 9/8/19 : Brains Out (The Experiment: 76/100)

If only it were so easy

to get your brains out

a couple tablets before bed

forget old pain's shout

Forget it all and think no more

the doc can shine a light in

admire the empty skull cavern

form now on I'll fit right in

what

2.4893 : 9/25/18 : Shake

What I can't shake

like the book states:

remains

Getting wound up

about my

aches and pains

I dial it back

but it comes 'round

all the same

bringing to mind a

parable

of moths 'round a flame

what

2.4871 : 9/3/18 : Brief Yearning

Live up to the name

wake up to the same

guess I'll be learning

to keep things brief

as yearning

and brilliant as pain

oh it's all in your brain

just like every delight

that snaps out like a light

what

2.4782 : 6/6/18 : Seven Years On

Seven years on

I should express gratitude

I mainly beat the new worm

and less pain's no platitude

Some long hard years

plenty of blood

mystified as to the cause of it

way out clear as mud

of course the grind came in

stole most of the gain

pulled out of the red spiral

So much for less random pain

but I've got to be real

and give a real thanks

at least until life

pulls the next of its unholy pranks

what

2.4740 : 4/25/18 : Hand and Neck

Try not to see portents

in my hand and neck

just this aging body

just hurts like heck

One small comfort gives me

it's a good excuse

hope to sleep this vise off

And tomorrow be more use

what

2.4706 : 3/22/18 : 7 Kinds

7 kinds of pain

stem to stern

top to bottom

and still worms turn

should be friends now

such long

acquaintance

should be preaching

doling them out penance

in a solid twelve

I'll be again

submerged

losing every lesson

of resolve

that briefly surged

what

2.4366 : 4/16/17 : Cake

This is all just cake

right?

a cool breeze for

you defeated

all the world

that's good because

I need a break

and it need not be

repeated

If I could just get it

through my small

and worried brain

no need to invite the fall

or suffer for all

this imaginary pain

what

2.4121 : 8/14/16 : Ache

Disinclined to fight through

to write through the ache

factor of aging

bad choices, rack

countless other maybes

add up to quite a stack

and I pulled hella duty

so I won't apologize

and I have to move it on

leave the ache where it lies

what

2.4092 : 7/16/16 : Dumb

Make dumb magic

like any other false start

dumb mule persistence

I dare call art

So sweep the floor

and blow the fog out

best step back

before I let this dog out

let the list grow

thousand one and scarce a start

ain't good enough to matter

but oh boy I do got heart

but this pain

is southwards deep gut

it's a dumb thing

my friend

this mute surly mutt

what

2.4064 : 6/18/16 : NECK

This pain in my neck

reminder of the trek

This journey still raw

the call the deep flaw

Prays sleep will erase

Smooth lines in his face

reset and set free

Sweet though unlikely

what

2.3978 : 3/24/16 : Not Sorry

Pain is driving

I'm down I'm skiving

sorry not sorry

I'm just sick of that one story

what

2.3975 : 3/21/16 : Rah

Oh right

rah rah this

still scrapping

still hunting bliss

pain pressing

burned some minutes

What the hell else

all impermanent, finite

what

2.3798 : 9/26/15 : Stars

Throw punches around

like ninja stars

punch through to

riches respect

fancy classic cars

no more need

to be eloquent

punch my way to

value self-evident

Punch grief punch loss

punch squandered potential

for the church of pain

and this ring reverential

what

2.3585 : 2/25/15 : Lance (Endless Axis 318/500)

Said he would lance it

but it was a clean cut

pain like no other 

Someday sure again so what

to let go to not care to know

how is a lance to the core

past the fear struggle

and the more more more

If not sufficient what

Could be anywhere for anyone

Excusing no injustice neither

Claiming a mantle of the chosen one

no need to wrap things neatly

no need to close the door

no need for reaching out

for effortless comes what's in store

what

2.3505 : 12/07/14 : The Confusion (Endless Axis 238/500)

Hey wait I think I fell for the

illusion, you know they called me

the confusion and I fell for

the old forest just for a tree

now buried deep is any sense

I should get emotional sure

I could conjure up old highs lows

Words meant to insult and inure

If we live these old slaps over

knock my confused head right on back

Did we learn a thing I think not

the illusion shows not a crack

can't make an excuse anymore

of my confusion be it so

acute painful and burdensome

Might seem unfair well ain't it though?

what

2.3424 : 9/17/14 : A Master Class (Endless Axis 157/500)

Said dear teacher do appear

I haven't learned a thing from fear

Inside I'm not just an old dog

Inside I'm not a cog

I don't want to go back to school

be measured by that rusty rule

It seems I'll never find that tool

but don't give up

I'll find my way, I'll find my way

I'll find my way, I'll learn today

Opportunity is knocking now

It's not a brass ring it's a plow

be careful what you wish for you know

and don't give up

So no one really got a pass

the real ceiling's lead not glass

And anyone who wants to can take

the master class

I'll find my way, I'll find my way

I'll find my way, I'll learn today

Endless notebooks endless books

Stealing endless dirty looks

at soft flesh in the next seat

then thousand miles behind those feet

And if I'd had more courage, spark

If I'd laughed or blessed the dark

I'd trade this life and never know

There's just no tracing how things go

And none of it's even a blip

You're only ever on one trip

And someday every veil will rip

So don't give up

Despite the pain that kept me up

Despite the hole in my full cup

I'd rather create than disrupt

And won't give up

I'll find my way, I'll find my way

I'll find my way, I'll learn today

Still think it's a worthy trade

a little love I made that grade

If it's a game we still all played

And don't give up

First day of the Master Class

Spin and drop in early fall's grass

Find the ring that's gold not brass

If I don't give up

I'll find my way, I'll find my way

I'll find my way, I'll learn today

We'll find our way, We'll find our way

We'll find our way, we'll learn today

what

2.3404 : 8/28/14 : Uncouth (Endless Axis 137/500)

Wait in the silence

listen very hard

for a sound of soft calling

or a turning of a card

believe the pain has purpose

the package is complete

a little more rest

then an hour of planning

then I'm back on my feet

I cast the die

like Caesar in the breach

cast off the fear that

maybe I can neither do nor teach

there in the silence

I'll ask only what truth is

turn my own card once more

get on with this uncouth biz

what

2.3313 : 5/29/14 : Stacking (Endless Axis 46/500)

Wrestling mater

stacking stones

even when the strain

stains pain in the deep bone

another day

boy I can't wait

It's shaping up

to a bold estate

What I put past me

What I look for ahead

the ironclad conclusion

of how I make this bed

what I'm stacking up

pages galore

it's a hell of a lot

and there's so much more

what

2.3171 : 1/07/14 : Christ Usurp the Thorn

Christ usurp the thorn in me

return me to the joy that's free

When you're sufficient over all

it's then I hear your highest call

I'm weak and lost inside of pain

restore me to your way again

peace and perspective, simple joy

the sting of every thorn destroy

bid me be thankful, honest, just

Give me to thoughtfulness and trust

true freedom's your sufficiency

and peace surround this thorn in me

what