2.3165 : 1/01/14 : The Thorn

The thorn sought to derail me

from day one

I said you'll have no piece

for I have just begun

and pain can't

tear through beauty's veil

doesn't make it easy

doesn't rosy up the pale

But it brings me back

to all there ever is

and you'll agree

a bit of clever biz

I push the thorn

all the way through

and through the hole

the light shines right to you

what

2.31634: 12/31/13 : Before the Party

Before the party

in the quiet of the night

vow to make something nice

to bathe in the light

tonight tonight tonight

I'll commit my soul

and swear to scorn every regret

and smile through every toll

I hearby pledge

my life to beauty

regardless of the price

necessity exacts

Oh prince of dark designs

I do hereby refute thee

and declare this book henceforth

to be my Book of Acts

what

2.3163 : 12/30/13 : Wrong

Feels like all you can trust is

your every impulse is wrong

the wrong time to get creative

the wrong time to sing a song

the wrong time to dig your heels in

and pick a fight

you're a true freak of nature

at never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits inside one hand

Why can't I just swallow it

always make nice

Why after giving up

every natural vice

do I still wind up blinking

in the single hours of night

awestruck at my capacity

of never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits in one hand

what

2.3162 : 12/29/13 : Sweep

A sweep is possible

I have to believe it all

what words cannot contain

What's shaken

and what does remain

For those who can't

be satisfied

the moral code

unratified

not unfinished

not uncorrected

unstarted, wholly

undirected

Who could then

wield the broom

these clumsy hands

could sweep in doom

and so wait cursed

by little hope

the mess remains

and we just cope

what

2.3161 : 12/28/13 : Possess the Heart

Does wealth possess

The heart of this world

it was the question

and the thought that whirled

And if I got some

being lucky or oh so smart

Would it possess would it possess

my heart?

I thought I thought

I thought of gold

forever bought

forever sold

possesses many hearts

Who have none at all

and that's it's cruelest trick;

our steepest fall

what

2.3160 : 12/27/13 : Impossible

There's no sense crying

over impossible dreams

but we do, but we do, but we do

It's terrible to think

nothing's ever what it seems

but it's true, but it's true, yes it's true

And I'm forever saying

everything will be all right

it's a lie, it's a lie, it's a lie

that gets spit back at me

through the teeth of the night

pass it by, pass it by, just a sigh

When we say nothing is impossible

all it means is we won't give up

no one ever did the impossible

the definition of the half full cup

I pine and fret for

my impossible dream

I'm a fool, I'm a fool, I'm a fool

If I could see right in front of me

I wouldn't try to step out of the stream

You're so cool, you're so cool, you're so cool

When we say nothing is impossible

what

2.3159 : 12/26/13 : And Joy

And joy could be

our dividend

our principle

of capital

the joyful might

conclude the old

thing had no true

value at all

perspective just

might be the cure

for craving power;

glittering heaps

pure moments of

the true pristine

might launch our ships

by bounds and leaps

and rather than

a sword king bent

on darkness to

destroy

the tale that launches

my ship may

just be a

parable of joy

what

2.3158 : 12/25/13 : Hark

What with

living in the city

I've gotten

oh so sophisticated

don't my voice

sound pretty

and my words

finely articulated

but in the night

I dream of a world gone dark

and awake I think

his world could use a little hark

Wake up

this thing is still a fight

and good is far

from winning

If you believe

in light

it's not the final inning

everywhere is a stand

and a choice stark

and the word I heard

was hark

what

2.3157 : 12/24/13 : Peace On Earth

So you figured out how to wage

a world war

What the locks

on the smallest things of all

were for

So try not to fall down

and roll with mirth

When I declare my objective

is peace on earth

Oh I'm very small

I've no influence

Oh I'm not famous

I'm scarcely of consequence

but this pearl in my hand

you'll be surprised by its worth

and this night I start the bargaining

for Peace on Earth

what

2.3156 : 12/23/13 : Content

Should I become

a content man

fill the buckets

drive the plan

the ship's corrupt

but so's it all

someone's got

to have the content ball

could I persuade

a million clods

one versus 7 thousand

how you like them odds

with only content

mightier than swords

or so they said

armed with their words

what

2.3155 : 12/22/13 : Filler

Too much filler

and thus comes the night

pitch black

freezing

brain's in a sort of twilight

all I want's a miracle

a suitcase of cash

all I want's a

whirlwind

to blow away the trash

and leave every single

thing precious to me intact

give me those little things

and then I'll act

what

2.3154 : 12/21/13 : Pearls

The irritants get buried in

the flesh of more experience

the gloss accretes around the points

acceptance maybe mere avoidance

pull back the fog of time

will some bright beauty shine there

maybe for the chosen ones

the rest may best not mine there

My minds eye whirls I think of pearls

and maybe I refuse to dive

the depths the tender moments' spurs

those times when I was all alive

what

2.3153 : 12/20/13 : Hat Trick

Hat trick

watch me

not caring

not trying

not daring

not really true

but it'll do for a lark

It's just my life's

Such a walk in the park

what

2.3152 : 12/19/13 : Eradicate

Eradicate self-reference

hey I see what I did there

hell I haven't felt this weak

since I let that bitch cut my hair

retreat from inner dialog

pull down the steady state

we'll see what's left to talk about

after all I eradicate

the hemming and the hawing

Of I know not what I know not where

I'll root out every trace of it

come watch the show: you'll gawp and stare

and most of all eradicate

the last shred of self doubt

this tower of reproach

my stand: and this swine culture's rout

(Tower of Reproach: 1)

what

2.3151 : 12/18/13 : Done to Me

Between what I do to myself

and what's done to me

Well lately not a lot

Seems like fun to me

If that's a weak complaint

well here's one more true

I got a hell of a lot worse

but I won't bore you

what

2.3150 : 12/17/13 : Beginning and Not Beginning to Begin

Don't call it wasted

since I wouldn't sell it

at any price

I should have tasted

more by now

I should have been there twice

and there were many mornings

beginning, and not

beginning to begin

and there were clear signs

and knocking, tapping

Let me in

I won't pronounce

upon a day

non one hour old

but I'll announce

for all my turnings

Your indifference is cold

what

2.3149 : 12/16/13 : False

So many

false starts

but were they

Did we figure out

who called it

are we sure they

Stopped the clock

or was it

started

as I sit here

broken hearted

maybe if I'd

started at

seventeen

but didn't I

didn't I just though

maybe if I'd

ever quit

anything clean

well there was that

one time

if you must know

what

2.3148 : 12/15/13 : Speaking

Struck by how I should treat

whereof I would not speak

Stuck on how I could see

what has truly come to my hands

I should sing of young love

heroism's lofty peak

God and love of the homelands

But I'm stuck on the top

Where my thoughts are seeking

and the moment's fierce now

blows all words to the wind

where my thoughts write words large

but they're scarcely worth speaking

and the shuddering void

knocked rang clattered and dinned

what

2.3147 : 12/14/13 : White Flag

Is that a battle cry

or a white flag

we're all mixed up

by the white stag

sure fairytales sure

superstition

but the longing persists

and dreams of sweet fruition

what

2.3146 : 12/13/13 : Reinvention (II)

While I study reinvention

I am hating everything

surely a failure state

missing on every swing

is it just the dogs at the door

is it this inner curse

have to confess that part

has never been much worse

this slumps like years before

another set of books

a litany of askance

old ways that set their hooks

what would I have the future

hold instead of that rut

won't pierce it in a day

a year will make the cut

what

2.3145 : 12/12/13 : The Plebs Flip the Channel

When do you allow

That the wheels are off

how do you distinguish

from the same old same old

You look at me

as I bow my head and cough

And the plebs flip the channel

and dream of gold

I say it's different

in quantity and quality

and maybe our attitudes

that one I'm still chewing

but the degree to which

they derailed the polity

the old rules are all broken

so forgive me for eschewing

what

2.3144 : 12/11/13 : Undisciplined

Experiment's showing

I'm undisciplined

sorta does explain

the type of fix I'm in

can I turn it round

well I sometimes have

I don't have it quite right

but here I'll take a stab

what

2.3143 : 12/10/13 : Wisdom

Got so taken up

with the lure of filthy gold

forgot myself

and my mission of old

forgot the one

for whom I long

Wisdom

oh how I once sought your song

true I wouldn't shirk

responsibility

sure but so I missed

the cutting of the sacred tree

when I longed for refuge

in the dark and dread

Wisdom did you still

reach a bower over my head

If I'm on a track

I'm not feeling it

If there's a line I don't

know who's unreeling it

waiting for the lord to ask

again who should he send

Oh wisdom are you still

waiting 'round the bend?

what

2.3142 : 12/09/13 : Outline

briefly I saw

edges of

the new shape

the doubt and

dismay

the tingling hairs on my nape

so many places

claimed to

transmit thinking's art

true I saw

the outline

Still had no idea where to start

what

2.3141 : 12/08/13 : Experiment

Only thing on my mind

will the experiment book?

will I learn anything

besides I'm still on the hook

did anyone ever get hoisted

on someone else's petard

question of the day

for an unemployed bard

the experiment is meant

to shine a light but where

can't scrape by much longer

with it all in the air

So I chip chip away

Pray I'm making a dent

Pray I get real results for once

for the experiment

what

2.3140 : 12/07/13 : Roll

Roll for initiative

roll to save

I'd be embarrassed to admit

how many fucks I gave

and what's this now

it's not as if I don't care

but effort seems irrelevant

so at another flash I stare

roll versus poison

roll to dodge

If I could find the right number

I've a complaint to lodge

I tell stories worse

than when I was thirteen

pray what the hell

is that supposed to mean?

what

2.3139 : 12/06/13 : Potato

I think my brain

is a cold boiled potato

its hot phase long past

now a blob of beige play dough

they were good days my friend

thinking thoughts so pretty

now a pound of my gray cells

isn't worth three fifty

oh it's probably depression

it's just low self-esteem

I just need a good night's sleep

I just run out of steam

what

2.3138 : 12/05/13 : Deserve

Because you deserve

a greater nation

I will behave as if

this is the early days

of transition, transformation

stranger things may

have happened

in unknown unrecorded days

stories of great deluge

and visitation

We don't know but

they might be

hints from great sages

and we may never get

straightforward explanations

but I'll behave

as if it's barely

the beginning of ages

what

2.3137 : 12/04/13 : White Night

White knight

nobody wants you

saving anything here

hang up your golden helm

is that perfectly clear

I'm walking out

on the job of world saving

that nobody asks for

and of which I was incapable

I am micronized by the world

And the world is micronized by the cosmos

And the future is inescapable

How could I have known

that perspective has just grown

within the great cosmic stage

So vast it seems to swallow the light

On my speck while I slept

my hands down favorite

covalent bipolar elemental

learned geometry from entropy

and hidden in darkness

kissed my world

with a white night

what

2.3136 : 12/03/13 : Post Ism

All category lost

even life

even right

no concept

all convention and others I could mention

You cannot build

a house on stilts

on abstract sand

You ask me what's real

look baby

my right hand

post neologistic

post exceptionalistic

post cinematic prism

kneel then raise your eyes

up to the great Post Ism

If mind is will

and will is thrill

What will you do when

I let the pre-Kingdom Come spill

ride at your own risk

because you will get wet

and I have no Idea

what I'm going to get

what

2.3135 : 12/02/13 : Flow

Why can't I find

the place I flow

why can't I find

my holy source

and then it turns

all upside down

I'm an ungrateful

wretch of course

the world got harder

while I tried to soften up

and what I tapped

seems there's no call for

and providence

seems disinclined to fill this cup

So you tell me

what was that all for

I think I've got to

really tear into this this time

get underneath

two decades' build up

can't come up

until I really have that pump primed

and I'm truly

steeled to meet this world I willed up

what

2.3134 : 12/01/13 : Inside

Shook down some old stacks

Some that weren't mine

I was praying for something

What I got was a sign

not in a manner of speaking

not in a metaphor

It wasn't my interpretation

Still it hit me like a swinging door

all the wonderful things

all the things I seek

have to believe in what's inside myself

have to believe I'll get a peek

Why would anyone believe now

that real change is in the wings

there's an insider on our side

who tells me things

I wish I had a few good days under my belt

I wish I hadn't let a few things slide

try my best to be perfect from now

for tomorrow's pledge to look inside inside

what