2.2889 : 03/31/13 : Wicked Cruel

Apparently I hunger
apparently I thirst
it seems that I am selfish
and always think the worst
of men and situations
and women don't get me started
Apparently I'm wicked cruel
but I protest
I'm tender hearted
It all just came from dreams
and who can account for those
they don't tell me who I am
they can't tell me what I chose
and if the prose of it
doesn't really make my case
still take another look
how can you mistrust this face?

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2.2888 : 03/30/13 : Blocks

Sure like to push around
these made-up blocks
We want fun in this world
but money talks
Soon we'll all pay in coin
that isn't there at all
and heaven knows
what goes before that fall

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2.2887 : 03/29/13 : Game

I can get caught up thinking
how heaven could beat the heat death
but before I start that spiral
think I better take a deep breath
and try to focus on
not letting all drift on the same
As clearly it is time to up my game
It means going slower
and taming all distraction
hearing out the critics
working harder getting traction
most of all ignoring fantasies
of easy victory
the game is up oh mind
and no more will you inflict on me

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2.2886 : 03/28/13 : Solipsism

Maybe everybody
will have left by when
and if it's even still around
who knows what
will happen then
the perils of solipsism
thought I was
a stand up guy
well some days all we get
is getting by

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2.2885 : 03/27/13 : The Chamber

This is probably not the way
I don't know the way
I know it gets redundant
I don't know what else to say
Sometimes I just want
to slack it all
from end to end
stuff the shell in the chamber
and hit send

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2.2884 : 03/26/13 : The Excuse

What's the excuse?
just want to feel
hot, nice
time of my own
so small
everyday life
so little spice
do I need an excuse?
Heaven knows I sacrifice
but still there's consequence
but still
there's a price

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2.2883 : 03/25/13 : Spring Thaw

I turned over so many leaves
You thought I was an autumn day
but in the spring thaw oh baby
You'll learn about my hidden way
While this djinn that dogged me all
my life was napping in the gloom
I unearthed the all the secret works
I'd wrought out in the upper room
for this meal that you waited on
my cup raised in remembrance
for those I couldn't say goodbye to
I hope someday I'll have the chance
to say hello in other realms
though my wish is absurd to some
I hold it as a wisdom tale
from my spring thaw to kingdom come

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2.2882 : 03/24/13 : The Virtual

Up too late exploring
the virtual
the master said
seek and you'll find
so search you will
another day
if there's a dollar
hey surprise
but it felt like an
adventure
so I'll cope
and not despise

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2.2881 : 03/23/13 : By Numbers

By numbers it's disgusting
and it tells no lies
should be we could beat it
but it's beat me damn my eyes
I see where it's leading
feel helpless as a leaf
drifting in the aimless torrent
so much lost of what's so brief
try try try not to think on it
and all my friends in even deeper
this is the harrowing that's driving us crazy
the merciless numbers goad awake the sleeper

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2.2880 : 03/22/13 : Dun Dun Dun

I am ready to
dun dun dun
oh
You know I know you know
When I'm going to feel it
and that's when I say
I am ready to
dun dun dun
kookoo kachoo
and a little bit of
sweet
I could stop
anytime that I wanted
I am ready to
dun dun dun
dun dun dun

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2.2879 : 03/21/13 : Whirlwind

Couldn't have been just
a dust devil no
I know a whirlwind
I know it just so
When physics makes God's stylus
descending from the wall cloud
You never did nothing
That You didn't do it loud
that answer kind of looks like
Can you shout above this?
That answer kind of sounds
like "hey you really kind of
take the piss"
little man what
you got to say for yourself now
He stood his ground
so it's to him I bow

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2.2878 : 03/20/13 : Job

You'll see how I mean to rhyme it
if you push and probe
it's just a notion that's
been rattling 'round my frontal lobe
everyday I'm dodging
every dart you lob
Dear what the hell is
supposed to be my real job
why don't we all get born
with a golden ticket
an instruction manual
to lead us through this thicket
Oh I know about the book
but let me whisper in your ear
nobody can agree on it
down here it's just not clear
to put it cleanly down
I'm plain perplexed
I even dare to wonder
if the answer's to be found in text
and if your plan for me
insists I truly rise above the mob
I'm going to need a sign
that points to something more than just a job

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2.2877 : 03/19/13 : What's My Name

What's my name?
foundering, dissolving
don't I wish
no this thing that's revolving
So weary trying to deem
if my fate is my fault
if I could reverse fortune
with one frontal assault
hating having this feeling back
what's my name?
the one who wasted waiting
daydreaming
of the ship that never came

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2.2876 : 03/18/13 : Ever the Same

If I'm never the same
is the river still a river
if you gave to that one
are you a take back giver
if you take it from me
like candy from a baby
is just everything change
nothing ever the same maybe
and is that your game
can there be a point in that case
all random flux
and no winning that race
am I off the hook
I'll be gone in one minute
talk to who's next in line
tell that sap to begin it

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2.2875 : 03/17/13 : The Test

Is this passing
or failing the test
should I have waited
until I could do my best
or is that what this is
well look at me
So deep and wise
way into the moment
and look you can
believe your eyes
everything will change
my structures will
get screwed up royal
I hope to hell when
it's all done I can
say I was loyal
and just forget about
the rest
never knowing if
I passed or failed the test

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2.2874 : 03/16/13 : Math

Name the price on
what they claim to be a
magic bullet
I can't afford it so
I guess stuff more crow
down my gullet
And if it's not my answer
guess I'd have
to eat the cost
Meanwhile it doesn't take a cent
to moan and wail
the cause is lost
and I am just attacking
how I scorn
a mundane path
one way or another
help or no
I've got to do the math

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2.2873 : 03/15/13 : The Glimpse

The Glimpse into the past
reveals too much
the principle of cycles
my clumsy touch
100 just reasons
to throw in the towel
the plow, the sword,
the telephone and the trowel

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2.2872 : 03/14/13 : Easier

Insist you try another yoke
easier, lighter
You don't have to prove to me
I know you're a fighter
hate to be insistent
but you're hard to slow down
this can be collaboration
If you don't make it a throw down
take it easier
the world won't founder
you will heal faster
if you be still and don't flounder
I know it's hard for you
I know it in my wrists and feet
but even as you rest
this work in you is being made complete

what

2.2871 : 03/13/13 : Unlimited

Try to believe I am unlimited
try to believe in my wealth
Superabundant
am I making it
hell I'm not even faking it
try to believe
that I'm not simply redundant
You'd be hard pressed
to convince me there's a reason
these days I'm doubting
there's even an explanation
just a bunch of stuff that reacts
all breaks down to lifeless facts
this ball of wax
you couldn't call it a creation
Say there's strength in weakness
say the unlimited
lurks in the small
I'd love to believe
but I'm begging for reprieve
because I can't find the end
of my limitations at all

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2.2870 : 03/12/13 : Feelings

When you can't stand
the feelings no more
or bear to think
about what's all in store
What else to do
but relent, retire
pray heaven deliver
me from the wire

what

2.2869 : 03/11/13 : Breaking

Ready or not
there is a breaking point
a real thing
not some abstract joint
Can't seem to put my finger
on my values
what I really believe
do I have any
vision of life
is purpose a thing you receive

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2.2868 : 03/10/13 : Stand

Forced to stand so
shorter and sweeter
you're about as subtle
as a damn egg beater
you're about as subtle
as a hammerhead
and I've had all I can stand
so let it be read

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2.2867 : 03/09/13 : Straw

Am I going to come up
talk about that last straw
knowing what I know
Lord and what a slackjaw
Never mind this pass
clumsy stab at a fierce howl
nobody to care
or hear me if I cry foul

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2.2866 : 03/08/13 : Whatever I Can Build

Whatever I can
build in weakness
do away with
optimism
do away with
platitudes
and the attitudes
of destiny's prism
see a world
that's meant for nothing
no transcendence
no mortal end
whatever I can
build with doubt
unknowingness
dark ways I wend

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2.2865 : 03/07/13 : No Bottom

No bottom
sunk in this channel
so much
so I handle every
what would
what would
constitute a difference
do I want to know
how low
hell I can make an inference
all I can do
not to be ruled by fear
hope not to test
the feeling there's no
bottom here

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2.2864 : 03/06/13 : The Object

What if the object
is very immovable
and I turn out to be
very resistable
the final joke is
the theory's unprovable
my faults so many
they may be unlistable
all these ideas
and time for just one
it feels like the problem
but still I am dubious
some mental block
some aversion to fun
and my process for change
so inane and lugubrious
what if the object
is not there at all
and I turn out to be
exerting no force
how in the hell do
I kick off this wall
start again start again
all I've got of course

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2.2863 : 03/05/13 : Kinder

Kinder gentler
the only course
I believe in more than half
think about
where I heard it
what can you do you have to laugh
the thousand points of light
the bridge to the future
can I get a stiff one to cope with it
can I get a little hooch here
to take the edge off
get a little kinder
nobody told me
it'd be such a grinder
but I will gentle
before the grim machine
and breeze through its pores
before it knows what I mean

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2.2862 : 03/04/13 : Bread (2)

Read my own words
on the decisive break
Cleave to the real
what even God
can't shake
but is it in me
to take my own advice
feel like I said it
ten times more than twice
it isn't obvious
What's to be done
of if I'm just as called
as anyone
if I should fake it
or just wait and kick
if I make a break for it
could it possibly stick?

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2.2861 : 03/03/13 : Buck

But I can't accept this trend
So I must buck it
Envisioning the gold
dreaming I struck it
Don't need no list
there isn't any bucket
you thought you had me but
that rose I will not pluck it

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2.2860 : 03/02/13 : Converge

Nothing is rising
and nothing will converge
the plateau turns out to be
ten thousand times the surge
the pie is shrinking
and so is our share
And I never said I wouldn't
say I told you so
so there

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2.2859 : 03/01/13 : Consequence

You start out thinking you're so smart
You figure out how dumb you are
sooner or later
And the look on my face
When I'm feeling that slap
may well convince you that I am such a hater
but it's just the blinding light
When it all makes sense
and you stand before
the unbending logic of the consequence
This world's about things
that make sense but aren't fair
the reach of youth's
dumb decisions
sometimes make you stand and stare
of course you wound up
in this boat
of course you face this wall immense
of course of course of course
it winds up
just you and your consequence

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