Tuesday, November 25, 2014

2.1302 : 11/25/08 : Ping

Ping
anyone home
just one
functionally alone
no message
nothing
just acknowledging
the ping


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Monday, November 24, 2014

2.1301 : 11/24/08 : No Way Back

3,492 : 21 ?



Just generating filler now
just filling in the lines
uncaring about how it looks
between the clotted tines
unwilling to retrace the steps
but there is no way back
unless I drill down all the way
through that infernal stack
worse than a diary
more fractured than a log
it feels like some bad artery
disgusting with its fatty clog
and how should I reveal
a night like a thousand others
the nights that passed
like silent ships
this night and all
its brothers

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2.1300 : 11/23/08 : Second Strike

Whiff streaks past
second strike
try to imagine it
up at the mic
the deepest fears
anxieties
various ends of
various sobrieties
not what you’d think
well maybe you
maybe God
maybe me too
waiting for
another pitch
pretty sure this one’s
going to be a bitch


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2.1299 : 11/22/08 : Vice is Like a Job

Somedays even vice is like a job
and I am one predictable slob
trying to make sense of the senseless
before which I’m defenseless
bad intention carries the night
and I do not intend to fight
but I can’t help it struggle finds me
whatever passes for a muse finds me
and I’m rushing to make it up again
foolish midnight foolish pen


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Friday, November 21, 2014

2.1298 : 11/21/08 : Music In My Head

As soon as I focus
the music in my head stops
a thousand thoughts crowd in
the volume sharply drops
What an illusion
What a tale of years
hear it in my head
but cannot ever
bring it to your ears
Somebody else did it
better years ago
Someone did it weirder
a bridge beyond what
I could ever know
but it’s done complete
the page is truly turned
and before the hour is cold
I’ll see that
last bridge burned

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Thursday, November 20, 2014

2.1297 : 11/20/08 : Refuse

Refuse to give in
to the impulse
to pull the pin
self destruct is
not an option
what instructs this
All feels redone
all feels rehashed
something flickered
for a minute
then spun out
and crashed

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Wednesday, November 19, 2014

2.1296 : 11/19/08 : Just Like That

And just like that
I’m on the cusp
one two three
one step ahead of the rust
doesn’t quite work
but who can stop me
keep it all
short and sweet
let failure hone
and strop me


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Tuesday, November 18, 2014

2.1295 : 11/18/08 : Long to Go Still

Long to go still
bitter harvest
bitter pill
made of clich├ęs
and failed imagination
tomorrow to wake
in the same degraded station
So many tricks
learned over years
sew the eyes shut
Stop the ears
but the sound of it
penetrates every barrier
hope the next time
it comes knocking
I’ll be a little warier

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Monday, November 17, 2014

2.1294 : 11/17/08 : Closing the Gap

3,485 : 14 ?



Not much you can control
the gap that keeps
yawning open takes its toll
Close it up again
Slam it shut again
I know I’ll let it
lapse my friend
Closing the gap
has just become a chore
and I’d talk more about it
but I don’t want to be a bore
it’s silent past midnight
I just want to be done
what I agonized in leisure
about
sort of wish I hadn’t begun
like a rent you might pay
like tribute
at least it’s not paying out
to some grim suit
man I’ve got to get past
all this crap
but for now I’ll just keep
shoveling it
all into the gap


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2.1293 : 11/16/08 : Steam and Out

Out of steam and
Out of images
out of excuses
but never out of pages
want change so bad
I can taste it
If I won the magic spin
would I waste it
Out of sight and
Out of mind
is it such a tiny prayer
just to become more kind
the foul taste on my tongue
suggests I’ve
screwed up another one
but it’s all done and done
soon to be written off
I’ve had my fun


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