2.4533 : 9/30/17 : Try to Stall

When'd it all get so heavy

long before the dam or levy

Does light break through?

I'll leave that verse up to you

I did them in couplets and pairs

alternating and direct

some stumbled upon unawares

Some I struggled to erect

So in spite of whispers and stares

I'll lob you this soft ball

If there's a soul who still cares

to chase the questions to the back wall

try to make it back alive

So baby try to stall

Help's about to arrive

Just check it in a minute or five

what

2.4532 : 9/29/17 : Dug In

Find a few

hundred more ways

to say oh

oh well

throw up my hands

give it another spell

pray this malaise

is just a need of sleep

and a need to stay

dug in deep

what

2.4531 : 9/28/17 : Original Revelation

OK here's the

original revelation

tonight ain't the night

'cause there's no such

situation

but it turns out

that's all right

don't ask for proof

proof is for losers

faith is for winners

movers and choosers

sorry Charlie but it's so

but oh

it means I've still got

such a long way to go

what

2.4530 : 9/27/17 : Finding

Still finding something

in this

gratuitous chore

so keep on

with it

keep making more

just a sparse

web of thought

and a little

bit of a war

I fought

what

2.4529 : 9/26/17 : Better

Maybe this could

get better for anything

for anyone

can't get one sentence done

can't ever seem to

get it all together

always fighting

hell bent for leather

Doesn't excuse me

Whatever my little corner

however I might feel boxed in

another day to get foxed in

now's not the time

tonight's not the night

not reeling this one in

not getting the thing right

what

2.4528 : 9/25/17 : Goodbyes

Before another fleeting

moment flies

saying my momentary

minor goodbyes

no big change

turning over

just a spade of earth

and uproot clover

what

2.4527 : 9/24/17 : More Hassle

These gaps

near 'bout a fugue

hive is unquiet

more hassle

to deny yet

best plans

and the blah blah blah

No use

So usual

anymore?

Say nah

what

2.4526 : 9/23/17 : Sweet

Here go the voices

calling me dumby

just cause the continuity

got gummy

but I've got a solution

called the short and sweet

give me a slap

and push me back on my feet

what

2.4525 : 9/22/17 : Chorus

The plan will likely

fall apart

oh well before ten

probably another

round of

never again

oh comedown

chorus

Sing me in low

Starting to get

scared at

all I'll never

know

how to be OK

with that

it's really strange

used to never know

I lacked

what did I crave

if I knew the

hammer swiftening

what would I save?

what

2.4524 : 9/21/17 : Crust

This heat's unnatural

there's some tropical gold

call me crazy

start craving the cold

one more thing

to freak over, stress out

not really what

this mood's about

this melting pot's

built up a nasty crust

all attempts to scrape it off

have come up bust

and these topics

are hardly unrelated

though my tap on

any real solution's

highly overrated

what

2.4523 : 9/20/17 : Envy Stones

Once I felt defiant

these days I'm not so sure

the ground is very trodden

not much left you'd call pure

closing my eyes I only

see a hundred envy stones

and everything everything

I cannot wring

from my own bones

the show doesn't slow down

the players get youger

whet thin and whittled

by a differet sort of hunger

And if I had to bet

I'd probably try to hedge

and the whisper in the back

I must be losing my edge

what

2.4522 : 9/19/17 : Backtrace

So maybe, just maybe

the tide isn't turning

and maybe, just maybe

that bridge is finished burning

but the backtrace route

is too far to fathom

and as for all the dreams

hell with it, you have 'em

can't get my finger

on a steady pulse

my ear's gone tin

and all words ring false

but I better grit and grin

and just bear it

and if that pointy cap fits

I guess I wear it

what

2.4521 : 9/18/17 : A Pretty Low Bar

Can't bear a weight

tonight

So must leave

the world to its own

all right

forbear the

available taste

for once

a pretty low bar

to avoid the cap

marked dunce

must at some point

escape this limited

voice

or not I guess

not quite sure

it's a choice

duck for

the bar

turn in early

hope an extra half hour

finds me waking

a little less surly

what

2.4520 : 9/17/17 : AXIS

I counted out about three years

I counted out a clean dozen

And if it strikes you as an easy road

I'm telling you, cousin

I made it all about the mirror

the window and the door

beats working endlessly

at telling what it's all good for

and at the point

I was ready to say

I'd just been at it too long

I found I could not

turn my back

or walk away from the

endless axis of song

You may think you got it

all figured out at line one or two

maybe you had me by the

introduction

and said to yourself oh

I know all about you

well you didn't at that

for the axis is great and mighty

and if you find me at my

leisure

I'll demonstrate that I don't

take it lightly

what

2.4519 : 9/16/17 : To Make

What is mine to make?

What such thing is destiny?

Have I been kidding myself

A decade and long past

Where the hell was I supposed to

Step my mast

and where to sail too

guess I'm still here

and making what I can

when nothing much seems near

what

2.4518 : 9/15/17 : Nub

think I'm

worn to a nub

ah there's

the rub

I knew the cycle

and this

mission's a scrub

never a thing to prove

the bell's rung

and I have

to move

what

2.4517 : 9/14/17 : Tongue Tied

I'm not tongue-tied

but merely tired

and perhaps a deeper cut

has so much changed

I don't know what

to hang the thread on

as I try to untangle it

and string myself along

the obvious

I scowl and cuss

unprofessional

not to get confessional

I write escape a

hundred times

still reluctant

to unpack my crimes

what

2.4516 : 9/13/17 : Headstone

And this a tiny

headstone for

another lost couplet

So I always got

a couple more

stuffed down my doublet

but I mourn my

little lost

foundling scraps

and lately

these nights

find me shooting craps

what

2.4515 : 9/12/17 : Low

Ready for the low

but never the time

Where to go to hear

the dirt bell chime

won't be tonight

no won't be tomorrow

more to beg more to steal

more to buy more to borrow

what

2.4514 : 9/11/17 : Inside Jokers

If I try to break the code

it just comes out as self-parody

and even the inside jokers

don't quite get the hilarity

You can ditch the fake smiles

because it's simply you young buck

I'm just trapped in the box

and the lid is well stuck

and this wheel has been around

this in a thousand pairs

at least I mostly kept the secret

mostly sidestep the stares

plenty like to poke mean fun

at sad cases like mine

and the jokers running things

well they still ain't cracked mine

what

2.4513 : 9/10/17 : Everything Right

I'll just get everything right

develop perfect sight

Crush every obstacle

they'll stare at the spectacle

I wont be like the ones who fell

off drinking from the magic well

not perfect but somehow just right

If not by force then by first light

what

2.4512 : 9/9/17 : Lazy Day

Nothing interesting
just a lazy day
got no pick-up
Got no Ándale
And I don't even
feel bad a bit
still I show up
Set down, transmit

what

2.4511 : 9/8/17 : Feeling Nice

Feeling nice:

Good God, don't interrogate

no finding flaws

it's fine in fact

it's better, it's great

don't demand

anymore, than

what's present

this is the all-grand-moment

surely what

an angel sent

feeling nice

the future is not

ours to bother

it comes unbidden

all of the kindly parent

tonight I call him

father

and no stress

no needing to explain

the Mother will

sweep up the rest

and the feeling-fine moment

will forever

remain

what

2.4510 : 9/7/17 : Regular

So you try to get O.K.

with the regular

because you aren't getting

anywhere but where you are

and there's nothing else in

the world to be O.K with

and I just can't bear

anymore of the "today's the day" myth

Give me my participation medal

and leave me in my box

just as soon as things

Settle out I'm casting out

the stalks

what

2.4509 : 9/6/17 : Eyes

My eyes hurt and

I'm so tired of this routine

think I'll drag myself

offline and see what it might mean

what

2.4508 : 9/5/17 : Passage

Where a fast passage

feels a

liability

all goals crowding in

not a one feels

a part of me

and screw it

I don't feel like it

what

2.4507 : 9/4/17 : Toys

Only want to hear about

little toys

let the evening flow out

you won't get me

making plans no

you won't get me

going out

because the plans

just drift off

and going out annoys

all so unnecessary

let me play with toys

what

2.4506 : 9/3/17 : Cycles

Is it just

the cycles

nothing really to solve

goes down

must come up

must go back down

no one to blame or absolve

Is the world getting

better or worse

or just standing

just standing stock still

the problem is people

are not percentages

and just too damn many

running up the bill

what

2.4505 : 9/2/17 : In the Sky

Looking up for my

Ship to come in

from the sky

every day

I swear it'll

catch my eye

I'm so dumb I

still believe I'm

bound for greatness

do I still believe

that I am somehow

on the waitlist

and if I could see

you could you

look me in the eye

and would it

matter since my

gaze is fixed in the sky

what

2.4504 : 9/1/17 : Iconic

Don't want to be ionic

clever wise or ironic

keep the goodies in the can

and daydreams about the secret plan

what

2.4503 : 8/31/17 : Fooled Again

Fooled again

by the big charade

Seems unlikely

I'll ever have it made

and getting angry

in a useless way

lost the narrative

and so what's to say

that's been restated

too many times to count

and taken altogether

to what does it amount

it isn't all it is

and thanks for that

but dear Lord

I'm ready for a new hat

what

2.4502 : 8/30/17 : All Regrets

All regrets as

still unrecovered

I find there isn't

much I discovered

really in all those

channels and shards

a kind of weary

send up

for the fool-king

of the bards

what