2.1277 : 10/31/08 : Coda to a Decade

Can’t figure out if it’s been

nine years or ten

looks like I’m going to have to

call it rounding error again

coda to a decade

one more stumbling halt

but I need a fast run-up

to this damn pole vault

what

2.1276 : 10/30/08 : Age of Fire and Wine

And so began the age

of fire and wine

history got rewritten again

no surprises

about who came out fine

I’ve got to write

one period

to put a cap on it

this twenty pound rocket

with a strap on it

what

2.1275 : 10/29/08 : And Now the Clown

We’ve done the big night

eighty times

the variations

the various crimes

act like a grown up

middle aged

buried down deep

some dim impulse raged

how could I claim

any changes

the regressive twist

and how it estranges

me from my present

all my treasure

maybe next time

better measure

what

2.1274 : 10/28/08 : Campaign for Change

Dial another

no such number

doing some teensy part

try not to think about

my own backsliding

my neglected

so called art

Maybe it will

count for something

granular

distributed

at least I don’t want

recognition

let it all be to

the campaign for change

attributed

what

2.1273 : 10/27/08 : I Am an Idiot

3,464 : 24 ?

You are an idiot

enjoy being an idiot

You are an idiot

so enjoy being an idiot

Nothing much you can do

about it

Just the way the cards got dealt

I know because

I am an idiot

I just try

to enjoy being an idiot

what

2.1272 : 10/26/08 : Winter

It’s going to be a long hard

season in the ice

it’s part of living here

it’s not the part that’s nice

I’ve been waiting for the season change

despite the frigid slog

for changes a long time coming

new tricks for this old dog

thirty second or thirty third

who can keep track of it

I don’t remember my Western days

soon I’ll long to see the back of it

it will outstay its welcome

like other changes soon to come

but I’ll try to embrace it all

just follow through

complete the sum

what

2.1271 : 10/25/08 : Hells

This crooked shoulder

an ache to my soles

What is this affliction

that afflicts my poles

how can anything be

about anything else

how can I get past

these multiplex hells

here’s the fire

there’s the spark

here’s every single animal

but where’s the ark

I can’t understand

why I keep hearing bells

it must be the matins

in so many hells

what

2.1270 : 10/24/08 : Another Song

The alarm clock tells me

you gotta write another song

has gone on long enough

at least tonight

So hell I'll call this mess

another song

and I guess that's it

I guess

what

What's a tower of approach?

There have been many explanations of this congeries of "web pages", a portal to many of them (though some are lost) can be found here.

What are Songs of Days? Things I wrote, for days that were. The writing continues, at least as of this writing. When it ceases I'll correct that statement, if I can.

What is a Tower of Approach?  It is a time machine, currently set seven years in the past, though this has changed throughout the years.  It is as well an introspectograph, a portal into the state of one mind.

2.1269 : 10/23/08 : The Rest Cure

Hello middle age

another page

and here’s how I

fantasize now

about the rest cure

just inaction

solitude

something pure

work all these kinks out

pump some ink out

I could be

really certain

of my path forward sure

if I could just get

get a few

winter months

of the rest cure

what

2.1268 : 10/22/08 : The Provinces

When I finally beat this

affliction

and mend what I can of

my fences

I’m going to light right off

for the provinces

there’s no physical frontiers

left

or if there is the poor bastards

should be left alone

but oh God the provinces

no cyberspace

no telephone

if only I could beat this

thing

this thorn in my side

And so on to the

provinces

I will ride

what

2.1267 : 10/21/08 : Fine

Doing this wrong

the wrong time, lost the flow

I had it a minute

but it had to go

washed away with the water

cooked away by the sun

I can’t tell if it was good

if I lost the fine one

this is fine but not like that

Not like marble or wine

I know it so well now

the two kinds of fine

and I lied when I said

things were all better since

all those long conversations

when I was up against

it was there for a minute

I might get it back

learn how to pick my moment

learn when to attack

what

2.1266 : 10/20/08 : Flash in the Pan

3,457 : 17 ?

Well the great big new thing

is seeming like flash in the pan

and despite minuscule progress

I’m feeling like an also ran

and even though the good guy

is way ahead in the polls

I don’t trust it at all

and still that bell just tolls and tolls

I should apply the strategy

and make use of the chart

I should call this a learning thing

at least a little start

I shouldn’t project failure

on a tomorrow that’s barely begun

but it’s a long long way

and this cross weighs a ton

what

2.1265 : 10/19/08 : Witching

All the witching around

now it ends for good

oh I said it I said it

though I didn’t think I should

the hour is reserved

and the die is cast

and the last will be first

and the first will be last

what

2.1264 : 10/18/08 : Play

Screw it I’m not going to write

I want to play

I’ve had enough I’ve

written my heart out today

I only have a moment

want a little fun

Because we’re turning to

the cycle of far too little sun

what

2.1263 : 10/17/08 : Rerail

Rerail this epic mess I made

cook up some brick stew lemonade

dig deep must be a pony in there

a lump of gold fall out my ratted hair

I think I’m not having fun now

five hours of staring at the sun now

these spots I’m seeing can’t be right

a little blindness gonna kill my fight

well that’s no good start boyo

give me a little time I implore you

start out some new hard ramp

someday I’ll earn your precious stamp

what

2.1262 : 10/16/08 : Thick of It

I’m in the thick of it here

I’m getting sick of it dear

If I keep doing this way

I know I’ll really pay

I guess it’s suggestion

is that really a question

I’ve got to learn the trick of it

or stay stuck in the thick of it

I can’t just promise anything

how I try to snatch the ring

how I always come up short

maybe this will be the break

I’m serious a lot’s at stake

what

2.1261 : 10/15/08 : Bought and Paid

What will I buy with time?

a little time later

I might even use it right

because I am a revelator

a lot to figure out

a lot to keep track of

I’ll risk embarrassment

say here today you’ll see the back of

this back and forthing dance

I won’t repeat this mess

remember:

keep it simple

you want more

reach for less

what

2.1260 : 10/14/08 : Well Damn

3,450 : 10 ?

Well Damn the streak is truly done

And maybe I was compensating

for all the ways I didn’t measure up

it’s just myself that I’m berating

I’m used to talking to myself

I’m used to arguing at that

a little crazy it might be

I’m not afraid to wear that hat

well damn I’ll kick it off again

what else is there but pushing

trying to break through somehow

the sacred marshmallows I’m smooshing

I always think I’ll get farther

I always think I’ll get better

but better not think too much

fate will drive me off a cliff

if I let her

what

2.1259 : 10/13/08 : Jump

after the jump

something will change

I don’t know what or how

and I’m feeling strange

a better song

somebody else’s

plays somewhere in the back

it won’t be good now

I know I should now

throw another

pile of it

on the stack

what

2.1258 : 10/12/08 : Repent

Repent the sins and

mistakes of a decade

marked back in time

so sublime

I thought all dues were paid

I know the difference

I know what makes things real

but I’m here

it’s all it is

and I can really feel

what

2.1257 : 10/11/08 : Looking for Problems

Looking for problems

who’d of thunk it?

We thought that ship

had seen the bottom

when we sunk it

it should be easy

there are so many

trying to think solutions up

I don’t have any

Looking for treasure

a simple goal

hoping I don’t come up

with a lump of coal

I’m storing it wrong

prone to moth and rust

I’m sure that I’ll

regret it when

I’m eating dust

what

2.1256 : 10/10/08 : Change

The slightest change

could be

the wingstroke of a

butterfly

I won’t fear hope

I’ll scorn the fear

that all around us

scatters by

cause and effect

aren’t simple things

who understands

all relevance

here’s life here’s hope

a small light

against dark

circumstance

what

2.1255 : 10/9/08 : Feel Life

Feel life there is only

this now cliché

sure:

But truth is truth and

that’s gospel, pure

there is no limit to the horror

the suffering

but there are always

precious moments of recovering

dwelling and raging

will not change a thing

I’m going to write

and I’m going to sing

I may never be good enough

to call it pro

but I’ll feel life

Choose life

till I have to go

what

2.1254 : 10/8/08 : All the Right Reasons

I know I’ve been all wrong

and for all the wrong reasons

and I’m writing this song

for all the wrong reasons

but I’ll turn it round

for all the right reasons

and I’ll seek The Sound

for all the right reasons

You just get twelve and twelve

and just four seasons

and we have just ourselves

and we find our reasons

what

2.1253 : 10/7/08 : Proud

I don’t feel proud

to be slogging through

but I’m proud

every time

I do right by you

So I won’t dwell or

dawdle

On trying to perfect

this daily dose of

something

strong to inject

I guess I know the score

yes this routine

it’s not Shakespeare

but it’s something

what

2.1252 : 10/6/08 : Better Off Alive

3,442 : 2 ?

I decided

I’m better off alive

a house divided

and what devious men devise

roaming footloose

and wrapping up

every loose end

I pick my moment

and my message to send

what

2.1251 : 10/5/08 : Midnight

Midnight put me in a bad mood

too many hours

that I pissed away

and what can I really call

this endless procession

day after day

You’re gushing over

a shoe shop website

Is this what it’s about

I wanna get in there

and grab the stage

oh how I want to shout

Midnight is not

Lord of me

Midnight’s not my boss

Midnight will not

define

some sense of triumph or loss

but I obey

my structures

and tack this coda on

have you heard it brother

have you heard my song?

what

2.1250 : 10/4/08 : Estatic

I should be estatic

I’m fully functional

crank out reels of verse

on automatic

I let this world burn up

far too long

So here’s a song

to say:

today

today

today

today

today

today

today

today

today

what

2.1249 : 10/3/08 : Charlie

Tell me about how

you tell what is the truth

in what respect, Charlie?

maybe I’ll grow my beard real long

wear all leather

get a Harley

boom around the Southwest coast

California

my childhood home

I saw the ocean

I saw my life

tumbled

in the eternal seething foam

and I won’t talk about

that elephant

ignore that as long as you can

don’t talk about the fire

man, we’re doing

just fine in this here pan

what

2.1248 : 10/2/08 : Succumb

Unknowing if I’m gonna succumb

like another one

the moment is sweet

but the morning’s a tough beat

get away with it in a sense

but I feel real dense

throat burning

eyes sanded

fell prey again

to the vile branded

replay for me

that definition of being

insane

in my brain

I knew low down

but I’m so close to down

and I really don’t know

So?

Go see,

so go

what

2.1247 : 10/1/08 : Michael

I can’t seem to beat

those same old circumstances

itch gets in my feet

and kid just gots to dances

this could be the last

the last of one great journey

way back in the past

let me call my attorney

before I tell my story

of how I broke the cycle

jumped to the track of glory

steered by the angel Michael

what