2.3619 : 3/31/15 : Not Proud (Endless Axis 352/500)

Skip the second and soda

its just bumming me

Got a feeling that the man

is just slumming me

I'm not proud anymore

not defiant

though yet not quite tame

not quite pliant

my heart was a stiff reed

and it broke fast

maybe never got all the way over

but the rest was built to last

And I'm not proud of it

because it's scarcely anything

to do with me

and still nothing in my hand I bring

what

2.3618 : 3/30/15 : Fooled (Endless Axis 351/500)

Got fooled the same way

seven times

must be more than

70 times

it couldn't be

700

not impressive

no matter the count

and days I stack up clean

in whatever amount

I'm going it look back

maybe mistake this for a day

from back a few stacks

remind me not

this book: oh well

but still this is

something new I can tell

what

2.3617 : 3/29/15 : Run Up (Endless Axis 350/500)

Run up

to the bright one hundred

Oops

was that a decision

more like an incision

detour the landmine

take the torment

get mine

open ended as all hell

but that's

the sigil

that's the spell

what

2.3616 : 3/28/15 : Home (Endless Axis 349/500)

Is this home then?

now I see

home belongs to another

and I kept it

as a ship's captain

I am it's and so

Do-say, ho, heigh

brother

A silent still

salute while

passing in the night

and yours will be

safe and sound

little one

and every little thing all right

what

2.3615 : 3/27/15 : Gratitude (Endless Axis 348/500)

This thing I hate

Slumping dash between the poles

and the way it slaughters days

back dishing with the proles

piled on worries

and a sick gut

what was that about a bright side

this is anything but

Oh how I need you now

to teach me of gratitude

can't get by too much more

white knuckled shattered shrewd

If I could figure out

if it's about the kingdom or the brass ring

If I could figure out where I stood

between peasant and king

what

2.3614 : 3/26/15 : Desperate (Endless Axis 347/500)

Maybe this is really

the desperate extent

finally about to be

kicked outta the big tent

maybe I've been outside

pissing in all along

maybe I just pissed away

another precious song

maybe being positive

just ain't my thang

maybe that was the heart

of every rotten word I sang

maybe tomorrow

oh forgot it can't exist

maybe the new watchword

is subsist subsist subsist

what

2.3613 : 3/25/15 : As Good as it Gets (Endless Axis 346/500)

Nothing new in the as good as it gets trip

This groove maybe too well worn

Try to find a different drummer down in the slip-

stream somewhere a little rip torn

Shrink down to the size of a pea

Slip through find another side

Never can believe I've found that perfect place for me

Never can sit back enjoy the ride

If I can protest it's not as simple as that

Nothing boils down to just attitude

Just privilege just perspective just change your hat

Just try not to be such a middle aged white dude

I got real problems, world's got real problems

wish to hell we could get to solving

One thing drives another out, troubles breed like golems

while the bigger sphere just keeps revolving

what

2.3612 : 3/24/15 : All Dreamtime (Endless Axis 345/500)

Cook down all my favorite

books and screenplays

stories and albums

all dreamtime forays

What came out of this stew

A pack of questions

hardly a map no

short on suggestions

Sure I though I saw a

vision in the night

scribed behind my eyeballs

in the virtual light

I wrote a title that

I can't recall

and how I sort the thousand things

all great and small

and how I wander restless

in the cosmic rummage stall

ignoring every dreamtime

text from the cabal

what

2.3611 : 3/23/15 : Laughing Alligator (Endless Axis 344/500)

Powers of mind

and Castaneda's trip

these wasted hours

if I peel off a strip

Same old sutras

on the original can

and me still here

with nor more a plan

and I never tried to work it

I just liked the story

I guess and I can't

say I'm exactly sorry

So I won't hang it out

or be a hater

but rather a brother

like a laughing alligator

what

2.3610 : 3/22/15 : And Slash (Endless Axis 343/500)

Never felt more like

hack hack

Never felt more

lost in the pack

is it coming or not

the damn smash

pray, had another day

and slash

what

2.3609 : 3/21/15 : Penthouse (Endless Axis 342/500)

If I ruled the penthouse trip

would I be satisfied then

these dumb hypotheticals

and useless as a dried pen

Guess I never got hung up

enough or figured out the stakes

next thing you know this bed of coals

the next thing whoops out come the rakes

Am I out on the wingtip trip

guess I could be starting late

maybe hit the upper middle

everyone will say I'm great

What makes the man aside from money

status charm authority

Something about inner goodness

What's that ever done for me

what

2.3608 : 3/20/15 : Autobio (Endless Axis 341/500)

Seems like I missed my window for

driving the ten year nail

guess I could take a paper detour

Or would we call that an epic fail

guess I know what tag I'm going to flag this smack

how you like the cryptic autobio

gee it sure all takes me back

to all the pages pages

I'm eroding like the bookworm I am

never get this one in music

yet another slab of firm high ham

but it meant something to me

Someday have to drill much deeper

harder rhymes from deeper wells

what

2.3607 : 3/19/15 : Stalk (I) (Endless Axis 340/500)

Not so sure about this new

stalk I'm climbing

Not much faith in all the

Cheap talk I'm rhyming

I want to be a con king

like Klugarsh Mind Control

these days on the wire

they just call you a troll

Jack could have got his treasure

just as well on the ground

the moral of that story

was he just stole what he found

and as for me

I climb for love alone

the hope for the message

and failing that the lost tone

what

2.3606 : 3/18/15 : My Slack (Endless Axis 339/500)

I lifted the means of

production off the man

subconsciously sure

but hey I do what I can

I guess I could have boosted

the rest of this kit

don't sweat my inconsistent standards

that's hobgoblin shit

but oh my golly

my slack's got awful spare

where'd I pick up this damn ethic

Sure: the man who isn't there

And I'm hard pressed believing

I'm waiting for the call

And I'd tell you how I really feel

but I'd hate to appall

what

a second chance here in the nest of eyes

And so wrapping up Songs of Days volume 2.17 The Right Books (AKA Ten Treasures). Getting a little weird inside my skull (not like this show is playing anywhere else) as these relics enter what seems like the modern era of my life (though it's been the same number of years behind currency for a long while now) - same job, school-age kid.

Anyway on to volume 2.18 - Stalk 1 

what

2.3605 : 3/17/15 : Dark Liberation (Endless Axis 338/500)

Abdication of

responsibility

that's not liberation

so what does it

mean to be free

unfettered

and fearless

oh the forever back

when I fantasized

I was peerless

no you're really

down in the scrum now

you could say

I look pretty dumb now

and pining for

the uncertain vacation

and pining more

for this dark liberation

what

2.3604 : 3/16/15 : Surprise (Endless Axis 337/500)

Okay this rough diamond

and the thing forgotten

such as what was buried

and what marked the spot then

And the protocol

forgetting pushed back 20 spaces

and buried to the neck

in dull edge cases

remind me of how

to ratchet up a grin

with my shoulders back

and a nice high chin

and not to ball up my fists

or roll my eyes

and pretend it's all delightful

Such a swell surprise

what

2.3603 : 3/15/15 : Every Single Thing Important (Endless Axis 336/500)

Needing to go

and in the worst way

and every single thing

important demands: stay

What else in the world

to say about that?

be a grown-up then

and wear this hat

what

2.3602 : 3/14/15 : Thin On the Ground (Endless Axis 335/500)

Reasonings for daydream hopes

are thin on the ground

I listen and listen for

that still small sound

and still a little angry voice

Says go to ground

and still every little thing

goes round and round and round

What's the follow up?

empty space a reason

better buckle down son

it's the planting season

and to mope and fuss

sure would be rank treason

cast the mighty spell right now

Oh yes I got my geas on

what

2.3601 : 3/13/15 : Acceptance (Endless Axis 334/500)

Find me acceptance

that doesn't feel like getting cracked

like a nut

under lead block stacked

or anyway

just let me relax

whatever your mystery

reasons, whatever these stacks

what

2.3600 : 3/12/15 : Proof (Endless Axis 333/500)

Proof of conviction

for what that's worth

Oh I groan I pine

to go to earth

dig in for the

catastrophe

or dark spikes that

dig up the past for me

get behind me

Ronald MacDonald

and every imaginary

coin I fondled

on every imaginary

dragon pile

nothing for this but the battery

and eating mile on mile

what

2.3599 : 3/11/15 : Must Be the Ties (Endless Axis 332/500)

Must be the ties

or the blue shoelaces

must be luck

or friends in high places

none of the above

some just excel

some seem born

to sigh say oh well

If everybody

gave it all and then some

if everybody

got behind Kingdom Come

we'd be outta jobs

we professional mopes

lucky these days

everybody's buried under tropes

what

2.3598 : 3/10/15 : Time Machine (Endless Axis 331/500)

I sure can't keep this up

if you keep plying the time machine

too much irony

too much jack if you know what I mean

hold out a hand

nobody's stopping this when

fall back on the flow

and repeat again

again again again

what

2.3597 : 3/9/15 : Live Without (Endless Axis 330/500)

Many endings never ending

seems the message

always sending

I could give up

this obsession

drop this torch from

my possession

but I look up

to a far height

Something to see

Something to write

if there is no call

I can live without

look up where I see

if you still have doubt

what

2.3596 : 3/8/15 : Infinite Blank (Endless Axis 329/500)

The infinite blank space

of this virtual

post-modern

Oh the look on

your face

baby that ain't

concern

better not

dare try

to try to guess odds

do the math

think this is

where I

Came in so

there's my path

what

2.3595 : 3/7/15 : The Writer (Endless Axis 328/500)

The writer has a plan now

one two three

and kapow

The mission is a map see

and roll it

comes up craps, see

and roll it

probably come up

nothing

still working, huh

here's

the thing

You'll make of it

what you will

if you decide

the kill pill

no I'll make of it

water

the highest good

the blotter

what

2.3594 : 3/6/15 : Overwhelm (Endless Axis 327/500)

Is it the overwhelm

the effects of dilution

did it succumb

like any institution

to inertia, mundanity

and foregone conclusion

is there a point now

to try to cover my confusion

Once said I wore it

like a brand but then what?

I wasn't ever more

than a rough mutt

trying to get by

in a mean realm

trying to swim the crest

of the overwhelm

what

2.3593 : 3/5/15 : Opportunity (Endless Axis 326/500)

If not with first light

then at the next opportunity

don't be fooled by my meek veneer

no one strikes me with impunity

I've got a long long list

every slight every offense

and you best mind where you're sitting

when I burn down the fence

what

2.3592 : 3/4/15 : Zag (Endless Axis 325/500)

Must look for sun

in the morning

must look for tales

in my heart

there's no end of roads

despite every warning

there's no limit

no claim on art

If I'm brief

it's that time's quicker

So here's the point

before you reach for the clicker

must look for sun

when sun's shining

and though for every

lost day I'm pining

for each new day

I raise the flag

walk forth

and drop jaws when I zag

what

2.3591 : 3/3/15 : You Are Here (Endless Axis 324/500)

You are here

nothing else to work with

enough to get on

slogging through the murk with

trying to pick a battle

Well there's no end of them

and as to those not here

I was a true friend of them

what

2.3590 : 3/2/15 : The Curse (Endless Axis 323/500)

The thing that wasn't so bad

the thing that could get worse

all are born marked

all bear the curse

promised toil

well I heard that son

there'll be a day or reckoning

but not this one

what

2.3589 : 3/1/15 : Gone Indie (Endless Axis 322/500)

I don't want to bitch

about the box all the time now

better take my bitter pill

When I hear the early chime now

Smile and declare

it to be very sweet

highlight these ugly thoughts

and delete delete delete

Soon I'll have some new kink

in the feedline in hand, hey

the devil made the show

hell somehow he made the band pay

Shoulda gone indie

Shoulda left the contract blank

blech the box but scratch talks

and me I'm down to make bank

what