2.2371 : 10/30/11 : Treasure

Boxes of gold rings and gems
rounds and ingots pouches of dust
jade cups with platinum stems
worrying about moths and rust
act like I know what really counts
oh I do but I want treasure
of the glittery sort in vast amounts
stored up piled up without measure
forgive me for a dragon's heart
for not appreciating
for letting it all in my art
of poisoning my creating

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2.2370 : 10/29/11 : Clever or Nice

Clever clever clever or
nice nice nice
momma told you once
she won't tell you twice
it doesn't always work out
sweet as pie
And not momma no nor
nobody else can tell you why
I tried being clever
I tried to be nice
why not both at once
it sounds like paradise
because momma said it
doesn't make it so
and if I manage to prove it
I'll let you know

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2.2369 : 10/28/11 : Have a Sexy Racist Halloween You Stupid Motherfucking Crackers

Have a sexy, racist Halloween
you stupid motherfucking crackers
That's a nice Pancho Villa you've tarted up
with your tits painted like maracas
Whatever happened to spacemen, and hobos
You with your suicide bomber lingerie
Along with the hijab and veil
in case you weren't subtle enough with the cliché
So have a sexy, racist Halloween
you stupid motherfucking crackers
When I see you in your feathers with your wampum sign
I'd like to treat you with a brick in you smackers
That's a real nice coolie hat with your kimono
slant your eyes up and say velly koor
you're mixing Chinese up with Japanese
like you give half a shit I'm sure
With your ghetto braids
your tiki witch doctor
Even your moms said you were
So damn dumb you shocked her
But you made it all so sexy
even in blackface and blacker
So have a sexy, racist Halloween
you happy motherfucking crackers

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2.2368 : 10/27/11 : Tonight

I don't want to
So I won't
Don't want to say anything
more tonight, so I won't

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2.2367 : 10/26/11 : The Light

Oh this tunnel has gone on so long
become far more than metaphor
I forgot when I ran into it
I forgot what I was running for
am I seeing something up there
surely it's imagination
after dreaming of it so long
just a daydream of frustration
maybe I'll ignore it
just pretend there's nothing there
better than another disappointment
nothing up ahead but air
maybe no matter what I do
the light will come unbidden
no branches off this tunnel
nothing will remain hidden
nothing will remain the same
the light reveals a new source
the light reveals the opening
though I am still me of course

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2.2366 : 10/25/11 : Tick

What makes me tick
What makes me tick
How sick will I have to become
before I'm sick of being sick
what's motivating
why so frustrating
if it's all running on clockwork
then why the hell am I creating
why not nothing
you think I'm bluffing
no I will lie a hundred years here
while the rodents eat my stuffing
oh take your pick
spit bite or lick
see if you can get a taste
what makes me tick

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2.2365 : 10/24/11 : Shape

A shape half imagined
eludes my grasp
seems like a gold ring
seems like an asp
seems like a feather
seems like a knife
now you think it's funny
but this is my life
If I can't get the shape
will I always be stalled
is to find it to get lucky
or to get called
stop thinking about it
I wish that I could
if I could cut the shape out
you know that I would

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2.2364 : 10/23/11 : That Form

I see that shape that form
feel I'm almost apprehending
ever since I was a worm
tiny uncomprehending
I think to touch it once
will turn all wrong to right
I really think I'm such a dunce
prone to stay up at night
muttering chasing the form
that likely can't even exist
nothing there to keep me warm
and God think what I missed

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2.2363 : 10/22/11 : Long

I'm still an artist with
the long goodbye
I feel another coming
my oh my
so much to forget
so much stolen and lost
I get dizzy
when I count each cost
I'm not going to hang around
make a stir
it'll all turn on
just how it's
meant to, sure
another day will come
good byes said and gone
and the next stretch
oh is going to be so long

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2.2362 : 10/21/11 : Ladder

Shaky on the ladder
trying hard to climb
live up to the fantasy
of yesterday's rhyme
no doubt about it
boy can I be dumb
now I'm hanging on this ladder
by my teeth and one thumb

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2.2361 : 10/20/11 : Some October Night

Some October night
October there's been 39 others
give me peace, a moment
Call up all my spirit brothers
I don't have to live in the past
I don't have to fear the future
this moment is truly all I have
consciousness joined by a fragment suture
I can drop the beat
I can fantasize the novel
I will not admit defeat
I will not scrape and grovel
here is now and I'm okay
I made the best, the best
I'll ask simple questions
watch amazed as I pass the test

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2.2360 : 10/19/11 : A Little Better

A little better should be all I ask
a little extra to complete the task
Once upon a time I dreamed of a mask
two decades later I decant the flask
Seeing I have so much of what I dreamed
with that thought in me I just grinned and beamed
at how the precious kernel glowed and gleamed
a little better is just how it seemed
what's gone on up to now is not complete
I've had my bitter and I've had my sweet
little guessed at the fine souls I'd meet
no metaphor now let me be concrete
I'm blessed like crazy with my wife and son
So free and gorgeous watch you grow and run
I dare to say the fun has just begun
next day will be the little better one

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2.2359 : 10/18/11 : What With

What with the worm
and the constant failing
the simple plan I keep
complexly derailing
I'd like to take a break but you know
it's just not in the cards
guess that it's just
a tough season for bards

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2.2358 : 10/17/11 : Driving the Year Nail

Will I know
when a year has come to pass
I'm terrified
at what a year may find
has come to pass
but I can't let fear
derail me now
that cannot be the altar
to which I bow
Hey stranger
Where you at these days
still I hear your chords
and wonder who pays
listen for a minute more
ten years gone what was in store

try to feel an upbeat lift
try to feel this day's a gift
365 and the what hey?
try to call another brave new day
Felt I could not measure up
appreciate the non-empty cup
could not count you went so fast
and look at what went past
fast and brilliant
not my type
I cannot cannot
credit the hype
call it driving the year nail
another year
my skills will pale

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2.2357 : 10/16/11 : Real Change

Many calling for real change
easy said
seems impossible to do
not done with demonstrations
not done sudden
impromptu
can you change yourself
I still wrestle
with that every day
real change is slow coming
whether you
plan or pray
what would it
look like after
hell do we
even know
what kind of change we're courting
as for me
I'm smelling snow

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2.2356 : 10/15/11 : Against Entropy

What's I'm up to tonight
with my engine against entropy
trying to shut it off with
wads of text and pictures pretty
seems when you get enough
of us together in one space
me might as well be random
particles colliding out in space
the protesters will disperse
and nothing will change change change
We'll keep heating up the planet
keep pushing out our dirty range
against entropy
we can't even manage to be nice
what's I'm up to tonight
daydreaming about paradise

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2.2355 : 10/14/11 : The Last One of its Kind

I want to believe hard I just
saw the last one if its kind
but time is pitiless
and I have trouble with my mind
Heaven knows there's nothing
to say that hasn't been said before
I hoped if it was not enough convict
maybe at least it would start to bore
the beast asleep that rouses and shouts
for old comforts in the night
but did not stupefy
my sense of wrong and right
not at the midnight
no not at the third
the last one of its kind lives
on the strength of just my word

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2.2354 : 10/13/11 : Miserable

So miserable I forgot to sing
how did I remember anything
I was dwelling on the one
who's so better than me
I was dwelling on a real
old definition of three
I was dwelling on the man
who did a killing spree
Good lord
it makes a miserable shivaree
tempted to leave it there
but I've got to dig in
there's no more space
left to be a dimwit pig in
I can only be myself
one still learning to start there
until I get it right
lay my soul cupboard-bare
I'm getting stronger
so you wicked men beware
I might just have notion yet
and I am in the mood to share

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2.2353 : 10/12/11 : Positive Steps

Positive steps for mental health
practice silence practice stealth
practice reading lesser minds
peeling back their thoughts like rinds
pursuant to the plain advice
I'll mix it up by paying twice
we're so upright so in our shells
seeking positive steps out of
commonplace Hells
Get in a group and scan for cover
I might just come out like a new man, lover

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2.2352 : 10/11/11 : Veils

No matter how loud
the background chatter
I bull through bearing
his head upon the platter
storm up to you
well what now mocker?
Still that smile on her face
all I could take not to sock her
Now all the veils
are trodden in dust
and we're all back to waiting
to doing what we must
I'd ask was it worth it
did it make your day
to bring out his worst
by your dancing that way
Should I bother to say more
to try to get through
there'll always be ones
dancing heedless like you
not paying mind
to the glimpse through the veils
not paying heed
till your head's on the rails

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2.2351 : 10/10/11 : Thirteen Minus One

Sure I remember
thirteen, minus one
and then?
I lost count
time and other things
fly when you're having fun
oh hell,
you again?
I need a lesson
to be taught my stupid brain
I need to make it stick stick stick
but just for now
there's only ordinary pain
and ugly dancing
as I kick, kick, kick

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2.2350 : 10/09/11 : One One One

One, one, one
hope I give the ball
enough English
hope I remember it
as the start
not the finish
hope I remember
each and every day
that dawns, and happens
then passes, fades away
I'm still alive
hell what a note
hope I remember
words that stuck in my throat
as I pondered this thing
just now, just begun
launched into uncertainty
by
one, one, one

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2.2349 : 10/08/11 : Ultimate and Undisputed

There's no ultimate
and undisputed
sorry for the runaround
the point, well
the point was disputed
but I have to figure out
how that truth doesn't
raise a rout
I need a better handle on
whatever it has been
So long
distraction and
such lack of sleep
the waves of sad
depression deep
it isn't here
it isn't now
the ultimate, oh anyhow
the undisputed
same same old
the kingdom of inertia
foretold

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2.2348 : 10/07/11 : Ultimate(II)

What is it
with me and the ultimate
is everybody
hung up on the end
like that
not death
nor a tale
and era, maybe?
when I know so well
it all just goes
and goes and
goes on baby

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2.2347 : 10/06/11 : Gravity

Can't seem to escape
the gravity of late
the pull of hard distraction
lingering at the gate
can't seem to avoid
evade or dodge or duck
at least I'm staying on the pah
but I'm getting tired as fuck

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2.2346 : 10/05/11 : Undisputed

Undisputed
ill reputed
the tape's not muted
it's all right there
I listen intently
what it meant we
posited gently
but the disposition
our position
whatever it takes
the feeling makes
a small example
a representative sample
I will leave it there
a word beyond compare

Undisputed
ill reputed
the tape's not muted
it's all right there
I listen intently
what it meant we
posited gently
but the disposition
our position
whatever it takes
the feeling makes
a small example
a representative sample
I will leave it there
a word beyond compare

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2.2345 : 10/04/11 : Ultimate

Ultimate and undisputed
despite everything despite the
ill reputed
journey of discovery
a voyage I'm reminded
and the truth to which all
but a few were blinded
If we don't get better
it could get ugly quick
but how many
and how long they
been beating the drum
that particular stick
I know what I want
and I know what I ought
but as to the ultimate end
I haven't given it a thought

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2.2344 : 10/03/11 : Work

I prayed for work and
work came
I didn't like it much
but life is not
really a game
So I'll stretch stretch stretch
out my hand
and do my work
like I pretended I planned
what would it take
to get me to trust
it's not enough just
to say you must
It's not enough
don't think I'm a jerk
I just hoped a little
for a little higher kind of work

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2.2343 : 10/02/11 : Then

Then turn turn again
I don't know what it would mean to win
I'm no leader no visionary
all I can do not to stay stationary
give me freedom or give me teevee
all I really want is serendipity
all I really want is a hard slow burn
all I really want is for this worm to turn

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2.2342 : 10/01/11 : Scientific Happy

You bet I want some of
that scientific happy
that you talked about
in that book that you gave me
sure feel like I need something
and I'd like it to be snappy
and if it helps the bottom line
hey that's just gravy
try hard to believe in change
hard as it may be today
doing what I did fourteen years back
for two bucks and then two quarters more
I guess I should have guessed as well
that you would run right off and play
I guess I'll put that aside now
to object would be such a bore
maybe some scientific happy
will make it all a little smoother
work and home life
the daddy trip and such
for though I seem to be a
beggar and cannot be a chooser
as it's been lately
forgive me but it's felt a little much

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