2.2950 : 05/31/13 : Lightning

Short of putting lightning in a bottle
we devised a vehicle
without a throttle
everything must roar
wide open
How you doing man?
You know I'm coping
funnel effort from the many
are there still moves for us?
no not any
so it seems when
I am pessimistic
most days
these days
probably solipsistic
probably all
focused on my own thing
desperate
clueless
trying to capture lightning

what

2.2949 : 05/30/13 : Three Topics

My brain is filled with three topics
oh and I'm sick of everyone
And I won't speak of any of them
Not interesting also not fun
the spirit is willing
the flesh is also willing
So what's the damn hang up?
Forget every perfect reason why not
and just get that thing up
I'll raise one more little flag of defiance
then go quietly to whatever doom
gets set out for me
it's not fate but it feels fatal
but it's better than staying
another minute in this room

what

2.2948 : 05/29/13 : Not Fate

Don't know what I'm tempting
but it's not fate
don't know what I'm chasing
but it's not bait
I need to lay my
poor head down so
that looks an exit
and I think I'll go

what

2.2947 : 05/28/13 : Cake

Three bugs
and a great big cake
they put pontoons on it
and sailed it on a lake
they rowed it to an island
with coffee spoons
and all the way they played
picnic tunes
the littlest bug whistled
doodley doo
the biggest bug hummed
tweedley dee
and the third bug sang
a special song
and the song she sang
was happy birthday to me

what

2.2946 : 05/27/13 : Killing Dreams

Teach me a secret method
for killing dreams
it better be effective
I've reams and reams
I'm tired of feeling hopeful
getting worked up
we're all getting exploited
getting jerked up
every year more losers
welcome to the club
they threw the baby out
banged a hole in the tub
no it's no place for dreaming
only time to work and shop
Swear one day I'll go out screaming
one day I'll blow my top

what

2.2945 : 05/26/13 : Tangier

Never been to Tangier
never been anywhere
and the road that
starts me down
don't want to see what that lays bare
tired of
no don't go there
don't dwell on it
don't go anywhere

what

2.2944 : 05/25/13 : What

This pain
familiar
what's to be said
and I don't want
to document
what goes by in my head
any longer
no closer
no stronger
and as sick
gut
and it's all
what

what

2.2943 : 05/24/13 : Frown

One cup of coffee
one piece of pie
but I have no pie
and so I will cry
why not stay silly
why not be a clown
what use to be anxious
what use to frown
what use to worry
what use to fret
how do I profit
what do I get
So I will be jolly
smile like a fool
something must turn up
because I am so cool

what

2.2942 : 05/23/13 : Extend

Allow me to extend
a raucous middle finger
to my every aspiration
and persistence
I'm stomping down
in my overflowing mental trash can
the last shreds
of optimism
in existence
beyond the servile
beyond the mundane
beyond interment in the box
I was never free
always a slave in my mind
Call it all my fault
and make with the rocks

what

2.2941 : 05/22/13 : Comparing

Comparing yourself to anyone
won't get you anywhere
I don't know when
but I'll see you when I get there
a thousand mistakes
to not make again
but I've still got momentum
and I've still got spin
don't like the way I tell that story
going to throw it out
don't like the things it
turned out to be about
give me five days
I'll tell it twice
the first will make you cry
but it will all end nice

what

2.2940 : 05/21/13 : B.C.L.

We're all born into this world
with a fucking deficit
And the past's a cancelled check
So let's get on with it
I've an ironclad excuse
for every era that I wasted
Let us cut through the slack
and jack the alibi I pasted
I was bullied I was lovesick
I was heartbroken and stoned
then I had too much responsibility
and on that rock I honed
a claim that seemed ridiculous
and all the more surprise
I will transform into a black-
chromed lotus right before your eyes

what

2.2939 : 05/20/13 : Fear the New Attitude

Smile so sweet that
it puts you to sleep
So you needn't see the faith
it takes me to leap
to say I'm okay
with caveats I don't include
so you don't see you might well
fear the new attitude
if you refuse to be afraid
if you refuse to lie
if you really lived
like you were assured to die
I can't imagine what you'd look like
you're a superhero
It's of no account I'm late
and now I must start from zero

what

2.2938 : 05/19/13 : New Attitude

I saw leaves shifted in thousands
by a wind that had no name
half a dozen years gone
and I wondered how it all came out the same
and like a lightning flash
I like saw the answer dude
And summed it neatly up
It just required a new attitude
I'm sick of getting wroth
I'm sick of finding fault
I'm sick of seeking wounds
and rubbing in the salt
And while so many things
are easier said than done
I enlist the advocate
of man the holy one
inspire an attitude that
makes everyone smile
another spook in the long
running joke of the pentagon files

what

2.2937 : 05/18/13 : Tiny Castle

Tiny castle
tiny moat
tiny people cross it
in a tiny boat
A tiny story waits
behind the tiny tiny gates
tiny princess
tiny king
tiny dragon guards
the tiny magic ring
give it up for these
tiny adventures
and pray for the end of
my hated indentures

what

2.2936 : 05/17/13 : Ding-A-Ling

The Dude gave me a ding-a-ling
he said you've got to
ring that thing
said I don't like the looks of bells
reminder of poetic hells
must get expansive
must ornate
must rococo
and diverticulate
If I jumped up and shouted
spat this taste out
rooted routed
would the ringing reach your ears
Is it as bad as
it appears?
I ring the ding
trilling entranced
and all the while
the cliff advanced

what

2.2935 : 05/16/13 : Again

This again
and that again
and boiling in
my hat again
I will not stand
a minute longer
only hope
I'll soon be stronger

what

2.2934 : 05/15/13 : Faking

Today I get angry and stop taking it
No more making nice no no more faking it
So sorry always going on on what's inside
but it's not by my fault alone I take this ride
where the hell's my teacher I've been ready long
where is the big bell here's your big ding dong
I'm angry I am going to stay this way
It's already burning so we might as well play

what

2.2933 : 05/14/13 : Fatal

I see every fatal flaw
but there's no backup plan
Guess we all have to roll with
getting punched however we can
Some blows they land so hard
to knock us out of reason
and if I'm restless if I'm wroth
just blame it on the season

what

2.2932 : 05/13/13 : Defeat

You know what would be great
to admit defeat
negotiate the terms of surrender
Maybe retire from the public life
maybe go on a royal bender
I guess just saying shows I don't accept
despite a sameness a dragging grind
I had a better thought and maybe it'll come back
If I could just empty my mind

what

2.2931 : 05/12/13 : Graveyard

Now the old graveyard
I used to roam alone at night
has my dad as a tenant
it all fits a little too tight
In a place I swear I'd never live again
but I wish I could be there now
Swinging a graveyard shift
just for one night somehow
that home is good and gone
the walks the stars the times
the loves the hates the losses
the silly kidstuff crimes
manage a visit sometime
but it won't be the same
and he won't be there
nowhere on earth but in my name

what

2.2930 : 05/11/13 : Yell

Maybe I should
do it every night
get up on the hill
and yell
one of these times
I'll turn out right
and all will be well
and all will
be well
I'm gonna start
tomorrow
for real for real
and true
Say shh
I'm never telling
anyone
but you

what

2.2929 : 05/10/13 : Fright

The future holds a fright
it's got a grip on me
and all my old allies
are gonna flip on me
can't keep my eyes open
I'm asleep on my feet
And the real fright to me
is that you'll hit repeat

what

2.2928 : 05/09/13 : Lag

My enlightenment's complete
but my entitlement will lag
I swear the vinegar is sweet
but in my heart I feel the drag
what sort of tale could be told
a thousand times and still be fresh
we'll share a laugh at that
as we take to the floor to thresh

what

2.2927 : 05/08/13 : Home

My sacred task
was to make the home
can't guess my next calling
no clues in any tome
need so bad to get positive
need so bad to believe
as I keel over the edge
as I howl and heave

what

2.2926 : 05/07/13 : Life of Adventure

low on excitement
high on stress
expecting the worst
I've been worse I guess

don't know what to say
but the same retort
so I'll turn in my
minority report

life of adventure
is there any hope
I guess I better
limber up my periscope

what

2.2925 : 05/06/13 : Too Soon

Far too soon to
think about
life going on
but it does whether you
want it to or not
well? Do you
want it to or not
when did what I want
start to have a
damn thing to do with it
not giving up
So I guess I'm here
until I'm through with it
And I'm sorry so sorry
because everything should stop
and I wish it would stop
and wishing doesn't help
nothing helps with this deep drop

what

2.2924 : 05/05/13 : Valve

Too hard to think about
the waking dread
too bad there's no escape valve
in my head
what a circus
what a nightmare
what a trial
I hope it gets better
somewhere out past
the miracle mile

what

2.2923 : 05/04/13 : Goodness' Sake

Why do we persist?
for goodness' sake
although we're sorely tested
harrowed with a cruel rake
when there are no words
but only grieving
for goodness' sake even then
we put off leaving

what

2.2922 : 05/03/13 : Presence in the Cloud

What are we to make
of clouds by day
and fire by night
call that leadership
oh pillar so bright
turned to a pillar of salt
a fate for any who look back
guess where I could find fault
The presence in the cloud so black
twenty in and twenty out
we all search for our promised land
inside the cloud wandering about
in doubt we are in any hand

what

2.2921 : 05/02/13 : What's Good

What's good
sometimes I know when I see it
sometimes I get so jealous
I know I want to be it
Guess it needn't be
long or heavy
and make enough of it
to smash right through
the levee

what

2.2920 : 05/01/13 : Improvise

What's the word
When it's really not there
and you stop expecting change
I never
thought I was best
but I thought I had a little more range
I guess I know
it was predictable
did I think I would improvise
another corner
expecting a door
instead I meet my own eyes
for so long
it's all been improvised
so maybe I just ran out of tricks
but I'm still alive
and look to stay that way
so today I'll kick again against the pricks

what

2.2919 : 04/30/13 : Story (II)

That story is old so I'm killing it
still the page is blank so I'm filling it
When I find the new story I'll be telling it
When I'm not building I'm selling it
I have to share it because it's so fine
I have to claim it because it is mine
I never said it would be accessible
You'll hear it brother if you can spare me a decibel
and when the beat gets hot I'll be pumping it
I'll build my rolling stock while you're dumping it
and at the option call I'll be slaying you
you'll only have ears for what I'm playing you

what