2.4626 : 1/1/18 : All Heart

Rather than

go on and on

about the fast-

then-go-slow

pay heed to

the hour

pedestrian I know

maybe how it

could get to a different start

pay heed

start small

and proceed with all heart

what

2.4625 : 12/31/17 : One In Thirteen

Seven years

so what does that mean

a tenth or twelfth

remains to be seen

One in thirteen

not sure that's the best case

this numbers game

and still don't feel

I've found my place

is that the note

I want to end on

even if it's just

an ordinary dot

but even after seven

years and longer

all I've got to give

is what I've got

what

2.4624 : 12/30/17 : Reveal

What did I call it?

reveal

none too likely really

or so I now feel

dream of deeper

secrets

but it's all a myth

and I'm not a

millimeter

closer to the pith

what

2.4623 : 12/29/17 : No Novelty

Just want to

lose consciousness

for as long as possible

no novelty

no bright ideas

Would do this fossil well

Get real

boring

do not a thing

maybe in

a dream float

up a thousand feet

and sing

what

2.4622 : 12/28/17 : ZAP

Every so often

get to just zap out

give it a rush

a holler, a rough shout

shake and a slap

hello world my dear

those as have ears

well you listen, you hear

what

2.4621 : 12/27/17 : Call Out

Another call out

to Lord Rigamarole

shone out the signal

to the owl patrol

those as would notice

must be my lowly squad

Force for peace in all things

spare every rod

Quell my violent spirit

ugly power dreams

playbook is tiny

against reams and reams

of dark designs

and wanting fast and loose

don't know if I'm getting there

but I've got no excuse

what

2.4620 : 12/26/17 : Recompense Revisited

Thinking is there

any sense

reckoning after

the recompense

I feel I must be owed

for this long denial

recompense revisted

surely I was inhibited

and such wasted blame

and still played the game

what

2.4619 : 12/25/17 : Do and Don't

These things I do

and these things I don't

wonder if I ever will

and what happens if I won't

try to find some conception

that doesn't sound like a stunt

familiar but still failing

every morning bears the brunt

what

2.4618 : 12/24/17 : Twas ever thus

Am I still propping up

the resolution

schtick

imaginary datelines

some counting trip

For sure a fake out

nothing in either

hand

well you said it was

ever thus

in the promised land

what

2.4617 : 12/23/17 : Back to Ground

Far from the only one

sick of the grownup run

Time got so tight and fast

afraid to ask

how long it will last

feels like the terminal

round

I'll never get back to

ground

unless I find

what's the name?

each cycle comes

to this same

what

2.4616 : 12/22/17 : Who

Call me what you like

just trying to get by

try to think of who

he would be that happy guy

what

2.4615 : 12/21/17 : Pledge

Must break this chain

right now

Leave the future

or another prow

the big picture

or any

promise or

pledge

to hell with and

leaving it all

piled up on the ledge

what

2.4614 : 12/20/17 : Attention

I'd be the first to admit

and the last two admit

because who else could be

paying attention to it

that the caper the plot

might sound good but it's not

got a budget or schedule

and already you hedge fool

I see where I put my attention

say I have to but fail to mention

never time left for plan I

if I'm counting right well am I

am I yet hopeless enough

to crack to break out for this slough

what

2.4613 : 12/19/17 : 12 Day

12 Day Countdown

big reveal

most clicked context

how will I feel

better start plotting

making lists

Count my chickens

and book those final trysts

what

2.4612 : 12/18/17 : The Master List

The monotony

forever in my heart

I know one thing

today I didn't start

the master list

the big to do

I blame it all

on the paycheck

but it's really down on me

and my stiff neck

what

2.4611 : 12/17/17 : Pin Drop

What's next

the pin drop

what failed

the Big Pop

what's right

not much son

half baked

and all done

what

2.4610 : 12/16/17 : Rapid Failure

Rapid failure

I don't care to explain

took a detour

on behalf

of the lower brain

if that's the

word for it exactly

at this point

I'm just acting

what

2.4609 : 12/15/17 : Old Time Hokum

Nothing much real

on the big screen these days

Feels like the fantasy is darker

just a cartoon anyway

Guess it's just the new time

version of the old time hokum

the bad boys grin and grimace

well they got 'em so they smoke 'em

and it aways wraps up

in lots of the flashy booms

but me I like the moody

interludes in quiet tombs

and facts that add up

choices that matter

Get drowned in the hokum

that's all hit and splatter

what

2.4608 : 12/14/17 : Thought Word

I need to break the

pattern

so bad

the world's gone

mean-angry

hateful

and mad

oh how to be

that change

we need

failing such in

thought word

and deed

what

2.4607 : 12/13/17 : Enjoy the Fantasy

Already mad

but will I ever get even

think about blowing up

think about leaving

Piss on my desk

Fly both free birds high

goodbye fellow fools goodbye

Enjoy the fantasy

While you may

Some seven hours hence

Sure enough another day

And I'm eating what I'm served

with a dead false smile

and that's all I'll have to say

for a while

what

2.4606 : 12/12/17 : Aspect

Still stumped looking

for a better aspect

Solely for me

get free

of ever stance I reject

When I hitch my

wagon up

to the unchanging Tao

I'm going to finally tap

the limitless potential

of the hear and now

what

2.4605 : 12/11/17 : Background Radiation

Somewhere the notion

faded back into

who knows how

into the

background radiation

and me too tired to

chase behind

and nothing really

on my mind

what

2.4604 : 12/10/17 : Tapped

Thinking I'm tapped

but then I always think I'm tapped

and so the heap grows

always a little

sparkle in the scrap

hardly a mission

hardly a plan

and my choices of words

mark me as a confused man

and the dull, the grind

commands way too much

of my mind

guess I'm a natural cog

but so why do I still flog

this rusty spluttering tap

shrug off the questions

close the book: snap

what

2.4603 : 12/09/17 : Someone Else's Business

Early rising and not

the ironic kind

and not happy about

the reasons behind

Someone else's business

my too large role in it

Hope to tell by the time

this sees light I'll

have found the hole in it

and busted free

I wish I found my own plank

Something worth

getting up early for

You would surely hear my thanks

what

2.4602 : 12/08/17 : The Credits

Might be in denial

this might be

the long haul

no twist before

the credits

nothing eventual

might be missing the point

still looking for

the either or

dry drowning in

this answer sea

and telltale taps

beneath the floor

what

2.4601 : 12/07/17 : The Hedge

Don't want to think

about the big dark

don't want to think

about the small spark

don't want to

drag this to the edge

hang the fiddle up

and jump the hedge

what

2.4600 : 12/06/17 : Kicking

So when do I start kicking back?

rally from this sneak attack

When do I run up the flag?

One man party always stag

I tried my best at being done

settle for the stick a little weekend fun

not sure who was fooled by my act

maybe all I saw was tact

Still unconvinced I've got a play

I say I'll kick off any day

the stance collapsed by ten o' clock

another day kicking it in drydock

what

2.4599 : 12/05/17 : Stance

Change stance

challenge for tomorrow

What won't come natural

naturally will have to borrow

speak light

display a brighter spirit

not exactly faking

and perhaps will get near it

what is the stance

it's heading somewhere

panning the silt

the gold is in there

patience purpose

practice and zeal

Kept close to me what for

something I'll know when I feel

what

2.4598 : 12/04/17 : Bailing

I'm bailing

like a rat

on a haycart

on fire

out of the

smoky stack

tumble

down the tire

rush to some

mild indulgence

hope for an

early bed

maybe tomorrow

turn the whole earth

on its head

what

2.4597 : 12/03/17 : Just Timing

Falling asleep on

my post

sign of my

duress

Known a scion

of privilege

but I'm

in genuine

distress

but it's so

dull

always banging

along

Feels like

it's maybe just timing

but hey

there's the gong

what

2.4596 : 12/02/17 : Work Dumb

I worked hard as J.S. Bach

but lacked genius and discipline

is it virtuous to work hard and dumb

jeeze kid ain't you been listening

rats don't race for grace

for any just light to move toward

they just fight in the bloody scrum

and no no other way forward

so along we gadabout

piling up the next mass extinction

this ain't no job for homeopathy

or weak moss intinction

love to get working smart

in some pleasant hive of resistance

but remain lowly, work dumb

and sing my silly

rhyme of persistence

what

2.4595 : 12/01/17 : A Cave

The past is getting deeper

and the hill is getting steeper

I'm not getting

the any younger

but I sure do not feel wiser

am I sawing on my own branch

Shoot my foot off down at the ranch

do I drift another hour

ghost the realm an early riser

do I drift

or drop

does this fun

ever stop

do I need a hobby

or to get woke

I dreamed a cave

and what within it

spoke

what