In the depths again
searching for the bright line
that I thought I saw
three or maybe five times
And oh my God
it seems a long time
not even a memory
more like a dream
of something that I
thought could be
I tell myself I
make it turn to this
maybe a feeling
that I can't resist
but it's this dark line
that I can't resist
try again to
make a moment mine
close my eyes
reach out for the bright line
what
Don't need fortune fame respect or speed.
All writings © Jonathan Mark Hamlow 1998-2025
Friday, July 20, 2018
Thursday, July 19, 2018
2.2268 : 07/19/11 : Nowheretown
I'd like to stop thinking
about Nowheretown
where everyone's a smarty
where everybody's down
no war or weapons
who needs that bad noise
and everyone participates
and nobody destroys
we will watch the deserts
spread and watch the oceans rise
we will watch and no spark
will illuminate our empty eyes
we'll say it's not happening
until we must say it's too late
and I'll just keep daydreaming
about my perfect state
what
about Nowheretown
where everyone's a smarty
where everybody's down
no war or weapons
who needs that bad noise
and everyone participates
and nobody destroys
we will watch the deserts
spread and watch the oceans rise
we will watch and no spark
will illuminate our empty eyes
we'll say it's not happening
until we must say it's too late
and I'll just keep daydreaming
about my perfect state
what
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
2.2267 : 07/18/11 : Presence of Mind
Can your machines detect
the presence of mind?
I really feel like I am
falling behind
did I think too much
or far too little
should I have dwelt on
some great unsolved riddle
No great discovery
is in my cards
I sift through all my
half formed bolts and shards
looking for my mind's presence
in thought word and deed
but today I didn't find
what I guess I need
what
the presence of mind?
I really feel like I am
falling behind
did I think too much
or far too little
should I have dwelt on
some great unsolved riddle
No great discovery
is in my cards
I sift through all my
half formed bolts and shards
looking for my mind's presence
in thought word and deed
but today I didn't find
what I guess I need
what
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
2.2266 : 07/17/11 : Icosahedron
I'm in an
Icosahedron of doors
in zero gravity
So many choices
don't you feel
Glad for me
It's just one thing
I've been through
every one before
I don't give a damn
I want a new door
new new door
what
Icosahedron of doors
in zero gravity
So many choices
don't you feel
Glad for me
It's just one thing
I've been through
every one before
I don't give a damn
I want a new door
new new door
what
Monday, July 16, 2018
2.2265 : 07/16/11 : Problems
Forced to face with
bigger problems than mine
forced perspective
I politely decline
but You don't care
I must see what I see
It's depressing what you show to me
We all have problems
some big and some small
the time is short always
the orders are tall
I should learn from it
if I don't shame on me
just don't make me an example
please oh great referee
what
bigger problems than mine
forced perspective
I politely decline
but You don't care
I must see what I see
It's depressing what you show to me
We all have problems
some big and some small
the time is short always
the orders are tall
I should learn from it
if I don't shame on me
just don't make me an example
please oh great referee
what
Sunday, July 15, 2018
2.2264 : 07/15/11 : Fabulous
Oh to be vicious shallow and mean
so fabulous an acquisition machine
against my nature just so nice and clean
except for the mean streak, except for the spleen
oh to be a winner, a crusher of souls
I know where I always land in these roles
You take the gold I'll take the holes
I only want a little bit of control
Don't even have the wit to carry this through
and every little fantasy I accrue
stay on the back of the train and enjoy the view
And you all just go stay fabulous you
what
so fabulous an acquisition machine
against my nature just so nice and clean
except for the mean streak, except for the spleen
oh to be a winner, a crusher of souls
I know where I always land in these roles
You take the gold I'll take the holes
I only want a little bit of control
Don't even have the wit to carry this through
and every little fantasy I accrue
stay on the back of the train and enjoy the view
And you all just go stay fabulous you
what
Saturday, July 14, 2018
2.2263 : 07/14/11 : Stack
In reference to the stack
that I told Matt about
Yeah 21 years back
bother I give a shout
what it's made of
rhymes with quit
and it behooves me
not to stomp on it
but just walk away
however I made the stack
and I can claim I won't add another pile
it has a way of calling me back
I posted notes
concocted verses
dreams got driven away
in many hearses
Yet I have to
put on my act
knowing a future I do not control
today only can make it fact
what
that I told Matt about
Yeah 21 years back
bother I give a shout
what it's made of
rhymes with quit
and it behooves me
not to stomp on it
but just walk away
however I made the stack
and I can claim I won't add another pile
it has a way of calling me back
I posted notes
concocted verses
dreams got driven away
in many hearses
Yet I have to
put on my act
knowing a future I do not control
today only can make it fact
what
Friday, July 13, 2018
2.2262 : 07/13/11 : Good To Me
Everything looks
good to me some days
and true enough no
matter what the paper says
there's still long lovely
easy days all around
dowsing for the beat
ears pricked for the big sound
the periscope horoscope
said to pick a thing and do it hard
it sounded true as ever
but still I hate that card
can't I have two
or three or five
can I even keep the one
I got alive
what
good to me some days
and true enough no
matter what the paper says
there's still long lovely
easy days all around
dowsing for the beat
ears pricked for the big sound
the periscope horoscope
said to pick a thing and do it hard
it sounded true as ever
but still I hate that card
can't I have two
or three or five
can I even keep the one
I got alive
what
Thursday, July 12, 2018
2.2261 : 07/12/11 : Ground
Ground we've covered
well it's been a long time now
still the maps the territories
Still struggling with the vow
Still feeling I am running out
still finding day by day
enough to prop the pyramid up
despite the ground I gave away
what
well it's been a long time now
still the maps the territories
Still struggling with the vow
Still feeling I am running out
still finding day by day
enough to prop the pyramid up
despite the ground I gave away
what
Wednesday, July 11, 2018
2.2260 : 07/11/11 : No Limit
No limit universes uncounted
But what can we see and
what it amounted to
Is it a choice to be so small
why do we feel we had no choice at all
there is nor mark because its sum is perfect
or so I said but even
I could see the defect
the same old same old
and the never starting
the worries and cares
and how they crowd every parting
what
But what can we see and
what it amounted to
Is it a choice to be so small
why do we feel we had no choice at all
there is nor mark because its sum is perfect
or so I said but even
I could see the defect
the same old same old
and the never starting
the worries and cares
and how they crowd every parting
what
Tuesday, July 10, 2018
2.2259 : 07/10/11 : Fight
Looks like I've got a fight on my hands
feeling more familiar every punch that lands
and it doesn't matter if I win
because a hundred times I already been
and done and been and done
like always nothing matters but this one
thank goodness you don't have to fight tomorrow
today's got troubles to lend and borrow
too bad you can only win for now
too bad nobody can tell you how
I think I better end this fight
put my foot down, bang the light
and put it down with the so it goes
and will it stick baby no one know
what
feeling more familiar every punch that lands
and it doesn't matter if I win
because a hundred times I already been
and done and been and done
like always nothing matters but this one
thank goodness you don't have to fight tomorrow
today's got troubles to lend and borrow
too bad you can only win for now
too bad nobody can tell you how
I think I better end this fight
put my foot down, bang the light
and put it down with the so it goes
and will it stick baby no one know
what
Monday, July 09, 2018
2.2258 : 07/09/11 : Break
How ling will it take to break
this cycle?
How long does it really go back?
Is there any end any
going round the bend
what is my method of attack
Yesterday I got one thing right
I didn't even stay up all night
but the morning's performance did not impress
Will it turn into a month or year?
oh God when will the teacher appear?
when will all of it stop feeling like duress?
I've got to put an end to this at least
legend or no of famine or feast
this wretched litany of wavering intent
there's got to got to be a better way
I yell and cajole and beg and pray
until I'm up to own it I guess I better rent
what
this cycle?
How long does it really go back?
Is there any end any
going round the bend
what is my method of attack
Yesterday I got one thing right
I didn't even stay up all night
but the morning's performance did not impress
Will it turn into a month or year?
oh God when will the teacher appear?
when will all of it stop feeling like duress?
I've got to put an end to this at least
legend or no of famine or feast
this wretched litany of wavering intent
there's got to got to be a better way
I yell and cajole and beg and pray
until I'm up to own it I guess I better rent
what
Sunday, July 08, 2018
2.2257 : 07/08/11 : Clocks
I'm cleaning clocks so much
they call me a horologist
if you don't understand
just piss me off you'll get the gist
when every one is clean
I'll count them one by one
hoping to read the face
that tells me that I'm done
they're all right twice a day
but not one reads the same
not one can tell me my time
none can tell my name
collecting clocks trying
to hold the tempus back
Someday they'll line every wall
of my little shack
what
they call me a horologist
if you don't understand
just piss me off you'll get the gist
when every one is clean
I'll count them one by one
hoping to read the face
that tells me that I'm done
they're all right twice a day
but not one reads the same
not one can tell me my time
none can tell my name
collecting clocks trying
to hold the tempus back
Someday they'll line every wall
of my little shack
what
Saturday, July 07, 2018
2.2256 : 07/07/11 : Small
Some time a while ago
the box got very small
I thought it was before
that's how we mostly fall
and what I contemplate
is mostly decorations
protests to mailbox drops
and empty declarations
resist resist
a dumb numb day closes
it just must not be time
or so a man supposes
please stop, desist
well maybe this time round
all the stars will align
I'll run that beast to ground
what
the box got very small
I thought it was before
that's how we mostly fall
and what I contemplate
is mostly decorations
protests to mailbox drops
and empty declarations
resist resist
a dumb numb day closes
it just must not be time
or so a man supposes
please stop, desist
well maybe this time round
all the stars will align
I'll run that beast to ground
what
Friday, July 06, 2018
2.2255 : 07/06/11 : A Few Words
I guess I'm supposed to
say a few words
well I'm wishing I was weaker
because this is for the birds
honestly don't know
if I am coming or going
honestly can't tell
if I'm remembering or knowing
oh I know (or I remember)
I can have it my way
Whatever that means and
Whatever I say
but no matter how I slice it
It's a long way back
and at this point
I've not even found the track
what
say a few words
well I'm wishing I was weaker
because this is for the birds
honestly don't know
if I am coming or going
honestly can't tell
if I'm remembering or knowing
oh I know (or I remember)
I can have it my way
Whatever that means and
Whatever I say
but no matter how I slice it
It's a long way back
and at this point
I've not even found the track
what
Thursday, July 05, 2018
2.2254 : 07/05/11 : Backward
Felt like time going backward
and whom could blame me
how could so much happen
and wind up the same me
on the spur of the moment
I concocted a plan
to ignore it all
and wake up a brand new man
what
and whom could blame me
how could so much happen
and wind up the same me
on the spur of the moment
I concocted a plan
to ignore it all
and wake up a brand new man
what
Wednesday, July 04, 2018
2.2253 : 07/04/11 : No Referent
Half past the eleventh hour
yeah it comes around
Pretend you got your oldest
fears all run firmly to ground
nothing might ever change
from now on in this day
But as long as the beat goes on
and I've got a song I'll play
nothing stops the ticking
What was written now is past
and when I try to take things back
I end up all aghast
that time has got no referent
who manages the market?
well if that sounds a battle cry
You maybe wanna hark it
what
yeah it comes around
Pretend you got your oldest
fears all run firmly to ground
nothing might ever change
from now on in this day
But as long as the beat goes on
and I've got a song I'll play
nothing stops the ticking
What was written now is past
and when I try to take things back
I end up all aghast
that time has got no referent
who manages the market?
well if that sounds a battle cry
You maybe wanna hark it
what
Tuesday, July 03, 2018
2.2251 : 07/03/11 : Dreamside
What am I supposed to make of this
the filmography of a guy who does not exist
a portal to a room that could not be
and the way it's far too small for me
the pages of the comic that is unwritten
and that's a damn shame I was smitten
and the camera that exists, but I'd never sell
nothing about it adds up so well
we've got an explanation it's all random noise
brain gunk playing with memetic toys
not very exciting not very fun
not making me feel like a special one
but then again I had another with eyes wide
and now it twists disappointingly inside
but these crazy dreamside fragments
are all I ever had
what
the filmography of a guy who does not exist
a portal to a room that could not be
and the way it's far too small for me
the pages of the comic that is unwritten
and that's a damn shame I was smitten
and the camera that exists, but I'd never sell
nothing about it adds up so well
we've got an explanation it's all random noise
brain gunk playing with memetic toys
not very exciting not very fun
not making me feel like a special one
but then again I had another with eyes wide
and now it twists disappointingly inside
but these crazy dreamside fragments
are all I ever had
what
Monday, July 02, 2018
2.2251 : 07/02/11 : Hey
Here I go again
hey it's you again
did I say that again
put your money down down
hey that's a cheap line
well hey I know that friend
what
hey it's you again
did I say that again
put your money down down
hey that's a cheap line
well hey I know that friend
what
Sunday, July 01, 2018
2.2250 : 07/01/11 : Super
Lightning flying from my hands
and a suitcase full of cash
and a wicked aeroplane
pretty sure I'll be a smash
not a little hint of doubt
not a tremor of remorse
for the good of all mankind
sure you ladies too of course
I can fly and lift the heaviest shit
I can see through walls and around corners
I'm beating terrorists and robots up
stopping wicked scientists and scheming foreigners
oh I'm so super, got no problems
and everything I do is so exciting
yes, I'm effective also very handsome
you'll find you can't help but cheer for all my smiting
what
and a suitcase full of cash
and a wicked aeroplane
pretty sure I'll be a smash
not a little hint of doubt
not a tremor of remorse
for the good of all mankind
sure you ladies too of course
I can fly and lift the heaviest shit
I can see through walls and around corners
I'm beating terrorists and robots up
stopping wicked scientists and scheming foreigners
oh I'm so super, got no problems
and everything I do is so exciting
yes, I'm effective also very handsome
you'll find you can't help but cheer for all my smiting
what
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