2.4626 : 1/1/18 : All Heart

Rather than

go on and on

about the fast-

then-go-slow

pay heed to

the hour

pedestrian I know

maybe how it

could get to a different start

pay heed

start small

and proceed with all heart

what

2.4625 : 12/31/17 : One In Thirteen

Seven years

so what does that mean

a tenth or twelfth

remains to be seen

One in thirteen

not sure that's the best case

this numbers game

and still don't feel

I've found my place

is that the note

I want to end on

even if it's just

an ordinary dot

but even after seven

years and longer

all I've got to give

is what I've got

what

2.4624 : 12/30/17 : Reveal

What did I call it?

reveal

none too likely really

or so I now feel

dream of deeper

secrets

but it's all a myth

and I'm not a

millimeter

closer to the pith

what

2.4623 : 12/29/17 : No Novelty

Just want to

lose consciousness

for as long as possible

no novelty

no bright ideas

Would do this fossil well

Get real

boring

do not a thing

maybe in

a dream float

up a thousand feet

and sing

what

2.4622 : 12/28/17 : ZAP

Every so often

get to just zap out

give it a rush

a holler, a rough shout

shake and a slap

hello world my dear

those as have ears

well you listen, you hear

what

2.4621 : 12/27/17 : Call Out

Another call out

to Lord Rigamarole

shone out the signal

to the owl patrol

those as would notice

must be my lowly squad

Force for peace in all things

spare every rod

Quell my violent spirit

ugly power dreams

playbook is tiny

against reams and reams

of dark designs

and wanting fast and loose

don't know if I'm getting there

but I've got no excuse

what

2.4620 : 12/26/17 : Recompense Revisited

Thinking is there

any sense

reckoning after

the recompense

I feel I must be owed

for this long denial

recompense revisted

surely I was inhibited

and such wasted blame

and still played the game

what

2.4619 : 12/25/17 : Do and Don't

These things I do

and these things I don't

wonder if I ever will

and what happens if I won't

try to find some conception

that doesn't sound like a stunt

familiar but still failing

every morning bears the brunt

what

2.4618 : 12/24/17 : Twas ever thus

Am I still propping up

the resolution

schtick

imaginary datelines

some counting trip

For sure a fake out

nothing in either

hand

well you said it was

ever thus

in the promised land

what

2.4617 : 12/23/17 : Back to Ground

Far from the only one

sick of the grownup run

Time got so tight and fast

afraid to ask

how long it will last

feels like the terminal

round

I'll never get back to

ground

unless I find

what's the name?

each cycle comes

to this same

what

2.4616 : 12/22/17 : Who

Call me what you like

just trying to get by

try to think of who

he would be that happy guy

what

2.4615 : 12/21/17 : Pledge

Must break this chain

right now

Leave the future

or another prow

the big picture

or any

promise or

pledge

to hell with and

leaving it all

piled up on the ledge

what

2.4614 : 12/20/17 : Attention

I'd be the first to admit

and the last two admit

because who else could be

paying attention to it

that the caper the plot

might sound good but it's not

got a budget or schedule

and already you hedge fool

I see where I put my attention

say I have to but fail to mention

never time left for plan I

if I'm counting right well am I

am I yet hopeless enough

to crack to break out for this slough

what

2.4613 : 12/19/17 : 12 Day

12 Day Countdown

big reveal

most clicked context

how will I feel

better start plotting

making lists

Count my chickens

and book those final trysts

what

2.4612 : 12/18/17 : The Master List

The monotony

forever in my heart

I know one thing

today I didn't start

the master list

the big to do

I blame it all

on the paycheck

but it's really down on me

and my stiff neck

what

2.4611 : 12/17/17 : Pin Drop

What's next

the pin drop

what failed

the Big Pop

what's right

not much son

half baked

and all done

what

2.4610 : 12/16/17 : Rapid Failure

Rapid failure

I don't care to explain

took a detour

on behalf

of the lower brain

if that's the

word for it exactly

at this point

I'm just acting

what

2.4609 : 12/15/17 : Old Time Hokum

Nothing much real

on the big screen these days

Feels like the fantasy is darker

just a cartoon anyway

Guess it's just the new time

version of the old time hokum

the bad boys grin and grimace

well they got 'em so they smoke 'em

and it aways wraps up

in lots of the flashy booms

but me I like the moody

interludes in quiet tombs

and facts that add up

choices that matter

Get drowned in the hokum

that's all hit and splatter

what

2.4608 : 12/14/17 : Thought Word

I need to break the

pattern

so bad

the world's gone

mean-angry

hateful

and mad

oh how to be

that change

we need

failing such in

thought word

and deed

what

2.4607 : 12/13/17 : Enjoy the Fantasy

Already mad

but will I ever get even

think about blowing up

think about leaving

Piss on my desk

Fly both free birds high

goodbye fellow fools goodbye

Enjoy the fantasy

While you may

Some seven hours hence

Sure enough another day

And I'm eating what I'm served

with a dead false smile

and that's all I'll have to say

for a while

what