Saturday, February 28, 2015

2.1397 : 2/28/09 : No Tomorrow




There is no tomorrow for
the one you failed to say goodbye to
here I am struggling to finish
something I said I wouldn't
even try to
Another poet struck down
more sweet words are lost
Sometimes I wonder if
even God pauses to count the cost
There's no tomorrow I've
been waiting 37 years
and every greater ecstasy
came with its batch of
bitter tears
And if we had a thousand years
we still couldn't say enough
I hope at some strange angle
I'll be called upon to call that bluff

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Friday, February 27, 2015

2.1396 : 2/27/09 : Ta Da

I don’t even want to
gin up the usual
blah blah blah
reach deep into your
little hole and
pull out a cliché
ta da!

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Thursday, February 26, 2015

2.1395 : 2/26/09 : The Music of Failure

Is it any less a failure
to do just for doing
to fill in a blank
to check off a box?
I try to remember
all of the feelings
the joy and believing
the key that unlocks
the door to a shared place
a light across a face
seen to be a friend
I missed one last chance
still you told me to dance
and that poem doesn’t end

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Wednesday, February 25, 2015

2.1394 : 2/25/09 : Persist




Why persist? why persevere?
It's not as if I'm getting anywhere here
Not like it's not obvious I'm not one of those
who fate or God or chance or whatever chose
these days it looks to me like pure defiance
I'll rub your face in how I never had a chance
I will just churn it out till I cease to exist
never knowing if it really matters if I persist

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2.1393 : 2/24/09 : Important Stuff

I’m sure I won’t regret
another day
my decision to
ignore important
stuff outside
hang up my quills
and jump in for the ride
And when it all comes
back to zero,
Nobody’s going to
call me a hero
but a few more people
just might
get where it’s coming from


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2.1392 : 2/23/09 : Get Ahead

Look at everybody trying to get ahead
Scattering before the fall maybe hide under the bed
oh cool check it out there’s a lamp under here
what a coincidence a whole raft of new things to fear
the whole world’s acting like the pins got pulled
were we all eating sand while the world got sold?
could it get so bad we’d feel better off dead
maybe if we truly lose the dream of getting ahead

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2.1391 : 2/22/09 : Last Time

Once you accept
that you really don’t want
what you know that you must
What then?
For a while you can
postpone the inevitable
You want to do that again?
tell yourself
this is the last oh oh
this is the last time
Oh yeah this is the
last last time
or maybe transition
or manual transmission
One more act of exhibition
while I still am in my prime

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2.1390 : 2/21/09 : Anticipating

Anticipating the time crunch to come
only a week left to add up the sum
sure it will be another cluster freak
And who knows when the static’s going to peak
Everyone’s getting tense and jittery
Bitching and sweating the economy
Not so serene about what we can’t change
watch the corpse turn to something rich and strange
I’d almost rather see it all fall down
I said that once a source of my renown
I was a kid I want to take it back
If you’ve the chance please tell that to the pack
oh we’re all boiling with anticipation
they’re ringing warning bells on every station
Nobody knows how deep this hole might sink
Or what might change completely in one blink

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Friday, February 20, 2015

2.1389 : 2/20/09 : Extreme

I guess indeed
you’d have to call
this way of things
extreme
I filled my eyes
with festering light
until it all
seemed like a dream
but
I think I’ll have to
fake it waiting
for the vessel
of transformation
and howsoever
I can manage
resist the grim seduction
of the information

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Thursday, February 19, 2015

2.1388 : 2/19/09 : Sweet

You know there’s a reason that
I call you sweet
oh, it’s a taste
I like a little salt
I like a little tart
but I only got one baby so
let me repeat:
oh it’s a taste
a taste
a taste
sweet like sugar
sweet like honey
Wouldn’t trade for any money
it’s a taste
sweet like mango
fresh papaya
juice dripping from my chin
I’m no liar
it’s a taste
you know there’s a reason
that I call you sweet
oh, it’s a taste
a taste
a taste

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Wednesday, February 18, 2015

2.1387 : 2/18/09 : CHEESE

This book of petty sorrows
requires more CHEESE
a sunset and a butterfly
if you please
I’ll ride off into that sunset
on my faithful mare
While I serenade you
run my fingers through your hair
Why can’t everything
just fucking be nice
I asked the Lord
I asked that bastard twice
I asked three times
but it was no charm
well bless my soul
I’ll move it to the Cheese Farm
I like butter, I like milk
I like things made of cotton and silk
I’m going to walk it if I
have to walk it on my knees
Because I’m pretty sure the moon by now
is made of CHEESE


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Tuesday, February 17, 2015

2.1386 : 2/17/09 : Transition Protocol

are you expecting to
get it now, get it all
you have not begun to go through

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2.1385 : 2/16/09 : Gimmick

3,577 : 42 ?



The Gimmick is only good for one shot
pretty soon you’ve got to put up
whatever you’ve got
And it’s the nature of the beast to fail and fail
Oh man I’m getting carried out of this one in a pail
hey it’s not gimmick it’s just me and you
amazingly enough I’ve still got work to do
and a few tricks of the trade no that’s not the same
you gotta have a few tricks up your sleeve
to play the game

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Sunday, February 15, 2015

2.1384 : 2/15/09 : Failing Inspiration




Failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: failing inspiration there is nothing but persistence: fate may show you mercy if you lower your resistance

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Saturday, February 14, 2015

2.1383 : 2/14/09 : Laughing

I’ve got the equipment
but I’m not laughing
Finish this trash heap
while I’m paragraphing
So many things
I declare done right now
and hitch my desire
back up to my Gospel plow

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2.1382 : 2/13/09 : Over




Nothing’s really ever over
so it appears
Not a dozen not a hundred
not a thousand years
not ends of days
of city states
no end of deadlines
or apocalypse dates
Though it all be drawn
into the swollen sun
yet still it will not yet be done

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Thursday, February 12, 2015

2.1381 : 2/12/09 : Authority

Never going to be
anyone’s authority
on anything
never a book
never a teevee show
trying to figure just
what I’ve got going for me
on this weird fling
just what’s my hook
maybe I’ll never know.

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Wednesday, February 11, 2015

2.1380 : 2/11/09 : Catching

It must be a kind of virus
it must be catching
no matter what I do it comes to this
more desperate last minute scratching
Got no bootstraps, got no boots
got no strength in my arms
I’ve got a way of saying the wrong thing
and you are immune to my charms
I’ve got no real hope of real change
it’s always something too important to wait
We’ll get to that as soon as things settle
provided I don’t snap at the bait
but I’m not going to leave it lying
I am going to get up fierce and fine
and soldier through one more aftermath
and struggle up one more steep incline


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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

2.1379 : 2/10/09 : Window or the Floor

If nothing gels if
it all just drags along
If I stay weak when
I want to be strong
What once was one
became two and three
It was easier to worry just about me
It all just turns out
the same every day
it all just turns out
not to matter anyway
self fulfilling prophecy
bad attitude
feel lucky: there’s a whole lot
longer list I could include
put the pedal to the metal
floor this bitch
pretend to be so spiritual
while I pray to become rich
I’m not tempted by
the window or the floor
and it must be fifteen years
since I really tried to find the door

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Monday, February 09, 2015

2.1378 : 2/9/09 : One Bell Still

3,569 : 34 ?




Every good intention
transubstantiates to
alchemy
that’s the kind of days
I get born into
oh and
woe is me
I can’t fret about
just what might come
it doesn’t do a thing
and though the point
I’ve come to
makes me feel dumb
there’s one bell still left
to ring

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Sunday, February 08, 2015

2.1377 : 2/8/09 : Matter

Sooner or later
does it really matter
Another hopeful illusion
left to shatter
the human race
is a layer of slime
ignore the fancy structures left behind
that shit is well past its prime
and my mind is in
cloud cuckoo land
It doesn’t matter
Cause this one
is long out of my hand
but some stranger
that I never met
said I was the man
So I guess I’m going to
have to
make things matter
if I can

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Saturday, February 07, 2015

2.1376 : 2/7/09 : Unbind

Unbind unwind unwrap
the patient and
how the string doesn’t snap
before we land
back in the garden of the
lovely days
oh the sea oh the sand
oh my childish ways
If I could lift the weight
that presses on us
I just know that thing would change
no black, all plus
I’m such an optimist
it’s unjustifiable
Cheerfully predisposed by nature but
disappointment is reliable
And there’s nothing to be said
to buy me any scrap of real hope
I guess the sunshine always free unbound
at least allows me to cope

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Friday, February 06, 2015

2.1375 : 2/6/09 : Good Sense

Simulated good sense and
don’t leave everything for last
everything else about this
evening stinks of the past
I don’t care about anything right now
Not even the momentary sad effort
so take a bow

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2.1374 : 2/5/09 : Make A Plan

Make a god damned plan
make a god damned plan
There’s no more excuses
You stupid man

write a couple of lists
If part of you resists
Kick that dumb part in the junk
and just get on with it

It doesn’t matter what
just slam the lid on but
and the plan will surely go
haywire
but you gotta move before the door
is shut

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Wednesday, February 04, 2015

2.1373 : 2/4/09 : Reed




When the reed had bent
as far as it could bend
when the moving finger writ
its message and hit send
I felt bruised but it
appeared it wasn't broken
and couldn't deny the
last word I'd heard spoken

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Tuesday, February 03, 2015

2.1372 : 2/3/09 : Soldier

The dangers I endured
for example for transcendence
of a chemical variety
a temporary release from sanity
I’ve been a soldier in my way
You will reel and spit to hear me say
I took my chances for the sake
of one child soldier
and now that I am
so much older
I forgo the service
of the smuggler
in a so much simpler way
And all who were illuminated
agreed the that the question
was a trap, and baited
but me I just waited
like a soldier
like a dog told to stay


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Monday, February 02, 2015

2.1371 : 2/2/09 : Suture


3,561 : 26 ?




How in the world can I still be expecting
after something like twenty years
spent in reflecting
Is there anything really left there
or just an image bound up in
steel strings and coarse hair
You could theorize that we hope because we must
just enough to kick us into low gear
shake off the rust
never enough to escape gravity
or shake the bitch up
a suture in time
and every rhyme it's going to stitch up
I crudely sew one disjointed season to another
pretend a whole is coalescing
fake it till you make it brother
this time I'm a quit while I'm ahead
uncharacteristic
but this stone's been thoroughly bled


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Sunday, February 01, 2015

2.1370 : 2/1/09 : Pushing



It's a fine analogy:
pull with all your might
against
your own pushing
while all the while
gravity presses you
firmly to the ground
and if you think it's fear
that keeps me
from pushing every
inch
of every button you've got
well it's not
neither lack of desire
or inner fire
in fact that sounds just fine to me
but my pushing spirit's
bound by courtesy

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