2.2311 : 08/31/11 : Fetched

Tired depressed
unnerved repressed
and doesn't this moment
just make it more wretched
spill out on the page
not even protest not rage
just the same old gnawed bone the dog fetched
too many already
must sleep in this beddy
already tomorrow
is burdened with screw-ups
sounds far-fetched even crazy
though to say so's just lazy
must just have a case of the blew-ups

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2.2310 : 08/30/11 : The Sense

What's the sense of
pouring anything
into such a bitter cup
any lightness
is long on the wing
I'm only interested
in giving up
there's no such thing
as will power
only decision and the slog
close your eyes and
dream of your flower
I'll get on with this bog

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2.2309 : 08/29/11 : Face

Stuff I do not want to face
left stuck thinking
what a waste
oh it's stinking
I've got no case
is it the start of
a whole thing over
rather not face
trying to finish a thought
so close this case

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2.2308 : 08/28/11 : Read it All

I read it all
didn't make me any smarter
still didn't have a plan
except to tell myself
Try Harder
no answers in a book
or the great Online Scroll
and right now I just
want to give up control
read it all
you lazy damn bums
read all the endless nights
all the Kingdom comes
I wrote it down so
it is only polite
you wouldn't want to come off
as a parasite

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2.2307 : 08/27/11 : Sammich

Maybe the solution is a sammich
maybe that woman
is a damn witch
we won't tie it up tonight
but tomorrow's going to be all right
when the end comes I'll be ready
it will be cool I will be steady
but a day will pass unspoken
and the spell will be unbroken

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2.2306 : 08/26/11 : Deviant

Hey deviant I know it's not good will
that's got you grinding at this dull stone still
I see right through your little plot
you said you want to be a nice guy but you're not
Oh deviant do you really still think
you're going to roll out one big score and
pull it all back from the brink
step back and see you're standing in the lemming line
You'll step aside I'm sure if you can locate your spine
try not to dwell on how it's so familiar
or maybe think on it real hard 'cause it won't kill ya

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2.2305 : 08/25/11 : A Worm

A worm is threaded
through my guts
and I should probably
just go nuts
but I am going to
just lie right down
and pretend the worm is turning
with a smile not a frown

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2.2304 : 08/24/11 : Grace

Oh what on earth could save
a wretch like me
oh Grace what does it mean
what does it mean
between blame and doom
is there a place called free?
I don't trust in faith
to get me out clean
if I believed if I
gave it all my heart
Didn't hold back even
half a beat
could I get by in this world
making art
that one will drop them
laughing in the street
And everything for wrong reasons
and Grace what is your season
anything to feel amazing
tend this fire inside me still blazing

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2.2303 : 08/23/11 : Tuesday

Hark! the Tuesday of our discontent
I said, she said I'm going to state my case
to Parliament
Are you referring to
The Parliament of Owls brigade?
I said: she didn't say a wod
but her face dropped a shade
My Kingdom Kingdom
for a pile of gold!
I said, she said
before they made you boy
they broke the mold
I said well gosh I guess that would
explain this crooked streak
she said we'll have to do this again
in a week

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2.2302 : 08/22/11 : No Revelation

Day 7 thousand six something
no revelation
one friend had said I
was at the wrong station
remember too much
and it all seems so recent
and it all seemed so simple
And it hardly seems decent
to throw down such vague
and artless prose
I suppose it can't be helped
but I must do more than suppose
Or so I tell myself
but no revelation flashes
hell with it, I'll build my own
while the old dominion crashes

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2.2301 : 08/21/11 : Half Right

Try to figure how to
get this day half right
I should say it's early
but I haven't got
all night
by the time
the music swells
I better see the credits roll
and if I get done
half of what I wanted
I'll say it's under control

what

2.2300 : 08/20/11 : End Up

End up here
sunstroked and
strung out
every bold hurrah
that got tapped out
and hung out
phoning it in
just to extend
the streak
listen up and
if you like it -
take a peek

what

2.2299 : 08/19/11 : The Start of Something

This could be the start of something
really small and really dumb
this could be the part where I
decide there's plenty more where that came from
I see it all inside
it makes me want to run and hide
I won't reveal specifics
I like my small dumb things obscure
It's like my nature baby
always reaching never sure
that my hand will close on rope
and if it fails won't I look the dope
don't succumb to paranoia
hypochondria
I will get by on ancient texts
of wandering love
the thing started pretty long ago
and it's not so small or stupid but oh so slow

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2.2298 : 08/18/11 : Regret

I'll probably regret
laying a bet
on future strength
or the assumption length
won't matter much
accept the touch
of failing willfully intent
the column's bent
and I can't get my mind off of duration
so I must leave it at this station

what

2.2297 : 08/17/11 : Circle

How long in this circle
why why why
will it be like this
until the day I die
I've got to find that sticking point
I've got to find and idol to annoint
I've got to find a prayer wheel to spin like hell
can't find a labyrinth that's just as well
I've got to find the out
that starts here and now
each day it feels less likely
I'll slip out without a row

what

2.2296 : 08/16/11 : Milk

The milk of
something something
just ran dry tonight
and that's all right
it isn't perfect but
we're all still here
so I say not to fear
maybe tomorrow I
will milk that idol
fit it with a bridle
and ride it right
into the dream

what

2.2295 : 08/15/11 : Bees

The concept of durable meaning
speaking to the cosmos and huggin' trees
the vexing of riddles and puzzles
that haunt us with
Oh my God the Bees!
Pilgrim, pilgrim run like hell!
Oh my God, oh my God, Bees!

Is there a God if indifference
Ignoring you personally
oh such a tease
He's your personal savoir faire
In other words figure it out
Oh my God the Bees!
Pilgrim, pilgrim run like hell!
Oh my God, oh my God, Bees!
I wanted to tell you
it was so deep and awesome
but my mouth sadly is full of bees

what

2.2294 : 08/14/11 : Memory Train

Where is the memory train
getting me tonight?
a feeling like no progress
all but starting over
where is the money train
to make it all all right?
it's all cheddar baby
it's all plums and clover
I lost my train of thought
or did I really have one?
maybe it's all just twitch
a current through a pithed limb
get on board or
whatever you think will be fun
better than remembering
and memory's hollow hymn

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2.2293 : 08/13/11 : The History of Universe B

Nine planets
how many moons?
sentient species
how many tunes?
one began before we drew or spoke
thus commenced one
long ass shaggy dog joke
somewhere around about thirty three
their influence was plain to see
and in a hundred seveny
derailed a pretty singularity
back to scratch
centuries one to five
one was still left
from old days alive
So far away
and long forgot
came upon a One
what a shock it brought
meanwhile we're dragging it
from the fire again
somewhere in there
some tales begin

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2.2292 : 08/12/11 : The Plan

Not quite according to the plan
not quite doing everything I can
and the last straw grasped
by the skin of my teeth
and a thousand miles beneath
can't circle that
drain forever
can pin it on
always or never
surely I'm repeating myself
at this point
surely I have mentioned how
the time is out of joint
well it's the nature of the plan
do you want to know how I stand?
well yes I can

what

2.2291 : 08/11/11 : This Worm

This worm
might not be enough
to just come to terms
not everything is a
mental state
though if it were
wouldn't it be great
but it's not so easy
to change your mind
even if you're not
the dwelling kind
So I guess I just hope
the worm turns
and lets me walk away
with what I earn

what

2.2290 : 08/10/11 : Little

A little here a little there
I've done a little everywhere
I hate to belabor
the work so small
but I've got nothing else at all
Do one thing right, screw up another
always telling tales
well they seem tall tonight brother
tired and can't see
a single thing that's new
it's all the same to me
and so little is true

what

2.2289 : 08/09/11 : Mad Engineers

The mad engineers
got us over a barrel
what with the death ray and satellite
I fear we will not fare well
what with the internal combustion
and the dwindling gas supply
if I ever wake up in their lair
I swear I'm going to ask them why
My God did we really
want all those nukes
A freeway system? Really?
they'll feed me to the crocodiles
for my rebukes
they're anything
but touchy feely
but I'll demand an answer
for everyone, a plan
to walk away from the crazy
of the world the mad engineers ran

what

2.2288 : 08/08/11 : Don't Mention the Class War

Don't mention the class war
that's not what we're here for
Let's all be nice can't we
as long as nobody's free
sure the figures are undeniable
sure the system's anything but viable
but don't call it a comeback
or half a century's successful attack
don't talk about the bottom twenty
the dribbles left of a former plenty
it's tough but they shoulda planned
just listen to old Ayn Rand
the masters are just who deserve it
You want some more boy I can serve it
Oh yes I can be such a bore
and will not once mention the class war

what

2.2287 : 08/07/11 : Perpetual Engine

It was good to swear an oath
to not giving up or quitting
to getting off the pot
or, failing that, shitting
but that rubicon's crossed
and it's time for the next
so may I offer the perpetual engine's context
this is a plutocratic oligarchy
no sane person can deny
so if you're seeing real change
in your mind's secret eye
you better know all we've tried
has come to far too little
You better know soon
there'll be no room left in the middle
the engine that won't stop is
imagination and heart
A silly kid's cliché I know
but it's the place I have to start
the means are devious
and prone to warp the soul
so it has to start on solid ground
to navigate that monstrous hole

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2.2286 : 08/06/11 : The Ecstasy of Gold

They will remember us
as some dim tailing off
of something long and slow and stupid
they won't think ill of us
they won't look back and cuss
so dim and dull and deadly sweet as cupid
the ecstasy of gold
already taking hold
the mindless clinging to the weight that's sinking
is just a symbol too
no real thing it's true
so you best sniff that no name mix you're drinking

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2.2285 : 08/05/11 : With the Help of Worm

With the help of worm
I returned to the fray
and knowing our term
expired in just one day
I endeavored to elucidate
the error of my estate
and if you think I changed the rules
shame on you twice and more the fools
try hard to believe one moment's choice
don't mean a thing
try to act as if my voice
in every hallowed hall shall ring
everyone is fighting out there
drunk and mad as hell
without a nice worm to compare
So really how are they to tell?

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2.2284 : 08/04/11 : Not a Dream

If there's not a dream
if there's not a story
I'm so done with all that
I'm not even sorry
got no movie script
got not concept record
I want off this case
bad like Rick Deckard
is there really any
way left to go on
don't feel enlighted
and I'm sick of this koan
It's not getting better
and it's sure not a dream
and though it flows yet
you bet I'm getting sick of this stream

what

2.2283 : 08/03/11 : At Last

Success at last
just makes me feel an ass
because success doesn't last
and soon the present's the past
and I failed more than I succeeded
while the bottom line freshly bleeded
it doesn't take a dozen minutes
to blow it to hell
and at this point who would tell?
how can I make the act
feel real and present
if I can't be smart
can I at least be pleasant?
I guess I'm not cut out to be an
iconoclast
I guess I'm going to have to
just accept, at last

what

2.2282 : 08/02/11 : Reference State

Suffer in the reference state
hope it's not an equilibrium
hope there's movement left that's right
all along the great continuum
I could say a lot about
how the switch gets turned again
now I hope and hope to reach
instead of the other, instead for the pen
give me just a good week Lord
give me five then ten
and I swear I'll take it from there
and visit not the reference state again

what

2.2281 : 08/01/11 : Drift

Give up responsibility
slide into the drift
I'll pretend I'm cool with it
pretend it is a gift
care about the mystery
that never gets revealed
pray that in a day or two
the drift will be repealed

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