2.2768 : 11/30/12 : Gimmicks

Maybe could have guessed gimmicks
and shortcuts not your game
Well I never asked for the lottery
or sudden fame
just a simple plan
some confidence of execution
left with solipsism
ever-present confusion
World seems unfixable
people obstinate and cruel
children ask only for love
can't even afford them gruel
fix it your non-presence demands
you immanentize my promised lands
have you taken a look at these aching hands
trying to grasp shadows, desert sands
it's a cruel trick
when you known I'm not built for it
To issue this compulsion
To me to dive in to the hilt for it
No it's not a gimmick
but it's a dark magic spell
here I thought you dealt in light
all the time but oh well

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2.2767 : 11/29/12 : The Horse

To hell with you all
And the horse you all road in on
I guess I'll line up with the rest
but inside I am not a minion
It could go on and on
but I'll retire to get rave on
You'll have to show me if you think
there's one good reason to behave on

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2.2766 : 11/28/12 : Priorities

Are you trying to tell me something
about priorities
I said they'd come first but I
can't get to them
that's some exquisite irony
I could use a little help here
The Path's anything but clear
can you even relate to fear
Without a wheel I cannot steer
And here I am
at a remove discussing
my priorities
Speaking to air
inside my head
craving just a taste of my old certainty

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2.2765 : 11/27/12 : Cliff

Everybody's talking cliffs
All feeling up against
the cuts we cornered
with the words we minced
fear the insurrection
the resource crash
and all that couldn't be solved
with a fistful of cash
want to see the whole world drawn up
and converged
but aside from the odd battlefield
nothing really surged
and real or imaginary
the cliff haunts us all
and no matter who
we all take the big last fall

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2.2764 : 11/26/12 : Don't Talk

Don't talk about failure
the same same same
don't mention the project
or anything by name
How no one pays attention
how nobody cares
Don't talk about that comeback
You came up with on the stairs
What a pity, nothing to say
give me a topic is all I pray
And I don't talk about it
Anywhere but here
Don't talk how it's all circular
Or how there's nothing here

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2.2763 : 11/25/12 : Fast

Give me a magic missile
and make it fast
universal projectile
a killing strike to last
what is this yawning emptiness
my first world tourist trip
I'll speak of it for years I'm sure
a half dozen meals I skip

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2.2762 : 11/24/12 : Triage

I'm going to triage my priorities
It's going to be different this time, you'll see
won't get distracted, let my focus slip
be like an arrow shot in space this trip
failing belief in a special destiny
triage must be my first priority
failing belief in special intervention
the structure of decision must be of my own invention
but I'll make it nice and simple like 1, 2, 3
and feeling right will be my next priority
and since a triage of course means three
well I hate to ruin surprises so just wait and see

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2.2761 : 11/23/12 : Face

Making a list of things
to throw in your all-seeing face
I add some flattering
there on the end for just in case
it's a nice trick
how you vanish when the blame goes 'round
but when it's time for giving thanks
your self-regard astounds
my face looks back at me
am I still a believer
am I in the grips of the
delusion of some grim deceiver
I find I cannot push
my mind in these shapes anymore
now I am face to face with it
forced to decide what it is for

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2.2760 : 11/22/12 : A Million Stories

Anticipating antipathy
the days we pick here
in Land o' Free
Can't we all just
try to be nice
a million stories
and with each comes a price
I'll be the bigger man
I'm just that kind
now there's a story
I'd delete from my mind
If you could do that
it turns out you can't
So I repeat myself
so I rave and rant

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2.2759 : 11/21/12 : Pre-Emptive

Pre-emptive thanks
weren't expecting it
show me your crazy notion
Wow I'm respecting it
Short of time
but it's at your command
me in my usual state
yes nothing in my hand

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2.2758 : 11/20/12 : These Days

Sure of these days
I was very clearly told
they even guaranteed they'd strike
before I was quite old
They even told me I'd be
surprised despite the warning
but no one could explain
the way I'd feel that next morning
no use in getting mad
anyway we can't afford it
if there's only one train out
What use to refuse to board it
these days I have to ask
Is it really any new trouble
or just that it's our turn now
to draw a black spot and get it double

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2.2757 : 11/19/12 : No Advice

I give up my no advice again
I am so far out of my depth my friend
my fine mentor can we begin again
nothing but my stupid little prayers to send
And it's all like this isn't it oh Great One
Okay till it's not and anytime you say, boom, done
I can't keep track of everything I had begun
and nothing done and oh are we yet having fun?
No advice at all in the book just weird tales
neither wise nor a babe just a blank verse gun on rails
and what've you got to say everyday you outrage me with travails
how hard how dark how fast my sin pales
in comparison to the high and mighty
in comparison to the crimes of Aphrodite
I guess I'm not a lot of use, all-rightey
as I quest for the advice so elusive and flighty

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2.2756 : 11/18/12 : Grind

Is there any work
that isn't a grind
or is it just how must
messes with my mind
I thought that I
Could rise above
be mister iconoclast
Live on love
but Justice ain't the only
thing that's blind
and everywhere I look
it's just another grind

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2.2755 : 11/17/12 : Rogue Android

Rogue android
will we never learn
after the disaster
and its lesson so stern
we just keep bringing them
because they work so hard
thinking this time we won't
screw it up: let down our guard

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2.2754 : 11/16/12 : Spec

Will anything ever
end up matching the spec
So many times I prayed gold
and rolled up dreck
should I be digging harder
or pulling up my claim
Or just searching out someone
to loudly blame
what if nothing ever changes
from now on
I think I heard that
in some forgotten song
What if God made it all up
and shrugs when we ask why
Someone should think about that
but not this guy

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2.2753 : 11/15/12 : Shallow

Good God could it be
it's still all been superficial
Up to this point the surface only
the truth always so sacrificial
maybe there's nothing in there
everything is hollow
would that even excuse
these long swamps in which I wallow
thrash out into the deep
toes lift off the riverbed
feel it closing over
and try not to lose your head

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2.2752 : 11/14/12 : Drop

4 days drop like a rock
into a dark pool
they can't teach you where it goes
in any school
It may just
teach you to respect the mysteries
dear God
I hope it's harbinging
a brighter destiny

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2.2751 : 11/13/12 : Softballs

I need some softballs
slow pitches up in there
too tired to swing hard
a pile of stress and fear
I guess I serve myself
pick my path day to day
the saving grace is
there's always more to say

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2.2750 : 11/12/12 : Circle 'Round the Heart

I circle 'round the heart
wondering if I dare to tap it
thinking of the pile that waits
for this plan if I scrap it
So now what demand some more
I heard there was a promise
I don't know what for
But you've got to put
Your heart in it
Tonight you'll dream
just how you'll start in it

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2.2749 : 11/11/12 : Rosetta

I can't speak the language
though it is so common
this is not the rosetta
of the Ankh or Aman
There's no translation across
all these channels
the triptych works
but there's no translating the panels
I guess we'll have to
stay curious about it
But you know I understand
Why you were
furious about it

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2.2748 : 11/10/12 : Damietta

I had trouble in getting to Damietta
the years I dreamed and so little got better
the journey north its thousand tales
You know the end I sought beyond a thousand veils
Everybody took to me like Lawrence of Arabia
So wise and sensitive
I seemed a sage or maybe a
harbinger, an omen an idol
in Damietta in the time of my revival

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2.2747 : 11/09/12 : I'm Done

I threw my dice into the river
ah whoops that didn't deliver
was never great with metaphor
Especially ones about Roman war
If you think it's been real
if you think it's been fun
maybe you should try it out
for a couple of years: I'm done
Hell I don't know what I'll talk about next
anything but ambition or circular text
As long as it can carry about five years
by then I swear every account will be out of arrears
by then I swear
I'll find out how to find out
by then I know
I'll really clean my mind out
but today baby
I ain't the one
and the reason I know
is because I'm done

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2.2746 : 11/08/12 : Idea

What came across like
such a straight idea
all light in the darkness
all truth will free ya
Such a bit of nothing
five minute's action
turned out so much work
and where's the satisfaction
I said: Idea
when you turned so wrong
another and another and another song
when I thought I had the number
of all you fools
world grew so many moving parts
all with so few rules
not much revision
in the premise as conceived
and if I turn it over
would I be relieved
Say I'm taking my idea
and I'm going home
but it sticks like a shadow
wherever I may roam

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2.2745 : 11/07/12 : Other Game

Am I asking the right questions
am I on the right side
Am I foolishly spectating as
ill suited entropies elide
the feeling I can't shake
has two faces like a coin
bound always together but
the two can never truly join
But I see myself neither elevated
ranked in any great race
nor dragged int the heavy depths
having lost all worth and face
the answer's not somewhere between
it's some whole other game
Just need to learn the rules and
find the court and hand the judge my name

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2.2744 : 11/06/12 : Horse Race

Screw 'em I'm not going
to watch the so-called
horse race
leave it up to
that one and
old what's-his-face
not going to get
anxious
and bite my nails
let the rest of
you all fools
chase your tails
drum up a little
light and
innocuous fare
pretend for a night
the horse race
just isn't there

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2.2743 : 11/05/12 : In the Interest

In the interest of change
Throw a little strange
on the dice
all in the wrist
doesn't that feel nice

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2.2742 : 11/04/12 : Sign Off

Before I get too used
to the change in time
I'm going to sign one off
with a played out rhyme
that road I've been down
a thousand times before
and I stay and wait and wonder
if you've got anything more

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2.2741 : 11/03/12 : Pity

I want your pity
what's that say about me
I want to spit it
back at you and be free
all I wanted
was one last big score
You know at just a taste
you'd see me back for more
Oh it's a pity
but I'm stepping on this
doing nothing right right now
sounds just like bliss
I bet I lost you all
by now huh didn't I
pity as just now I bid
you look within my...

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2.2740 : 11/02/12 : Beg

Do I have to beg
for freedom from dreams
and will it matter
even if I do
Should I just fake it
make what is from what seems
And who should I ask
then if not you
who would start listening
at this far point
try to make sense
of this continuous catalog
Even I just want
to quit this joint
revert the whole lot back to analog

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2.2739 : 11/01/12 : Feeling It

I'm feeling it the dagger before me
Oh it's real sweet dreams
no more for you to ignore me
Time to put away all childish things
a dagger of the mind
and the release it brings
And the bloody business
will be done before noon
the final execution of self concept
and burn down this sad cartoon

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2.2738 : 10/31/12 : Masks

I used to think I
understood the masks
knew the real underneath
their purpose and their tasks
turns out there's no
onion underneath the skin
it's masks all the way down
nowhere to end or begin
don't know who's saying it
don't know who says anything
guess it's saying there's no who
just masks and wandering
you'd think that it would let me
off the hook at long last
guest I can't see past it either
despite all illusions past

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