2.2799 : 12/31/12 : Quest

No bridge no
borderland
the quest goes on
but no omen
will be found to hand
and I wrap up quietly
no bombast
my quest proceeds
this day's
not first nor last

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2.2798 : 12/30/12 : Not By Light

So the dull life
so the dull poetry
I never guessed it all
would be so slow and free
next time next time
next year a big new
thing don't you believe
don't you believe it's true
You can push your problems
off a day
but they don't go away
Who wants to be reminded
it wasn't by light
I was blinded
I am responsible
for my own dullness
my attachment to possession
and fullness
and the answer
is not in the past
and I must get this down fast
You can push your problems
off a day
but they don't go away
Who wants to be reminded
it was not by light
I was blinded

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2.2797 : 12/29/12 : Never a Chorus

Ain't got it
cannot care
hey it happens
today a blank stare
never a chorus
so it all misses the point
and the lines keep getting longer
and the time more out of joint

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2.2796 : 12/28/12 : The Underwriters

After the underwriters
enumerate my vices
after I learn the costs
begin to pay the prices
nothing will change
Save a little protection
provided I can measure up
provided I can pass inspection
there's no real insurance
but you do what you can
give the underwriters their cut
and pray you get your A plan

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2.2795 : 12/27/12 : Dreams

Dreams what are you
trying to tell me
imaginary bands
my own bright fantasy
if I could get my mind
off the big parade
I'll get no part
of that cavalcade
and if there really is
no story underneath
I guess it's up to me
to give this new dream teeth

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2.2794 : 12/26/12 : Cold Start

Wondering what's becoming
of me as I begin to doubt
that dreams mean anything
as I begin to see life
as a game of cruel percentages
a random distribution
a matter mainly of parentages
no hope for revolution
no hope for transformation
no point it turned out
in gathering the information
the dull eyed truth that it's depression talking
doesn't penetrate to my heart
and inertia's all I've got left
to impel me through another cold start

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2.2793 : 12/25/12 : Borrowed

You could say it's
all been borrowed time
Since the age of three
You'd think I could
let down my guard
temper my shrill plea
all fine and well
saying to yourself
be true
But I owe what I owe
and see no help from you
and I can't distinguish
from pure chance
and I can't take in wisdom
afforded such a brief glance
and these borrowed answers
don't fit any of my questions
and what about you
are you out of suggestions

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2.2792 : 12/24/12 : Little Incarnation

Oh little incarnation
am I part of the tradition
If it's scarcely ever seen again
What then the sum of our condition
what is this song about
by whom was it written
probably none will ever ask
none enchanted none are smitten
none believe in incarnation
all reject my sacred premise
none perceive the poetry
every one points out the blemish
What can the psalmist say
I'm surely not the canon
and I've turned it all upside down
long snarling after mammon

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2.2791 : 12/23/12 : Child Star

I might be too old
to be a child star now
gone past late bloomer
I'll start right out with my last bow
Should it appear
would I reach my hand out
it's not even
worth my time to think about
what's worth it
are reasons all delusion
I can't fall back anymore
claiming blind confusion
the child stars all grew up
at the same rate as me
and strangely enough
most seem wrapped up in the same calamity

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2.2790 : 12/22/12 : Habits

Is this a habit
or a habitat
not so sure that
I can like like that
after twenty years
I really need a plan B
and having walked free
from the habits that were
killing me
I said
Here's to breaking patterns
here's to silent pauses
here's to bold adventures
that come
without escape clauses
here's to turning new habits
inside out
and I'll rock this new adventure
Like a Roundabout

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2.2789 : 12/21/12 : Deserve

I deserve a break too
just as much as
her or you
I'll steal it from
my aspiration
call it my
deferred vacation

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2.2788 : 12/20/12 : Topic

The topic
considered
rejected
no, not again
and this no great improvement
and so
what then
despite myself
the question
becomes the answer
and here's a bind I've
seen before
that's got left
no romance, here

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2.2787 : 12/19/12 : Hierarchy

I've been thinking on the hierarchy
I've been thinking it's a bunch of malarky
No escape in your bold new media
no explanation in your dumb encyclopedia
I guess I better come up with a way to feel okay
about where I seem to land in my day to day
I guess I better get over this climbing urge
I guess I better go off on a big esteem splurge
Write from the bottom still claiming the top
So sad you haters have to close up shop
Can't help but drop in the beam of my velvet anarchy
look on as we deal with the hierarchy

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2.2786 : 12/18/12 : Sanctus

In Spiritus Sanctus
You know they never thanked us
now all mixed together
one climate no weather
Could these be the bad days
The meeting of all wrong ways
the next great extinction
what place for one of no distinction?
no trace of the spiritus sanctus
that I can perceive
no it's not blasphemy
What was once felt
What and where was it?
delusion or glimmer
will grim days
see it wane ever dimmer?

what

2.2785 : 12/17/12 : Breaks

These breaks that don't matter
will any?
have you thought on that subject
Yes, many
the waves break south
the waves break east
until we break these selfish habits
we're banned from the feast
compassion battles stress:
Who knew
then what is love's tactic?
I'll have to get back to you

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2.2784 : 12/16/12 : Empty

Not a thing in my head
and it feels pretty good
I needed a vacation
and I said I would
Empty out my brain
and start fresh clean and cold
zero preconceptions
and good as gold

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2.2783 : 12/15/12 : Craft

A little long in the tooth
to learn a new craft
but what the hell else
Guess I'm going to have to
Get tired just thinking
about that hill
I'll face it all tomorrow
then I'll swallow that pill

what

2.2782 : 12/14/12 : Not Made

You and I
not made for these times
not made for this world
armed only with rhymes
If I could talk to you
What would you say
are you still very sad
I am today
make a case
this world wasn't made
for wrath and violence
We deserve a place
a little patch
of peace and silence
another day
I know I'll see it all again
I never understood it
and I still won't then

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2.2781 : 12/13/12 : A Thousand

A thousand things to do
and nothing pays
am I going to think of that
another thousand days
When I piece it out like that
it doesn't seem so much
Still well shy of ten
since when I lost my magic touch
hell I cannot ride this train
a minute more
fueled by fear and distrust
of just what's in store
So afraid of dying
by the thousand cuts
time to grasp the nettle
and this time, no buts

what

2.2780 : 12/12/12 : Break This

I've got to break this thing
I've got to
got to got to
break this thing
it's not a teacup
it's not a string
I've got to, got to got to break this thing
Up close it looks like a wall
Way back it looks like a chasm
It cast a mountain's
shadow at night
but in daylight seem a phantasm
Conscience tells me it's inside
but my eyes say
it's the world's fault
If I could just get
a couple weeks to contemplate
If I could just call a halt
to make strategy
a plan on how
on how to break this thing
until I do it seems
I can not make a thing

what

2.2779 : 12/11/12 : Puppet

Push a last penny
into this slot
watch the little puppet dance
a whole lot like
my little spot
in a little while
the next way will appear
little puppet
you will get your choice
no fear

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2.2778 : 12/10/12 : Working

What do you get
if you say it isn't working
maybe an apartment
and a lawyer's bill
What's your next move
When you can't see a future
another plan
or the poison pill
Never stop it says
never settle
It was a slogan
on a liquor ad
I had a thought
about hope and promise
Still working on it
day and night, gay or sad

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2.2777 : 12/09/12 : Trusting in Luck

Is it just
trusting in luck again
magic numbers
with my magic pen
no just exhausted
from straight up work
all perfectly legitimate
so wipe off that smirk

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2.2776 : 12/08/12 : Where Dreams Come to Die

I arrive all unprepared my everyday calamity
Look at me all meek and scared well oh the humanity
You think you're going to write your way out of this one son
The fact that I believe I might that's how the death of dreams gets done
Welcome one and all to the place where dreams come to die
Hey lady what you think of my face as the years pass me by
I even thought I was one of a kind and it would pay somehow
If my friends could read my mind if they could see me now
up in this hallowed ground where dreams come to die
sill chasing the big sound just another astral pie
And when I line them back to back you know I've got to laugh
throw another up the stack know I'm not there by half
and still you've got to find your wrap along every twenty four
Keep waiting for thing to snap still keep finding more
Imagining might be unstoppable dreams might be immortal
and when my head beat gets so droppable I cannot resist the portal
that flings me from the place where dreams come to die
the grand transcendent race that great gig in the sky
And if it is my destiny to be the last mook in the chorus
I guess it's just the pest in me that won't let you ignore us
up here singing our hearts out where dreams come to die
they're sweeter dying on the vine so sweet I want to cry
there are more things that will never be than ever get to live
and if I want to be free that's a thing I'll have to forgive

what

2.2775 : 12/07/12 : The Player

Will this let the anger out?
not this time I think about
Where it could go
and who's to blame?
the player
the brayer
or the master of the game?

what

2.2774 : 12/06/12 : Elimination

The diarist's metaphor
elimination
not exactly the most beautiful
model of creation
And the keeping
and the cataloging
paging Dr. Freud
If I wasn't me
I'd bee even more annoyed
What was I expecting
Grand revelation
What did I think
would be left standing
after all elimination
times is up for today
there's progress here for sure
if it's just clearing the decks
well still that motive's pure

what

2.2773 : 12/05/12 : Now On

From without further delay
to from now on
try to parse despite my attitude
it's just that what's been going on
the difference everywhere
the revelation of the increment
a talisman against despair
I reach out for the feeling of
a journey I once had
recall myself withdraw my hand
it can't be grasped for good or bad
what's not philosophy or science
tends to defy their boxes
and rhetoric's no substitute
When I roll out these paradoxes

what

2.2772 : 12/04/12 : Set

How do you really get
outside the set in ways
a million dollar question sure
but then who pays
past superstition
superficial meaning
such a slow slow harvest
of wisdom I'm gleaning
I would like to please myself
that's no crime
I would like to tell my tale
it's my dime
If no one wants to listen
I'll find a way to cope
as I still grope for the edges
well I've still got hope

what

2.2771 : 12/03/12 : So Bad

Want to give up so bad
hey nobody's stopping you
the concept so rad
but the network's still dropping you
I used to be a player
for certain small definitions
peeled off another layer
whoops and lost my ambitions

what

2.2770 : 12/02/12 : Fresh Concept

Leave thoughts unthought
hey a fresh concept
for your crazy bin
ten years and still
we just keep cooking up
and chucking in
Alternatives are scarce
even while riches embarrass
Don't wear it out
soon it will find its way
to history's pile
you wouldn't think it
but it's been planned like this
all the while
it even has a name
but guessing it is half the game

what

2.2769 : 12/01/12 : Reruns

Gross: what if it's all reruns
form here on out no original content
wait did I say this before
don't look at me friend no comment
that it's all been seeming too familiar
nothing but to put it to the halt
hope for a better day like always
remember that it isn't all my fault

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