2.2493 : 2/29/12 : Disordered

It isn't scarcity
I's not exactly disease
I am disordered
with a hunger unappeased
certainly I'm choosing it
certainly there are options
I eye the plan every day
and everyday
I put off it's adoption
It must be treated
the disorder must be overcome
heap a silver plate with black powder
now bring me some

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2.2492 : 2/28/12 : Starving

Look the poor thing is starving
the diet of the shallow
shiny and loud
the instant and the
insistent
the dismal so-called wisdom
of the crowd
let me get on
to a slower feed stream
that taps a purer
older source
let me eschew the
junk food dominion
and beef up on
every deeper course

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2.2491 : 2/27/12 : Random Walk University

Oh we're random
and we're walking
and it's me and you
hand in hand
along the beach
that was a good day too
You should remember
Your best moments
it's your university
that fits
right into your pocket
runs all hours
and it's free

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2.2490 : 2/26/12 : Movable

Then I realized that I'd been
starving the beast
numb to the dismal state
of the movable feast
this sideshow on electric wheels
but oh such scanty muddled meals
The astounding spectacle of
the universal movable type
blinded us to the depth of
its unprovable hype
no one behind the curtain not even a jerk
couldn't even figure out how the thing could halfway
work
I found the antidote still
unmoving right there on the shelf
the back cover said metaphysician
you gonna hafta heal yourself
nothing else but a little label said drink me
you better stand back
when it starts to un-shrink me

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2.2489 : 2/25/12 : Dreaming the Catastrophe

I'd like an explanation for
the contents of my danse nocturne
this musty deck of plots
that I don't seem so quick to unlearn
still dreaming the catastrophe
messing up my very best ever
wake up relieved but the card
turns up again, how long oh Lord, forever?
do I owe you a dream for every
time I turned that card in life
How many nights God knows
oh I was a merry piper on my burning fife
Am I on the hook until I
loose by grasp at last all the way
will I make it to that year canonical
will the change carry across to stay?

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2.2488 : 2/24/12 : Transformation

Love the tales
of transformation
all kinds of magic
acts of creation
everybody has
a simple tale that's false
a little vicarious
to tone up my pulse
real transformation
hard to come by though
it's all so hard
all goes so slow
all so unglamorous
the way of the real
but you can't let it weaken you
you turn with the wheel

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2.2487 : 2/23/12 : Divide the Night

Lights set in the sky to
divide the night
cut dark sky
from the day bright
what did you put
in me though
into the dark I must go
no nature for the division
however much it seems a decision
seems to happen
regardless
of virtue intent or hardness

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2.2486 : 2/22/12 : Time to End the Fantasy

And just like that it's
time to end the fantasy
I don't need to prepare
because I am the man you see
And what comes out
of the cold ashes in the pit
oh you will see and you will see
let's not spoil the surprise a bit
the fantasy you see was based
on notions out of books and plays
in truth I hadn't really in my heart
believe in it for five thousand days
inertia is a problem in this world
that first law you know how it goes
inertia is no joke
and when you can't catch any wind that blows
but that's already far behind
we left it in the stirring dust
and you must excuse me now
as I race to smash through the crust

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2.2485 : 2/21/12 : Bleep

Bleep boop
one impulsive moment
and I'm in the soup
showing another
stranger the secret
might win the day
but for real that's a bleak bet

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2.2484 : 2/20/12 : Stumbling

Stumbling across
the messy sprawl and
tossed remains of
dark dreams
rendered on the inner eye
and screams
and my stark
wild reply
wide eyed
and steely voiced
and with a rigid swinging
poise and presence
not to say
a hint of menace
just who is this
threatening player
if you stumbled
on his lair
would he greet you
or would I shoulder
him aside
oh, bolder seeker
would you even
ask where does
that one abide
and would you reach
for what was shown
shutting the door
on you, with him
alone?

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2.2483 : 2/19/12 : Steps

Thinking of the steps
the folkloric reps
transformation proceeding
or not just as often
changing is damn hard
an inch might be a thousand yards
and progress always fleeting
though we all get to the coffin

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2.2482 : 2/18/12 : The Arguments

The arguments I hear upstairs
nobody else does
nobody cares
surely it's all in my head
surely it will stop
at least when I'm dead
Dead to the world or
dead tired on my feet
anything at all just to
make the voices retreat
our claim to being not crazy
is we know they are not real
yet we talk back as if they are
and crazy maybe has an appeal
but one thing is sure
the arguments never resolve
anything downstairs
where whatever counts must revolve

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2.2481 : 2/17/12 : Higher Things

What is the meaning of higher things
is there really anything to it
but society and its tangled strings
wisdom and folly flank
the gates I heard tell
but I didn't see a sign of
either one
and felt like it was just
as well
Maybe the web of strings
is big enough to pass
something like the wetware webs
our monkey skulls amass
critical density does
it mean a thing
besides and then a
miracle occurs
somewhere north of
the visible limit
where very line blurs

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2.2480 : 2/16/12 : Nobody Knows

Nobody's favorite
nobody knows
not much sign of changing
that's how it goes
try to get interesting
try to cheer up
nobody knows
how anything could clear up

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2.2479 : 2/15/12 : Understanding

Another thing I'm sick of
is being understanding
so sure you've got excuses
join the fucking club
Could I not take my pick of
the cop-outs life is handing
out except it's fully useless
changes nothing that's the rub
I don't need understanding
I need some damned assistance
and since you are not special
why not just get on with it?
If you think I'm demanding
rolling over your resistance
well it's needed in this fresh hell
we're all dealing with the shit

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2.2478 : 2/14/12 : Theater

Time to crank the theater up
put on the show of shows
and I will watch and shake my head
and that's how power goes
the dumbness and repression
the bedrock gets ignored
do nothing about nukes or the nation
of prisoners, hell yeah I get bored
I suppose I should be on the street
getting my holy pepper spray
I suppose I'm all excuses too
but I've got so much to do today
so even though I don't believe in
anybody in the race any longer
I'll watch the show go to
the theater
as the wave of inevitability
grows stronger

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2.2477 : 2/13/12 : Natural

What comes natural
I thought I'd see it and
ring it like a bell
really everything's like
greased up smoke
for most of us
it's not a funny joke
and all this thing has
wound round too
a cringe inducing
beggar's point of view
only natural
to look for a way up
and am I ignoring
an obviously full cup?

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2.2476 : 2/12/12 : The Sign of Out

Not labeled exit
not lit up red
the sign of out
it only said
dare not return
repent and fly
get out and gone
next stop blue sky

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2.2475 : 2/11/12 : A Novel

Do I have to write a damn novel
to show I'm not special
to show I've got nothing
and I'm doomed to schlub
it won't make me special
every jerk does it
I'm not looking forward
to joining that club
It will be about a wizard
who lives on a spaceship
he's got a hot girlfriend
but he's in a fierce bind
his magic is messed up
his girlfriend is missing
and he can't get his novel
off of his mind

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2.2474 : 2/10/12 : How To Find Out

Find out how to find out
what is missing what flew by
find out how to listen
how to try to try
And if I never give up
Yet don't find out till I die
It wasn't all for nothing
And none of it was a lie
And I'd rather be happy
and I'd rather be rich
nobody's selling that snake oil
I've got no one to pitch
And nobody to ask
How to find out anything
about how to find a way through
yeah sorry it's so boring

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2.2473 : 2/9/12 : Regret

Every regret
add to the pile
not time for a bet
just time for a smile
In just twelve hours
a Change will begin
and no more regrets
the whole pile in the bin

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2.2472 : 2/8/12 : Wire

Wire of pain
threaded through the gut
not exactly what I
signed up for but
certainly not meta-
maybe some content for the grist mill
sometime when I'm feeling better
what is the wire fashioned of
and who placed it
the culprits are myself my father and God
the question is
could any have erased it
the question is how do we live with
the pain that is inseparable
form life and all the word enfolds
the damage of the wire, irreparable

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2.2471 : 2/7/12 : Nothing But Thoughts

Nothing but thoughts of having
nothing but thoughts
to think about
I need material
something new or pretty soon
there'll be a rout
ain't it something
ain't it a gas
you know this round
I think I better pass
let's get down
so funky and fresh
well mainly funky really
so sunk in the flesh
yet so damned cerebral
really it's a lost cause
like so much we keep after
without a hint of pause

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2.2470 : 2/6/12 : Option

The best seller
the movie option
more dreaming crazy
the big co-option
it's all just
ideas on the wire
throw them in the mental trash can
throw them in the mental fire
give up and sell out
lord give me the strength
or else show me the options
and tell me at what length

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2.2469 : 2/5/12 : Peace

Give me omens that I
want to believe in
give me a notion that it's
all about to begin
that I will soon fall
into a sweet release
and find nothing after
but a fine long peace
whatever work comes to my hand
the work of the cooperative
the work of the band
peace is all I want out of anything
no not recognition
no not a golden ring
once I felt a peace
that passed understanding
it wasn't an end of anything
it wasn't undemanding
I still had to pull up stakes
I still had to pack
it wasn't a turning point
but I still want it back

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2.2468 : 2/4/12 : Dull

Is it dull is it mundane
is it a bad view through
a grubby windowpane
does it follow a
predictable beat
does it take you down
the same old street
not the path to fortune surely
I pout and sulk so immaturely
I tip my glass
not it's none full
and whine some more
it's all so dull

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2.2467 : 2/3/12 : Just World

Just world here
we haven't talked in a while
why not see a bit of me
why not walk a mile
not on a treadmill son
not in your basement yo
why not look out of doors
why not get up and go
it's not a just world true
it is not fair or right
but beautiful at times
at times so open, bright

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2.2466 : 2/2/12 : Optimism

Optimism optimism look at my side
you'll never find one lighter
privilege ain't the half of it
there's no future that's brighter
what a nasty load life tipped
well buddy I just skipped away
I'd like to help you take care of tomorrow
but I'm so busy living in today
optimism have I got it
like a royal flush in hearts
must be what makes me make the rain
makes me so much greater than my sum of parts
I will not stand for a dark world
a minor chord or a frown
I get lit up so naturally
nothing ever seems to get me down
share a smile with the optimist
so much nicer this side of the street
look a half full day to dance away
and for certain it will be a treat

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2.2465 : 2/1/12 : Obfuscate

And if I didn't try at all
to obfuscate my sentiment
I worry about my health
how I'll fund my retirement
about the world I'll hand my kid
how little I control
how the years just batter on
on how they take their toll
and how ambitions wane
how most dreams get deferred
and whether I am a privileged jerk
when I appropriate such words
oh obfuscate please obfuscate
It's so dull and uncool
cover it and muddle it
I'm never going back to school
I'll never have that chance again
So many chances blown
So many fogs that fall and hide
whatever I have truly sown

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