2.2930 : 05/11/13 : Yell

Maybe I should
do it every night
get up on the hill
and yell
one of these times
I'll turn out right
and all will be well
and all will
be well
I'm gonna start
tomorrow
for real for real
and true
Say shh
I'm never telling
anyone
but you

what

2.2929 : 05/10/13 : Fright

The future holds a fright
it's got a grip on me
and all my old allies
are gonna flip on me
can't keep my eyes open
I'm asleep on my feet
And the real fright to me
is that you'll hit repeat

what

2.2928 : 05/09/13 : Lag

My enlightenment's complete
but my entitlement will lag
I swear the vinegar is sweet
but in my heart I feel the drag
what sort of tale could be told
a thousand times and still be fresh
we'll share a laugh at that
as we take to the floor to thresh

what

2.2927 : 05/08/13 : Home

My sacred task
was to make the home
can't guess my next calling
no clues in any tome
need so bad to get positive
need so bad to believe
as I keel over the edge
as I howl and heave

what

2.2926 : 05/07/13 : Life of Adventure

low on excitement
high on stress
expecting the worst
I've been worse I guess

don't know what to say
but the same retort
so I'll turn in my
minority report

life of adventure
is there any hope
I guess I better
limber up my periscope

what

2.2925 : 05/06/13 : Too Soon

Far too soon to
think about
life going on
but it does whether you
want it to or not
well? Do you
want it to or not
when did what I want
start to have a
damn thing to do with it
not giving up
So I guess I'm here
until I'm through with it
And I'm sorry so sorry
because everything should stop
and I wish it would stop
and wishing doesn't help
nothing helps with this deep drop

what

2.2924 : 05/05/13 : Valve

Too hard to think about
the waking dread
too bad there's no escape valve
in my head
what a circus
what a nightmare
what a trial
I hope it gets better
somewhere out past
the miracle mile

what

2.2923 : 05/04/13 : Goodness' Sake

Why do we persist?
for goodness' sake
although we're sorely tested
harrowed with a cruel rake
when there are no words
but only grieving
for goodness' sake even then
we put off leaving

what

2.2922 : 05/03/13 : Presence in the Cloud

What are we to make
of clouds by day
and fire by night
call that leadership
oh pillar so bright
turned to a pillar of salt
a fate for any who look back
guess where I could find fault
The presence in the cloud so black
twenty in and twenty out
we all search for our promised land
inside the cloud wandering about
in doubt we are in any hand

what

2.2921 : 05/02/13 : What's Good

What's good
sometimes I know when I see it
sometimes I get so jealous
I know I want to be it
Guess it needn't be
long or heavy
and make enough of it
to smash right through
the levee

what

2.2920 : 05/01/13 : Improvise

What's the word
When it's really not there
and you stop expecting change
I never
thought I was best
but I thought I had a little more range
I guess I know
it was predictable
did I think I would improvise
another corner
expecting a door
instead I meet my own eyes
for so long
it's all been improvised
so maybe I just ran out of tricks
but I'm still alive
and look to stay that way
so today I'll kick again against the pricks

what

2.2919 : 04/30/13 : Story (II)

That story is old so I'm killing it
still the page is blank so I'm filling it
When I find the new story I'll be telling it
When I'm not building I'm selling it
I have to share it because it's so fine
I have to claim it because it is mine
I never said it would be accessible
You'll hear it brother if you can spare me a decibel
and when the beat gets hot I'll be pumping it
I'll build my rolling stock while you're dumping it
and at the option call I'll be slaying you
you'll only have ears for what I'm playing you

what

2.2918 : 04/29/13 : Story

It didn't happen
again: why?
did the day
just have no story
and where shall we pack
away all these dull days
how will I go back
to the quarry
and what's the use
of all these blocks I mined
what is it stacking up to?
three days more I say
three days
you'll turn to see
who it was
you're blindly backing up to

what

2.2917 : 04/28/13 : Trash

This trash hand
and me no bluffer
somedays it seems
we're just made to suffer
So take the escape
that comes to light
I haven't given up
but badly need a rest from the fight

what

2.2916 : 04/27/13 : A Pair

Here's a pair
that isn't charming
adversity on how it's harming
my what do you call it
my joie de vivre
And I'd hate to talk about it
So instead I'll leave

what

2.2915 : 04/26/13 : Spider

The cards are different every time
but the hand plays out the same
so should I give up
would that be a defeat to claim
crawls like a spider
rank and file
and there's so much sleep
before I make another mile
Losing's not unthinkable
we're nowhere near the worst case
Failure is always an option
Hello floor remember my face?
crawls like a spider
rank and file
and there's so much sleep
before I make another mile
crawls like a spider
rank and file
and there's so much sleep
before I make another mile
I can pull out of it
and fall back in as well
it's not much of a picture
today it's what I had to tell
crawls like a spider
rank and file
and there's so much sleep
before I make another mile

what

2.2914 : 04/25/13 : The Crowd

I call upon the crowd
to save me from the
shape I'm in
the long tail promises
but our end of
the wedge is thin
I dreamed of bootstraps
yes a
gospel of a better way
It ignores me
like anything
but I'll call on it
every day

what

2.2913 : 04/24/13 : Buried

Has it been buried
in the ground all this time
will I face judgement
stand in the dock for thought crime
I don't know just how
to put a finger on that pulse
and I'm trying to match it up
everyday but it's so easy to ring false

what

2.2912 : 04/23/13 : Hits

What I wouldn't give
to bang out hits
is it just wanting a million
built of different bits
no I'd like to know the feel
at the tip of my pen
to know I struck the lode
that tight hook again
no good with choruses
far too mental
hard to argue
tune and beat are incidental
but I'm no poet
no starmaking machine
and hit or miss I'll do it
and I'll do it clean

what

2.2911 : 04/22/13 : Day On Earth

Just another day on earth
dark and light
death and birth
say mea culpa
but we don't change anything
another day
and what does it bring
hard to believe
but it's all getting hotter
who'll do the time
for the crime on the blotter
I lose sleep over it
for what it's worth
our carelessness and waste of
each day on earth

what

2.2910 : 04/21/13 : Companion

New companion
too interesting to ignore
soon the same will crash the party
being such a bore
but long as the novelty is sound
why not just enjoy it
world has precious little
equal to such
love when you deploy it

what

2.2909 : 04/20/13 : The Hard Way

I enjoyed the fantasy
for a couple of days
Ignoring how it fell apart
In all the same old ways
It's funny how I never
tell the story right
It was dumb but sometimes
it kept me up all night
but I'm sure my numbers
won't come up
I'll wake up to what's left
of the same old cup
From the festival of fools
to the first of May
looks like I'm going to have
to do it the hard way
Oh sure I'll check my math
get all disappointed
feel dumb about the whole thing
get my nose all disjointed
truth be told it's a
pretty sorry plight
and I see I'm going to
get run through it this very night

what

2.2908 : 04/19/13 : Produce

No motivation to produce
denied inspiration, juice
put upon and so repetitive
In this cutthroat world
the product's not competitive
wish to breach the miasma like a whale
oh it would be a heavenly tale
but lacking lacking the true quill
you may not get it now
but someday you will

what

2.2907 : 04/18/13 : Speak to the King

Because of the injustice
that drags on endless
because we can't solve anything
our team will cross
the mountains of madness
this year
we will speak to the King
last year we said
we'd go as soon as the ice broke
we swore we'd get there
by next May
how many times
will we regret we spoke
still we will
speak to the King today

what

2.2906 : 04/17/13 : Unreal

Advice to the young man
who felt all unreal
sometimes it's all in what you know
and none in what you feel
I felt the suffering of not
heeding my own advice
but heard big change was on the way
and you didn't have to tell me twice

what

2.2905 : 04/16/13 : F.A.B.

As if it isn't bad enough
like everybody isn't going to die
As if it isn't hard enough
Like there aren't enough reasons to ask why
If we can't all agree on this
We might all be too dumb to breathe
I can't stand how it all goes on
and I don't know how to fix it either
but I won't back off it one inch
when I say Fuck All Bombs, Fuck All Bombs
the basic answer is a cinch
it's to Fuck All Bombs, Fuck All Bombs
I wouldn't call it my idea
to Fuck All Bombs, Fuck All Bombs
but here's the truth and it may free ya
Fuck All Bombs
we've got to Fuck All Bombs

what

2.2904 : 04/15/13 : How Can I Forget

How can I forget
about Caesar, lucre
How can I forget
about the grind
not the nice grind
the slow malign grind
It's not all in my mind
Why do we insist
On such a hard world
Why do we prop it up all day
Every work day
You may not play day
Why do we believe so much
We have to pay

what

2.2903 : 04/14/13 : This Wet World

This world of constant
falling
the way we can't
get down with love is galling
this wet world
the rain is continuous
I like to see you there
shining prone and sinuous
It would be better
if we all got down
asked for everything we wanted
went to town
it never happens
and the reason's fear
and your head's down
but it's getting
wet and hot in here

what

2.2902 : 04/13/13 : Mere Competence

How in the world
did I turn out to be so bad at this
you know I think
the worst idea I ever had was this
if I just knew how to quit
I deem that'd be the end of it
I read about how
ten thousand hours
makes the difference
and wonder if that
stood between me
and mere competence
won't answer
that tonight
and though you tempt
I will not bite

what

2.2901 : 04/12/13 : Failed

I need a bell bad
because words failed me
or maybe the scenarios
that derailed me
can't go on like this
won't make the nut
I've got no word
for what is turning in my gut
and I've been here before
No doubt of that
felt this rude jealousy
and smelled this rat
what next though
need a real new
all that's failed me
need the real true

what

2.2900 : 04/11/13 : Order

I go about things
in the wrong order
just to prove a point
That ends up leading
down too familiar highways
the devil fails to appear
For a deal at the familiar joint
Where present gets ground into past
Where random meets intent
within this slow unyielding season
with every changing of the parament
and I'm latched onto confusion
like a hoarder
cowering in the shadow
of order

what

2.2899 : 04/10/13 : Inefficient

Been inefficient lately
shirking and whiney
still really fortunate
most of my worries tiny
know there's no use talking
about turning things around
I just gotta bust
and grind for the big sound
still believe in it
though it seems so far off
the other side of many days of toil
this weary debt trough
but I must believe
I will rectify my deficiency
in the cradle of work
and the pursuit of efficiency

what

2.2898 : 04/09/13 : Bleats

The same repeats
how many bleats
will I emit
While I wait
for my remit
not one promise
not one plan
and now I must off to see
a horse about a man

what

2.2897 : 04/08/13 : Rules

The rules constrain
or I would prowl
So I give it up
with a nasty growl
but I keep it locked
this side of the skull
and the hate of rules
eats into my hull

what

2.2896 : 04/07/13 : Struggle

The struggle again
this place, the pen
the hope that just will not fade
dreaming in the sunlight
dozing in the shade
I should be glad for the work
incessant
I should be thankful
about just being present
I should stop struggling
and find my stroke
there is no fate
but my own bespoke

what

2.2895 : 04/06/13 : Demons

Demons and ugly
things they whisper
a witch with a hump
that hissed with a lisp, her
yellow eyes sparking
the hate and the spittle
Believe me you don't want
a tour of my little
beehive wobbling
on my shoulders
bound with iron
full of boulders
Got so sick of the demons
I dreamed of the bomb
a spectacle that
didn't shut them up long

what

2.2894 : 04/05/13 : The Thing

The thing's
no matter what you say
the next day comes
or if not
Well that's an Ess Ee Pee
Sure ask Dee En Ae
whoa you can't: right: see?
Another hero of mine
Cut down just yesterday
torn between raw angry loss
and gratitude
for the shown way
and still pray
Someday
to see and feel, know
that's the thing
my thing, my this not next
my realm where I'll be king

what

2.2893 : 04/04/13 : Duty Sheet

About the only time I
know what I'm doing
when I'm not chasing scratch
or down-and-out boo-hooing
though I might wear
a preacher's clothes
don't want my profession
to be like those
fed up turning turning
In this extreme proscription
tired of the false build-up
please cancel my subscription
I will pine no more
for the big show
I'll humbly line up for my
duty sheet
and quietly go

what

2.2892 : 04/03/13 : Doomsday News

They got a new flu
a missile threat
I'll have to move into a hole
if I don't want to get
the doomsday news
It never happens
except they say it always does
what will be will be
but will it become what was
the doomsday news
they say everything's getting better
or possibly much worse
I guess watching all these signs
is some kind of human curse
the doomsday news

what

2.2891 : 04/02/13 : Spent

I contemplate an hour
not well spent
the mountain looms
I didn't make a dent
and I'm still sliding down
the same old slope
protesting whining
I am such a dope
I can't pronounce
can't even look at it
loaded the oscilloscope
and took a hit
and thought not once
about the coin I spent
can't bear the prospect
and so off I went

what

2.2890 : 04/01/13 : The Lark

May I rise
shall I rise
the hell
do I want to rise
as the lark
a little tired
of the spark
just to confess
seeking something
to express
oh could you not
style me as the lark
it knows its song
it needs no mark
to stand and sing
to be that
I'd give anything

what

2.2889 : 03/31/13 : Wicked Cruel

Apparently I hunger
apparently I thirst
it seems that I am selfish
and always think the worst
of men and situations
and women don't get me started
Apparently I'm wicked cruel
but I protest
I'm tender hearted
It all just came from dreams
and who can account for those
they don't tell me who I am
they can't tell me what I chose
and if the prose of it
doesn't really make my case
still take another look
how can you mistrust this face?

what

2.2888 : 03/30/13 : Blocks

Sure like to push around
these made-up blocks
We want fun in this world
but money talks
Soon we'll all pay in coin
that isn't there at all
and heaven knows
what goes before that fall

what

2.2887 : 03/29/13 : Game

I can get caught up thinking
how heaven could beat the heat death
but before I start that spiral
think I better take a deep breath
and try to focus on
not letting all drift on the same
As clearly it is time to up my game
It means going slower
and taming all distraction
hearing out the critics
working harder getting traction
most of all ignoring fantasies
of easy victory
the game is up oh mind
and no more will you inflict on me

what

2.2886 : 03/28/13 : Solipsism

Maybe everybody
will have left by when
and if it's even still around
who knows what
will happen then
the perils of solipsism
thought I was
a stand up guy
well some days all we get
is getting by

what

2.2885 : 03/27/13 : The Chamber

This is probably not the way
I don't know the way
I know it gets redundant
I don't know what else to say
Sometimes I just want
to slack it all
from end to end
stuff the shell in the chamber
and hit send

what

2.2884 : 03/26/13 : The Excuse

What's the excuse?
just want to feel
hot, nice
time of my own
so small
everyday life
so little spice
do I need an excuse?
Heaven knows I sacrifice
but still there's consequence
but still
there's a price

what

2.2883 : 03/25/13 : Spring Thaw

I turned over so many leaves
You thought I was an autumn day
but in the spring thaw oh baby
You'll learn about my hidden way
While this djinn that dogged me all
my life was napping in the gloom
I unearthed the all the secret works
I'd wrought out in the upper room
for this meal that you waited on
my cup raised in remembrance
for those I couldn't say goodbye to
I hope someday I'll have the chance
to say hello in other realms
though my wish is absurd to some
I hold it as a wisdom tale
from my spring thaw to kingdom come

what

2.2882 : 03/24/13 : The Virtual

Up too late exploring
the virtual
the master said
seek and you'll find
so search you will
another day
if there's a dollar
hey surprise
but it felt like an
adventure
so I'll cope
and not despise

what

2.2881 : 03/23/13 : By Numbers

By numbers it's disgusting
and it tells no lies
should be we could beat it
but it's beat me damn my eyes
I see where it's leading
feel helpless as a leaf
drifting in the aimless torrent
so much lost of what's so brief
try try try not to think on it
and all my friends in even deeper
this is the harrowing that's driving us crazy
the merciless numbers goad awake the sleeper

what

2.2880 : 03/22/13 : Dun Dun Dun

I am ready to
dun dun dun
oh
You know I know you know
When I'm going to feel it
and that's when I say
I am ready to
dun dun dun
kookoo kachoo
and a little bit of
sweet
I could stop
anytime that I wanted
I am ready to
dun dun dun
dun dun dun

what

2.2879 : 03/21/13 : Whirlwind

Couldn't have been just
a dust devil no
I know a whirlwind
I know it just so
When physics makes God's stylus
descending from the wall cloud
You never did nothing
That You didn't do it loud
that answer kind of looks like
Can you shout above this?
That answer kind of sounds
like "hey you really kind of
take the piss"
little man what
you got to say for yourself now
He stood his ground
so it's to him I bow

what

2.2878 : 03/20/13 : Job

You'll see how I mean to rhyme it
if you push and probe
it's just a notion that's
been rattling 'round my frontal lobe
everyday I'm dodging
every dart you lob
Dear what the hell is
supposed to be my real job
why don't we all get born
with a golden ticket
an instruction manual
to lead us through this thicket
Oh I know about the book
but let me whisper in your ear
nobody can agree on it
down here it's just not clear
to put it cleanly down
I'm plain perplexed
I even dare to wonder
if the answer's to be found in text
and if your plan for me
insists I truly rise above the mob
I'm going to need a sign
that points to something more than just a job

what

2.2877 : 03/19/13 : What's My Name

What's my name?
foundering, dissolving
don't I wish
no this thing that's revolving
So weary trying to deem
if my fate is my fault
if I could reverse fortune
with one frontal assault
hating having this feeling back
what's my name?
the one who wasted waiting
daydreaming
of the ship that never came

what

2.2876 : 03/18/13 : Ever the Same

If I'm never the same
is the river still a river
if you gave to that one
are you a take back giver
if you take it from me
like candy from a baby
is just everything change
nothing ever the same maybe
and is that your game
can there be a point in that case
all random flux
and no winning that race
am I off the hook
I'll be gone in one minute
talk to who's next in line
tell that sap to begin it

what

2.2875 : 03/17/13 : The Test

Is this passing
or failing the test
should I have waited
until I could do my best
or is that what this is
well look at me
So deep and wise
way into the moment
and look you can
believe your eyes
everything will change
my structures will
get screwed up royal
I hope to hell when
it's all done I can
say I was loyal
and just forget about
the rest
never knowing if
I passed or failed the test

what

2.2874 : 03/16/13 : Math

Name the price on
what they claim to be a
magic bullet
I can't afford it so
I guess stuff more crow
down my gullet
And if it's not my answer
guess I'd have
to eat the cost
Meanwhile it doesn't take a cent
to moan and wail
the cause is lost
and I am just attacking
how I scorn
a mundane path
one way or another
help or no
I've got to do the math

what

2.2873 : 03/15/13 : The Glimpse

The Glimpse into the past
reveals too much
the principle of cycles
my clumsy touch
100 just reasons
to throw in the towel
the plow, the sword,
the telephone and the trowel

what

2.2872 : 03/14/13 : Easier

Insist you try another yoke
easier, lighter
You don't have to prove to me
I know you're a fighter
hate to be insistent
but you're hard to slow down
this can be collaboration
If you don't make it a throw down
take it easier
the world won't founder
you will heal faster
if you be still and don't flounder
I know it's hard for you
I know it in my wrists and feet
but even as you rest
this work in you is being made complete

what

2.2871 : 03/13/13 : Unlimited

Try to believe I am unlimited
try to believe in my wealth
Superabundant
am I making it
hell I'm not even faking it
try to believe
that I'm not simply redundant
You'd be hard pressed
to convince me there's a reason
these days I'm doubting
there's even an explanation
just a bunch of stuff that reacts
all breaks down to lifeless facts
this ball of wax
you couldn't call it a creation
Say there's strength in weakness
say the unlimited
lurks in the small
I'd love to believe
but I'm begging for reprieve
because I can't find the end
of my limitations at all

what

2.2870 : 03/12/13 : Feelings

When you can't stand
the feelings no more
or bear to think
about what's all in store
What else to do
but relent, retire
pray heaven deliver
me from the wire

what

2.2869 : 03/11/13 : Breaking

Ready or not
there is a breaking point
a real thing
not some abstract joint
Can't seem to put my finger
on my values
what I really believe
do I have any
vision of life
is purpose a thing you receive

what

2.2868 : 03/10/13 : Stand

Forced to stand so
shorter and sweeter
you're about as subtle
as a damn egg beater
you're about as subtle
as a hammerhead
and I've had all I can stand
so let it be read

what

2.2867 : 03/09/13 : Straw

Am I going to come up
talk about that last straw
knowing what I know
Lord and what a slackjaw
Never mind this pass
clumsy stab at a fierce howl
nobody to care
or hear me if I cry foul

what

2.2866 : 03/08/13 : Whatever I Can Build

Whatever I can
build in weakness
do away with
optimism
do away with
platitudes
and the attitudes
of destiny's prism
see a world
that's meant for nothing
no transcendence
no mortal end
whatever I can
build with doubt
unknowingness
dark ways I wend

what

2.2865 : 03/07/13 : No Bottom

No bottom
sunk in this channel
so much
so I handle every
what would
what would
constitute a difference
do I want to know
how low
hell I can make an inference
all I can do
not to be ruled by fear
hope not to test
the feeling there's no
bottom here

what

2.2864 : 03/06/13 : The Object

What if the object
is very immovable
and I turn out to be
very resistable
the final joke is
the theory's unprovable
my faults so many
they may be unlistable
all these ideas
and time for just one
it feels like the problem
but still I am dubious
some mental block
some aversion to fun
and my process for change
so inane and lugubrious
what if the object
is not there at all
and I turn out to be
exerting no force
how in the hell do
I kick off this wall
start again start again
all I've got of course

what

2.2863 : 03/05/13 : Kinder

Kinder gentler
the only course
I believe in more than half
think about
where I heard it
what can you do you have to laugh
the thousand points of light
the bridge to the future
can I get a stiff one to cope with it
can I get a little hooch here
to take the edge off
get a little kinder
nobody told me
it'd be such a grinder
but I will gentle
before the grim machine
and breeze through its pores
before it knows what I mean

what

2.2862 : 03/04/13 : Bread (2)

Read my own words
on the decisive break
Cleave to the real
what even God
can't shake
but is it in me
to take my own advice
feel like I said it
ten times more than twice
it isn't obvious
What's to be done
of if I'm just as called
as anyone
if I should fake it
or just wait and kick
if I make a break for it
could it possibly stick?

what

2.2861 : 03/03/13 : Buck

But I can't accept this trend
So I must buck it
Envisioning the gold
dreaming I struck it
Don't need no list
there isn't any bucket
you thought you had me but
that rose I will not pluck it

what

2.2860 : 03/02/13 : Converge

Nothing is rising
and nothing will converge
the plateau turns out to be
ten thousand times the surge
the pie is shrinking
and so is our share
And I never said I wouldn't
say I told you so
so there

what

2.2859 : 03/01/13 : Consequence

You start out thinking you're so smart
You figure out how dumb you are
sooner or later
And the look on my face
When I'm feeling that slap
may well convince you that I am such a hater
but it's just the blinding light
When it all makes sense
and you stand before
the unbending logic of the consequence
This world's about things
that make sense but aren't fair
the reach of youth's
dumb decisions
sometimes make you stand and stare
of course you wound up
in this boat
of course you face this wall immense
of course of course of course
it winds up
just you and your consequence

what

2.2858 : 02/28/13 : Advice

No use in my stupid words
no use in my advice
no use in my stupid dreams
utopia
sweet paradise
Who would listen to a fool
attend his stupid yap
Why am I too much the fool
to learn to shut my stupid trap
When did it all get like this
unbearable
beyond advice
what could pull us out of it
what magical device

what

2.2857 : 02/27/13 : More

When did I lose track
of what anything's for
when did it all get to
be about more more more
when will the break
and new direction come
when's the next time
I'm gonna get some get some
I'm not sophisticated
I'm not brilliant
I try to get attention
but ti's all just a stunt
I keep looking looking
for the right door
following the siren song
of more more more

what

2.2856 : 02/26/13 : Break

Here is the rock
where the tide will break
here's the real answer
to what's at stake
while my belief
absorbs blow after blow
I contemplate that breaking point
when you just know
look in my hand
baby that's not dust
So have no fear
baby of moth and rust
my treasure spot
rests in the lea of the break
and soon I will
reach out and take

what

2.2855 : 02/25/13 : Straightener

I'll run a steel
mated to an electric eel
right up my spine
the straightener all will be fine
concoct a potion
called the past eraser
I'll stand true
none shall replace her
and when the
corrupt column is true
oh what I'll
reveal to you

what

2.2854 : 02/24/13 : Survival

A ragged thong
wrapped round a bone
a wooden hook
a soapstone hone
don't give me your
survival shit
Ain't no one
walking free from it
Why don't I snap
why don't I howl
You know I ain't
such a wise owl
I'm going feral
even so
I'm breaking down
like Ragueneau
To tell the hero's
sad reveal
that white Panache
I'll never feel

what

2.2853 : 02/23/13 : Right Back To

This sick world
and no high ground for my claiming
and no end to it in sight
and my sighing, and my shaming
I could walk away
but what shall I walk toward
God help me
right back to the drawing board

what

2.2852 : 02/22/13 : The Excuses

Sick of rolling with the punches
keeping my chin up
sick of the excuses
the optimists gin up
Oh and I wanted
not to talk of it at all
but it's that time of year
and it's the usual wall
and if not this
there's not a lot to tell
actually fantastic
you can all go straight to hell

what

2.2851 : 02/21/13 : Horrorshow

A misuse of imagination
this modern horror show
between better you than me
and there but for the Grace of God I go
is the butterzone
sweet utopia
Oh baby I'll come I'll climb
that slippery slope with ya
I know I kinda been running
crash raids on it
but when you feel me
call the glory of God upon it
Ain't nobody be talking about the horrorshow
and when we get it back oh baby there we go

what

2.2850 : 02/20/13 : Stall

This self reference
pathology
will not yield to
microbiology
and if I'm fit to give
any advice at all
distract yourself
and failing that:
stall

what

2.2849 : 02/19/13 : Good Not Grim

The dream
of beams of black
and a point of pain
brought on the attack
If I could modify
the world to suit my whim
how would I really make it
good not grim
I said it once
and damn it I was right
first of all I would say
please more light
and thought it's been said
many times before
my firm injunction
would be love, not war

what

2.2848 : 02/18/13 : Sprockets

Another long night in the works
Victim of the unplanned invasion
Everybody's occupied one way or another
the dumb pathology of brand and station
to what end again I say to what end
money and power are we really such dull sockets
well too what end the virus in my guts
is it any different, self-replicating sprockets
no matter what I do it'll come again
one day the one I can't get on top of
maybe the seeds already long planted
we're all planted for the final stop off
anyway that's the easy cop
sure we'll all die guess you could drop it there
but for today my sprockets are still ticking
and it somehow still feels they could take me anywhere

what

2.2847 : 02/17/13 : No Apology

No apology
for thin blank verses
for reused phrasing
God damn my curses
I crawled up far enough
just to shake my fist at the sun
and fell back into a hazy mire
with a feeling something had begun

what

2.2846 : 02/16/13 : Always a Lightning Bolt

Always a lighting bolt
consequences great or small
that causes me to stumble
that causes me to fall
I try to get back up
so weak so very tired
sick of sickness metaphors
and the illusions they inspired

what

2.2845 : 02/15/13 : Real

This thing is happening
this thing is going on
and if this next thing don't work out
I must keep rolling on
get past these hangups
of the starting and the real
it's all been real enough always
no matter how I sometimes feel
hope is real but
doesn't mean all will be well
Please teach me to push into it
not rushing not pell mell
but not to draw back always
sudden scared at all the real
since every moment dragging feet
regret will surely steal

what

2.2844 : 02/14/13 : Funny

Bring the funny back
it will outlast the sexy
I need it super bad
when it all starts to vex me
You are my funny girl
and to me there's no other
and the long road
who knew how long brother
there's anger inside
sadness fear self-doubt
make it crazy funny
work those funny demons out

what

2.2843 : 02/13/13 : Any Change is Fine

What I seem to think I want
is not on offer
Oh how I need to open my heart
to my lot
the next bend in the road
is always blind
And that's all I and
the whole world have got
Considering how I feel
about the state of things
why argue: almost
any change is fine
and opening my heart to
how's the only thing
in the whole universe
that can make the moment mine

what

2.2842 : 02/12/13 : Pleases

I can't think
right now of what pleases
focus on what is to hand
pray the lock releases
can't be more
off the reservation
than the last five years
and if you
want me for creation
well baby
here's my ears

what

2.2841 : 02/11/13 : Vibe

I asked for good vibes
but this one inside is nasty
wanting to lash out
while every day gets past me
I seek I seek out
wherever is my Good Vibe
oh for a labeled bottle
instructing me to imbibe

what

2.2840 : 02/10/13 : Hiding

What am I hiding from
in this indecision thicket
Why am I so terrified
to say okay and pick it
but is it really fear
it's something else, evasion
not like this about everything
why does this feel like invasion
what am I hiding from
is it feeling normal, boring
the chances lost forever
something deeper I'm ignoring
check heaven's lost and found
for a clue where my bliss is at
not sure it's real but I know
for sure it's not this or that

what

2.2839 : 02/09/13 : Promise

Promise it's the last
off hand
off the cuff repast
I'll make it a lie
by and by
but that's the way of flesh
the way we always
hit refresh

what

2.2838 : 02/08/13 : Let It Go

I said that I would
let it go
but suddenly I
said well, no
Nothing fucking matters
and that's so rad
because there's no consequence
for doing it bad

what

2.2837 : 02/07/13 : Ode to the Poetry Magnets I Found Under the Fridge

To eat -
or
Are to tree

what

2.2836 : 02/06/13 : Chipping

How long can I
get away with
chipping in this
sorry way?
See no real
reason I can't
just repeat it
every day
better than
the speaking of
What's been said
and said and said
better than
to reveal
what is whirling
round in my head

what

2.2835 : 02/05/13 : Telephone

Put my finger into
the dictionary
put my finger into the good book
in the age of the intelligent telephone
It's anachronistic but let's take a look
I could roll up for
the twenty two volumes
pick any Labor Day you like
feel like it would do as well
as thinking more
feels like I'm lobbing fouls
just dodging that third strike
give me a mission damn it
I have not been called up
I've been waiting by the telephone
I read it's just another
symptom of the syndrome
but I want to hear it straight
from you alone

what

2.2834 : 02/04/13 : No Answers

Maybe there are no answers
Maybe that's the core of everything
Maybe answer is a misnomer
Maybe there's just the bell and the ring
Maybe truly nobody has got it
Maybe everybody is a fake
Maybe there's nothing wrong with it
Maybe nothing is at stake

what

2.2833 : 02/03/13 : Play

too dull
not enough play
bad paradigm
but I don't know the way
to break it
and remake it
if that's even the model
and cannot tell
the axle
from the throttle

what

2.2832 : 02/02/13 : Minutes

What was that thing you said
about minutes
and revisions
past getting all worked up
over century-old visions
but I thought that I was
onto something
out of my own long ago
and fit for 2020 thoughts
though where I'l be then
I don't know

what

2.2831 : 02/01/13 : Produce

If one is too bitter to produce
and if one can't get past
oh what's the use
When can I stop
When can I stop
waiting for the drop
put away
every childish thing
that tune plucked out upon
an slack old string
when can I stop
when can I halt
I already said it was all my fault

what