2.4745 : 4/30/18 : A Bird

Maybe not a spark

or a shaft of light

maybe not a surge

in a spot so tight

Maybe it's stunned

and tiny: a bird

and the last thing it needs

is for me to say a word

a little sustenance

a little tlc

I know its destiny

to fly away from me

do I follow it then

or live off the memory

learn the lesson

it ain't all about me

what

2.4744 : 4/29/18 : Grip

Getting a grip

but on what exactly

do I have strength to pull up

before what's coming down

Smacks me

back to the next

setback always in the chamber

Who's tugging on the trigger

I could but I won't name her

sickness recedes

but leaves an ever darker stain

When the sickness is gone

what exactly will remain

I'd like to think

the bones of a higher order

not so optimistic

but hell

I'm only a recorder

what

2.4743 : 4/28/18 : Fooled

Fooled by an idea

in my head

thought to have done

did nothing instead

Flip the counter

back to nothing, flat

just when I don't want to

ger a second at bat

what

2.4742 : 4/27/18 : American Dream

The time tripping

isn't building confidence

we've been around this

track a good few times

Still nowhere near

jumping the fence

and maybe I should

just embrace my lame-o

day to day

believe the hype

American dream

Lotta people

getting rich that way

a lot more

getting poor

but hey winners

need losers

make an argument

convince me

I don't belong with

these confusers

what

2.4741 : 4/26/18 : Hurly Burly

Nothing haunts

the empty belfrey

Safe to say

You'll never tell me

do I want

to get up early

beat the traffic

hurly burly

No I do not

but I can't conceive

if all this bullshit walked

what wouldn't leave

what

2.4740 : 4/25/18 : Hand and Neck

Try not to see portents

in my hand and neck

just this aging body

just hurts like heck

One small comfort gives me

it's a good excuse

hope to sleep this vise off

And tomorrow be more use

what

2.4739 : 4/24/18 : Right Question

The right question

will come to me

like a bird like a ray

unbidden

In the depth of dream

in the mire of work

all revealed that

once was hidden

I will know it when

it is on my lips

but I'll hold it

I won't ask it

till the perfect time

and the perfect place

the great riddle

I'll unmask it

what

2.4738 : 4/23/18 : Talk Back

Should I talk back

rather just get out

not a speck

of interest in yak yak

there's no discourse

just dueling rhetoric

and me silently

praying to get off the stack

for my sins

I got competence

and a big square hole

someone else, the hammer

I need to lock down

get to real planning

If I've ever going to get

out from under of this yammer

what

2.4737 : 4/22/18 : Narrative

Dream to take control

of the narrative

and wrestle it away

from the tired refrain

not this time

around it seems

but tomorrow

I might catch that train

but I don't know

how the next story goes

and maybe that's

the real tale

the devil you know

and the details

where he dwells

where it always

goes off the rail

what

2.4736 : 4/21/18 : Gala

The songs spun

and the dancing was done

won't fix the world

But in a little patch we won

I'll take my uplift

Where I find it

The gala earned its name

and tonight

the rest I don't mind it

what

2.4735 : 4/20/18 : Just

I just I just

what do I want

all the things

I'll never see

the list it grows

and most of all

all that

I'll never be

what else to say

we're all the same

soon no

more new

soon no

name

what

2.4734 : 4/19/18 : Clock Boss Fight

The clock's the boss

I always lose the fight

find myself

with every fading night

drag it a little

crossing lines

the clock boss

rich with trips and mines

I could still

beat it tonight

a temporary switch up

in the clock boss fight

and all it takes

is just to let got

tomorrow is tomorrow

and time will show

what

2.4733 : 4/18/18 : Patience

Find a way to a

new way to measure

patience in burden

a lesson a treasure

try to believe that

here toiling under

is striking the path

not the lash for some blunder

I'm not very good

at waiting in strength

self possession

Somehow at some length

Maybe my coin will turn

patience will flower

and settle with this stone

and unlock its power

what

2.4732 : 4/17/18 : Nails

The random

stupidity

has got me

spitting nails

and in its glare

for once

my persistence

fails

what

2.4731 : 4/16/18 : Picture Inside

However to resolve

the picture inside

how I need a model

change this ride

or is it the inside

that needs the changing

acceptance realism

no more estranging

the as it is

and how it comes

but the picture inside

will not admit these sums

what

2.4730 : 4/15/18 : In the Wind

Now revision

now decision

now come the moment

God turns on the vision

said it a thousand ways

for each finger on

finding it as still not time

Soon started on

the other hand

but tonight I say

I've done enough

and I'll proclaim change

in the wind

until the wind

calls my bluff

what

2.4729 : 4/14/18 : Old Trismegistus

Always winter

never Christmas

is this dark spring going to be

the end of old Trismegistus

I'm heavy on fed up

and weak on lore

and my foresight's all fouled

no idea what's in store

the view from the radar

is totally whack

and the digging out

is like to give me a heart attack

what

2.4728 : 4/13/18 : Sudden Darkess

Due to sudden darkness

and this winter that won't break

this lonely couplet

is just what you'll have to take

what

2.4727 : 4/12/18 : Call and Call

The place of rest

the living stream

this dark world's light

it's not a meme

feel far away

from that I've called

the truth for me

myself forestalled

I put on hold

not yet not yet

A little more

dark I bet

and every night

I need it more

and call and call

thou wouldst restore

what

2.4726 : 4/11/18 : Scrambling

Hard to look graceful

tubby

and scrambling

if I had the

fuck you money

I would can it

be ambling

stomp brakes

on the fantasy

real time only

in line for

a new gig

at least I'm not

lonely

what

2.4725 : 4/10/18 : Metatron

I suppose I must put forth

suppose I must tie one on

for I am under geas and edict

of the Great Archangel Metatron

Don't you think for even a minute

I think I'm some mouthpiece of God

I am plodding glib and gormless

I'm a bumbler and a clod

God enjoys his shoddy instruments

us noisy gongs us clanging bells

And I just do as I must do

under Metatron's entrancing spells

hey relax it's all symbolic

I just think symbols are real

And it keeps me somewhat honest

and the output free of mass appeal

what

2.4724 : 4/9/18 : Spiel

Reeled out my spiel

and likely come to naught

But I did what I felt

and I felt like I ought

now tuck into the toil

get lost in the churn

another day the beacon

another day the burn

another night the midnight

another day the dawn

and the gulf between the cup and lip

makes me feel so tired I yawn

what

2.4723 : 4/8/18 : Drill Down

So I'll say my little piece

but better get ready

to drill down

I think I've earned

some release

swallowing many a

bitter pill down

but I need to believe

there is some path of ascent

and whatever's in the way

best get prepared

to get well bent

what

2.4722 : 4/7/18 : Minute

Thought I got ahead

for a minute

but that minute

has been and gone

so many like it

go past me

right now all

seeming very long

And just right now

just can't examine

the cycles and the cycles

feast or famine

what

2.4721 : 4/6/18 : A Dollar

Dropped a dollar

on bad old ways

Sorry just seems

I'm having some

of those days

where can I turn

to let my

imagination fly

or am I still

imagining

I'm not that guy

hard to feel bad

oh some have it so much

harder

lie down and get up

try again

to work smarter

and honor that

butterfly kid

reminds me

I better look hard

at what I did

what

2.4720 : 4/5/18 : Chronic

Every year it

seems more

things turn chronic

I sigh and pine

for the

anodyne: tonic:

every year

what works

gets more complicated

and the march

of so-called progress

is severely

overrated

what

2.4719 : 4/4/18 : Kick

Stretched in five

directions

hell with it

worn out

the little card

to subscribe

got torn out

probably still

wouldn't have made it

if I'd begged

and cajoled

scrape together

some dignity

and get this

kick resoled

what

2.4718 : 4/3/18 : Whole Wide World

This whole wide world

can kiss my ass

to hell with what may

come to pass

been rotten since

we took the scene

to hell with this

just venting spleen

what

2.4717 : 4/2/18 : The Jones

Can't tell if

it's the condition

or the jones

the new treatment

regime

or something

in the bones

really just hoping

it's clearing up

I really could do

with some cheering up

what

2.4716 : 4/1/18 : Skin

Ought to be

upbeat

but down

this street

again

and another

shot

taken on

the chin

oh is my

skin so thin

what