Wednesday, April 23, 2014

2.1086 : 4/23/08 : List Them

There are so many places
that I’d rather be right now
there are so many ways
that I am not free right now
I could list them all out
from debt to gravity
habit to indecision
and of course doomed society
and just how many vectors
are competing for my brain share
how many are flat useless
who to complain to that it’s not fair
and what a wretched record
So many scrawled out words
a fraction of what’s left in my skull
milling like vast feline herds


Tuesday, April 22, 2014

2.1085 : 4/22/08 : Tax

I conceived the blank,
beginner’s mind
get mindful with a jelly bean
justice ain’t all that’s blind
Hey I’ve got zero concept
what it might look like after
I’ll just vow to be perfect from now on
And I’ll ignore your cruel laughter
If I could strip out every
feint and dodge and false climax
loosen up on nine things of ten
don’t forget to estimate the tax


Monday, April 21, 2014

2.1084 : 4/21/08 : A History of Tales

Whatever thought was slashed short
in the midst of who knows what
there is record of the latest final date
was it another shallow cut
I saw the evidence I left
a knife a glass to feed the sink
and all these lines I left unwrote
some signs of shrapnel on the brink
I could tell tales of nostalgia
a sort of exercise of will
and of a history of tales
that I may well get round to still


2.1083 : 4/20/08 : Always Something

Always something; ain’t it always something
I heard they used it in a proof
that God was real and not aloof
Don’t know about that: logic isn’t my thing
Never really saw it like that
relegate me to the dunce hat
I’d love to think tonight I’ll get my cake and eat it
but fear that at a second take
I’ll find I don’t have any cake
And all will be for naught, like ever, always, useless
What an awful way to see it
someday I’ll think better and be it


2.1082 : 4/19/08 : How Long Ago

Now I see the DNA
of all the late nights
every day
or almost
and how long ago
how long ago?
how long ago?
I know I did it all for cause
vice I pursued
at every pause
I saw a ghost
another way
but not tonight
but not today


Friday, April 18, 2014

2.1081 : 4/18/08 : Doctor Memory

Doctor memory
recollect the negative world
white and black
and inkling that shivered and whirled
So much I cannot place
moments lost in time
And I’m not saying it so well

but what the hell it’s my dime


Thursday, April 17, 2014

2.1080 : 4/17/08 : Zapped

If you feel a little zapped
if you’ve already snapped
who knows if it will matter or not
you think the brave act would get stale
day dream about a crust and pail
it could be so much worse
You should give thanks for what you’ve got
It’s not really complicated
it’s not rocket science
it shouldn’t take a slide rule
or some modern appliance
You should be tired of spouting off by now
when you’re a farmer every tool looks like a plow
Oh I guess some furrows
won’t be the straightest
but don’t let that make you feel like
you’re not the greatest


Wednesday, April 16, 2014

2.1079 : 4/16/08 : Normal

You’ve done the stream of consciousness
the in jokes written large and small
I was surprised by how quick the ancient wisdom
ran out and I didn’t feel enlightened at all
back to normal whatever that means
sure the hell not what it means to most
I can’t call it genius now can I
but hell I am productive though I don’t like to boast
think I can call this normal for me
twelve lines twelve hours twice a day
It’s nothing new it’s ordinary
Make no mistake though I’m here to play


Tuesday, April 15, 2014

2.1078 : 4/15/08 : H.E. and Cryptos

Well it’s a pretty bunch
of worthless crap
compared to the great mythos
I shoulda been fighting in some war
Studying H.E. and Cryptos
take things apart:
put ‘em together
I shoulda studied computers
I put things together
one by one
And pray it don’t get hit
by the looters
sick of imagining
a world gone sideways
sick of worrying
ever, always
I can’t believe I’m stacking up
another brick
I can’t even believe
that I am still this sick