For a minute my mind
was filled with beautiful things
I didn't hold onto it
and that plumb always swings
hold still hold still
bring to rest straight down
resist the urge to vent my extreme
humors on this town
what
Don't need fortune fame respect or speed.
All writings © Jonathan Mark Hamlow 1998-2023
Friday, January 31, 2020
Thursday, January 30, 2020
2.2829 : 01/30/13 : Nothing Nice
Nothing nice
to talk about
no nice trips
no going out
cold as hell
and no good plans
no spirit guides
no superfans
and sick as hell
of this same old
and no surprise
after the fold
what
to talk about
no nice trips
no going out
cold as hell
and no good plans
no spirit guides
no superfans
and sick as hell
of this same old
and no surprise
after the fold
what
Wednesday, January 29, 2020
2.2828 : 01/29/13 : From Within
From within
the radiant
peeling back
your wax shell
on a gradient
the metamorphosis
proceeds
how differs this from
transformation?
ends ways and heeds
the paradox that
simply everything
must be ordained
proceeding from within
reverent
and unrestrained
what
the radiant
peeling back
your wax shell
on a gradient
the metamorphosis
proceeds
how differs this from
transformation?
ends ways and heeds
the paradox that
simply everything
must be ordained
proceeding from within
reverent
and unrestrained
what
Tuesday, January 28, 2020
2.2827 : 01/28/13 : How Do We Begin Again
How do we
begin again
it's the best question
since original sin
the question of that story
is where did you go
the real twist
they all missed
is even God didn't know
the moment we hide
from the truth
is the beginning of the end
of sweet brief days
of paradise
and since that ship sailed 'round
that bend
we have to begin again
do it a hundred times a day
the trick to how is dull as dirt
and just might
steal your breath away
what
begin again
it's the best question
since original sin
the question of that story
is where did you go
the real twist
they all missed
is even God didn't know
the moment we hide
from the truth
is the beginning of the end
of sweet brief days
of paradise
and since that ship sailed 'round
that bend
we have to begin again
do it a hundred times a day
the trick to how is dull as dirt
and just might
steal your breath away
what
2.2826 : 01/27/13 : Sickness
the sickness
hit again
could not
get it in
I said that
it was done
will this time
be the one
I doubt it
but I have to
act the part
it makes me laugh, too
what
hit again
could not
get it in
I said that
it was done
will this time
be the one
I doubt it
but I have to
act the part
it makes me laugh, too
what
Sunday, January 26, 2020
2.2825 : 01/26/13 : Advantage
Take advantage of the moment
also it beats thinking
hey at least I'm not smoking
hey at least I'm not drinking
Hey I don't know what I'm doing
Or what fate might be imbuing
and I don't feel like
the advantage is mine
and you told me to live in it
well sure for you that sounds fine
But I have been taken advantage of
by my short sighted ways
but in absence of a better plan
I guess this odd duck stays
what
also it beats thinking
hey at least I'm not smoking
hey at least I'm not drinking
Hey I don't know what I'm doing
Or what fate might be imbuing
and I don't feel like
the advantage is mine
and you told me to live in it
well sure for you that sounds fine
But I have been taken advantage of
by my short sighted ways
but in absence of a better plan
I guess this odd duck stays
what
Saturday, January 25, 2020
2.2824 : 01/25/13 : Building
I've got a jones to get building
but get tangled in the run up
if this were a movie
or a video game (hah)
why I'd just get my gun up
and shoot my way
through the obstacles
Shoot my way through the choices
so much better than working things out
and hearing all the voices
you may say that's no way for building
you have to choose and take your pick
I'll say whoa look out behind you
then shoot right through your rhetoric
but I've got no gun and it's true
You must choose what's too be built
but you still need bricks and mortar
and they charge you to the hilt
and if you don't have the coin to pay
you won't build anything
but same old castles in the air
at my age that's worse than nothing
what
but get tangled in the run up
if this were a movie
or a video game (hah)
why I'd just get my gun up
and shoot my way
through the obstacles
Shoot my way through the choices
so much better than working things out
and hearing all the voices
you may say that's no way for building
you have to choose and take your pick
I'll say whoa look out behind you
then shoot right through your rhetoric
but I've got no gun and it's true
You must choose what's too be built
but you still need bricks and mortar
and they charge you to the hilt
and if you don't have the coin to pay
you won't build anything
but same old castles in the air
at my age that's worse than nothing
what
Friday, January 24, 2020
2.2823 : 01/24/13 : Breaker
Here take the breaker
of this string
of my neglecting
the resting
and the silence
but oh never the reflecting
disbelieving
in the journey
of the partisans and spies
sad about
my sad companion
in it myself
up to my eyes
what
of this string
of my neglecting
the resting
and the silence
but oh never the reflecting
disbelieving
in the journey
of the partisans and spies
sad about
my sad companion
in it myself
up to my eyes
what
Thursday, January 23, 2020
2.2822 : 01/23/13 : Heroes
Can I get a ride from someone
on my hero's journey
I can help out with gas
I you want to burn one I
can probably score a little
I don't really do it anymore
but I've really got to get
to what I've got in store
Old Jung said that I was stuck
still refusing to grow up
and the only cure is work
well what about instead to blow up
I'd be thrilled to bow my head
I'll take any work you give me
let the journey be within
destination be to live free
what
on my hero's journey
I can help out with gas
I you want to burn one I
can probably score a little
I don't really do it anymore
but I've really got to get
to what I've got in store
Old Jung said that I was stuck
still refusing to grow up
and the only cure is work
well what about instead to blow up
I'd be thrilled to bow my head
I'll take any work you give me
let the journey be within
destination be to live free
what
Wednesday, January 22, 2020
2.2821 : 01/22/13 : Waiting for Life
Waiting for his
life to begin
no ship coming
no escape for him
he is no writer
but he dreams all day
and what do
these strange pictures say
sure there's still
a lot to see
but he's got
responsibility
and he's not
waiting anymore
but he didn't
close the door
what
life to begin
no ship coming
no escape for him
he is no writer
but he dreams all day
and what do
these strange pictures say
sure there's still
a lot to see
but he's got
responsibility
and he's not
waiting anymore
but he didn't
close the door
what
Tuesday, January 21, 2020
2.2820 : 01/21/13 : Freeze
I wish I could
distill this freeze
I'd stop all murders
you don't have to say please
freeze the injustice
freeze all wars
freeze out fear
and bring everyone
indoors
what
distill this freeze
I'd stop all murders
you don't have to say please
freeze the injustice
freeze all wars
freeze out fear
and bring everyone
indoors
what
Monday, January 20, 2020
2.2819 : 01/20/13 : Don't Remember
The thing about forgetting
is you don't remember
I can't wait around this time
for next December
I can't wait a minute
Not one holiday
it has to be this moment
though there's no one
to hear what I say
what
is you don't remember
I can't wait around this time
for next December
I can't wait a minute
Not one holiday
it has to be this moment
though there's no one
to hear what I say
what
Sunday, January 19, 2020
2.2818 : 01/19/13 : Surrender
Between surrender
and war
here's what
the fighting was for:
invisible lines
and compulsions
enthrone irrational
revulsions
I'll pick up the dice
and take what comes
a surrender flag
or war drums
what
and war
here's what
the fighting was for:
invisible lines
and compulsions
enthrone irrational
revulsions
I'll pick up the dice
and take what comes
a surrender flag
or war drums
what
Saturday, January 18, 2020
2.2817 : 01/18/13 : Slop
I'll just sling some slop out
for the pig of my ambition
well and far beyond the point of
feeling I am on a mission
no it seems more a random walk
engaged in by a drunken crab
and bad enough the every day
the runaround, the daub and drab
paste on my imaginary
empire of almighty text
It shouldn't be a task for you
to see how it is I am vexed
and waiting for the next insult
and waiting for the axe to chop
and while I wait dear pig of mine
I'll sling another cup of slop
what
for the pig of my ambition
well and far beyond the point of
feeling I am on a mission
no it seems more a random walk
engaged in by a drunken crab
and bad enough the every day
the runaround, the daub and drab
paste on my imaginary
empire of almighty text
It shouldn't be a task for you
to see how it is I am vexed
and waiting for the next insult
and waiting for the axe to chop
and while I wait dear pig of mine
I'll sling another cup of slop
what
2.2816 : 01/17/13 : Crunch
Cannot get this
tension out
this muscle clench
this crunch
or shake this
bloody feeling
that I played
a rotten hunch
this sickness
it is anxious fear
anger, envy
torpid lust
don't ask me about
it's object right now
any prick
could pierce this crust
what
tension out
this muscle clench
this crunch
or shake this
bloody feeling
that I played
a rotten hunch
this sickness
it is anxious fear
anger, envy
torpid lust
don't ask me about
it's object right now
any prick
could pierce this crust
what
Thursday, January 16, 2020
2.2815 : 01/16/13 : Respite
To hell with it
I'll take my respite
won't state the resolve
or try to test it
every so often
you get a thing done
have a little rest boy
have a little fun
what
I'll take my respite
won't state the resolve
or try to test it
every so often
you get a thing done
have a little rest boy
have a little fun
what
Wednesday, January 15, 2020
2.2814 : 01/15/13 : Drone
When it comes around
years from now
jut slap on a drone
and take another bow
if this is the new sound
God strike me deaf
and pinion my wretched body
on the treble clef
what
years from now
jut slap on a drone
and take another bow
if this is the new sound
God strike me deaf
and pinion my wretched body
on the treble clef
what
Tuesday, January 14, 2020
2.2813 : 01/14/13 : Rot
The stress pouring in
from where it should not
do the right thing
what's that?
what rot!
by rot I mean bull
by bull I mean shit
sorry about the children
but someone better say it
I'm going to give up
truly pretty soon
I've got a thirty month
appointment
to howl at the moon
what
from where it should not
do the right thing
what's that?
what rot!
by rot I mean bull
by bull I mean shit
sorry about the children
but someone better say it
I'm going to give up
truly pretty soon
I've got a thirty month
appointment
to howl at the moon
what
Monday, January 13, 2020
2.2812 : 01/13/13 : Teenage Century
And you know it was ugly
almost right from the start
and sure I was dirty
sure I played my part
and we'll reap this wind a
long long time evidently
apparent to all but the most obtuse
here at the dawn of this
teenage century
it's getting surly
getting secretive and quiet
well it's never been happy
it's always been violent
if it's an awkward phase well
we may not recover
grim signs and omens
in the fog and filthy air, Lover
said these days weren't
meant for me
but I ended up regardless
in this teenage century
what
almost right from the start
and sure I was dirty
sure I played my part
and we'll reap this wind a
long long time evidently
apparent to all but the most obtuse
here at the dawn of this
teenage century
it's getting surly
getting secretive and quiet
well it's never been happy
it's always been violent
if it's an awkward phase well
we may not recover
grim signs and omens
in the fog and filthy air, Lover
said these days weren't
meant for me
but I ended up regardless
in this teenage century
what
Sunday, January 12, 2020
2.2811 : 01/12/13 : Leech
Did I strike distraction
the fatal blow
doubtful sure and if I did
how would I know
but if I did
then oh what then
what might I reach
will it make a real difference
will it stem
this dreadful leech
past the point of buying
things will have to change
let the devil ring his course
the future to estrange
what
the fatal blow
doubtful sure and if I did
how would I know
but if I did
then oh what then
what might I reach
will it make a real difference
will it stem
this dreadful leech
past the point of buying
things will have to change
let the devil ring his course
the future to estrange
what
Saturday, January 11, 2020
2.2810 : 01/11/13 : Wracking
Something wracking me
in my sleep lately
bowing my neck
paining me greatly
I say I need to relax
that's not the half of it
It's not funny anymore
and I can't laugh at it
because it's all quite real
because it's lately stacking
and I'm full up with it
and can't take much more wracking
what
in my sleep lately
bowing my neck
paining me greatly
I say I need to relax
that's not the half of it
It's not funny anymore
and I can't laugh at it
because it's all quite real
because it's lately stacking
and I'm full up with it
and can't take much more wracking
what
Friday, January 10, 2020
2.2809 : 01/10/13 : A Piece
Everybody wants a piece
of this
but nobody wants to pay
That feeling you've been saying
Yes
and meaning no all day
So always to the wall
these days
So brushing by the wire
Dear heaven why this
dreaming still
Please why this fire?
what
of this
but nobody wants to pay
That feeling you've been saying
Yes
and meaning no all day
So always to the wall
these days
So brushing by the wire
Dear heaven why this
dreaming still
Please why this fire?
what
Thursday, January 09, 2020
2.2808 : 01/09/13 : I Feel It
This time the fix took
I feel it
the stones and the sticks shook
I feel it
Words never hurt but if
It's real it
Might help if it can cut it
I feel it
It never stops being work
I feel it
When I come off like a jerk
I feel it
With the glass onion in hand
I'll peel it
End up with on grain of sand
I feel it
what
I feel it
the stones and the sticks shook
I feel it
Words never hurt but if
It's real it
Might help if it can cut it
I feel it
It never stops being work
I feel it
When I come off like a jerk
I feel it
With the glass onion in hand
I'll peel it
End up with on grain of sand
I feel it
what
Wednesday, January 08, 2020
2.2807 : 01/08/13 : Tale
here's the tale for the night
the hammer finally touched down
and everything was all right
I got at least that much down
who's got an excuse these days
for all the doomsday flacking
I'm turning over your displays
I'll show all what you're lacking
what
the hammer finally touched down
and everything was all right
I got at least that much down
who's got an excuse these days
for all the doomsday flacking
I'm turning over your displays
I'll show all what you're lacking
what
2.2806 : 01/07/13 : 2nd Protocol
Second protocol
this one gonna make it all
like I dreamed six years ago
ain't gonna take it
no more no
When I yank that stitch up
gonna yell for sure
but this trains got to hitch up
and my motive's pure
what
this one gonna make it all
like I dreamed six years ago
ain't gonna take it
no more no
When I yank that stitch up
gonna yell for sure
but this trains got to hitch up
and my motive's pure
what
2.2805 : 01/06/13 : By Hand
Sure it feels normal
this skill
made by hand
free, not a shill
fourteen billion hands to use
again again
the machine says recuse
cheap books, ugly pens
Yet I come back
again and again
thinking this last time
I'll crack the code
remake it by hand
and watch my dream
and watch my dream
explode
what
this skill
made by hand
free, not a shill
fourteen billion hands to use
again again
the machine says recuse
cheap books, ugly pens
Yet I come back
again and again
thinking this last time
I'll crack the code
remake it by hand
and watch my dream
and watch my dream
explode
what
Sunday, January 05, 2020
2.2804 : 01/05/13 : IT
What would it look like?
What would it feel like?
Would I know if it
gave me a hard bite
Would it please me
What would it be called
Where would I go to have it installed
so little faith left that it even exists
a dream a fantasy lost in the mists
what
What would it feel like?
Would I know if it
gave me a hard bite
Would it please me
What would it be called
Where would I go to have it installed
so little faith left that it even exists
a dream a fantasy lost in the mists
what
Saturday, January 04, 2020
2.2803 : 01/04/13 : Real World
Back in the real world
Everybody fought
everybody ran out of money
everybody still bought
there was fighting everywhere
killing in the streets
everyone could see
it was a string of grim defeats
And I ask you
why on earth shouldn't I just dream
make up stories of the better way
because the real world makes me want to scream
what
Everybody fought
everybody ran out of money
everybody still bought
there was fighting everywhere
killing in the streets
everyone could see
it was a string of grim defeats
And I ask you
why on earth shouldn't I just dream
make up stories of the better way
because the real world makes me want to scream
what
Friday, January 03, 2020
2.2802 : 01/03/13 : Utopian
Go Utopian
not gonna fall asleep again
old way better catch me if you can
For from now on
this gospel plow's on
think bigger
banish no
more than a thousand
ways to go
refuse the no
the antique ismics
naysayers invited to
behold my diznix
Go no
apologies
I brushed the dust
off my knees
the last time
there the other day
now you get down
taken look at my way
plow on plow on
hitch your sacred cow on
what it produces I can burn
and ready or not the world will turn
what
not gonna fall asleep again
old way better catch me if you can
For from now on
this gospel plow's on
think bigger
banish no
more than a thousand
ways to go
refuse the no
the antique ismics
naysayers invited to
behold my diznix
Go no
apologies
I brushed the dust
off my knees
the last time
there the other day
now you get down
taken look at my way
plow on plow on
hitch your sacred cow on
what it produces I can burn
and ready or not the world will turn
what
Thursday, January 02, 2020
2.2801 : 01/02/13 : No Resolutions
No resolutions
and look at this mess
It's not my fault I whine
I'm under duress
only one way
to redeem this failing
turn everything around
on a single inhaling
what
and look at this mess
It's not my fault I whine
I'm under duress
only one way
to redeem this failing
turn everything around
on a single inhaling
what
Wednesday, January 01, 2020
2.2800 : 01/01/13 : No Words
No words
for this thing
I must walk away from soon
far past the midnight
far past the moon
Speak of it never
let never be my word
and you please pretend
you never heard
what
for this thing
I must walk away from soon
far past the midnight
far past the moon
Speak of it never
let never be my word
and you please pretend
you never heard
what
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