2.4962 : 12/3/18 : Heated

Get heated

in a quiet funk

feeling the proverbial

pricks in my junk

and just keep

shouldering the weight

and the plan so far

seems pretty bunk

what

2.4962 : 12/3/18 : Heated

Get heated

in a quiet funk

feeling the proverbial

pricks in my junk

and just keep

shouldering the weight

and the plan so far

seems pretty bunk

what

2.4961 : 12/2/18 : The Form

If all I really have to

do is keep the form

not like any of it pays

or keeps us warm

and the purpose

overall is dubious

But reality these days

isn't that the norm

what

2.4960 : 12/1/18 : The Fix

and still sometimes

I think I almost

see the fix

bypass the hateful

pack, get straight

into the mix

oh it all sounds

easy in your head

but this world is

getting old for

my dumb tricks

what

2.4959 : 11/30/18 : Routine

What's scary? That

I stick with this

routine

Really not a prayer

of getting out clean

Heavens if I ever

came to balance the facts

Would I really even

know what that would

mean?

what

2.4958 : 11/29/18 : Knack

Why am I feeling

a little bit sick

Whatever the knack

of the thing

I lost the trick

and oh I'm floating

about along three feet

and no clue of

destination

and ain't that a kick?

what

2.4957 : 11/28/18 : String

Can't string along much

longer lining ducks up

a longer list of

what the devil mucks up

And still I pull and

pull and pull this string

And deal with whatever

that hairball

chucks up

what

2.4956 : 11/27/18 : Leisure

Am I at leisure

or just under the chase

I guess I better

get to finding a new place

If I brought every

single tiny thing I got

will I ever face the leisure

with a clear face

what

2.4955 : 11/26/18 : CONFLICT

Stare at the page

and get defeated

I know my refrains

and it's oft repeated

and though I'll have

to flag another

navelly gaze

Somewhere in deep

background

the conflict got heaed

what

2.4954 : 11/25/18 : This Condition

That five minutes thing

Oh yeah that

thought I had

Still could get

after that

cut rate

Scheherazade

though I know I cannot

talk my way out

of this condition still

things to get on about

what

2.4953 : 11/24/18 : Bad Deal

Try to turn this

ocean liner around

Sounds like a bad deal

yet I like the sound

of my big luxury

Ship of thought

take another token

to the slot

what

2.4952 : 11/23/18 : Requiems

Not doing requiems

tonight

nobody's really dead

just out of sight

And I'm planting seeds

with a seed machine gun

of my own design

Call me da Vinci's son

next up for production

the flying machine

next time around

you'll see quite clear what I mean

what

2.4951 : 11/22/18 : Ticking

In the pure

spirit

of ticking

off boxes

It still counts

what

2.4950 : 11/21/18 : Final Touches

Didn't quite

put the final

touches on

been a while

don't got

my crutches on

It'll do but

must come

the reckoning

try to imagine

that world

beckoning

what

2.4949 : 11/20/18 : Plant

The Deal is

I can't plan for shit

this bind again

So sick of it

but should the

sickness

cease at last

You'll find me

downstream

holding fast

what

2.4948 : 11/19/18 : Part

The dumbest part

saying never again

I think I'm smart

know how

the show will end

the smarter part

would look to

glide above

the wisest values

only love

what

2.4947 : 11/18/18 : Say Nothing

Getting that say nothing urge

befitting a say nothing dirge

take down the old graffiti

oh be still your heart so bleedy

be no protest be no cry

a few might notice by and by

like back in ancient days

shut up in class professor says

is anything amiss with you

I bluffed it then I will now too

stomach's sour, no heart ease

So I'll say nothing if you please

what

2.4946 : 11/17/18 : March of Reasons

Run up a red kite

on a black string

The march of reasons

denying it could

be anything

Would make life easier

But I can't make

that hook catch

But is that sound I hear

somone

undoing the latch? 

what

2.4945 : 11/16/18 : 7 Year

The seven year scracth

is coming on fast

I wouldn't exactly say

it's been a blast

I wouldn't exactly say

it hasn't been fun

I'll leave it to posterity

to figure out who won

oh if I can just get

my corner set up

I might yet justify

this ridiculous get up

what

2.4944 : 11/15/18 : Circling Dots

What are those

circling dots up there

rescue planes

or falling bombs

or buzzards

circling in the air

What can this

holding pattern mean

and should I hope it's

just been something in between

what

2.4943 : 11/14/18 : Passage

A passage of nights

now long forgotten

at least the reason

for the range

the reason for that

is rotten

only it has to happen

So who's to call

it foul or fair

but hard for sure

the hardest row anywhere

what

2.4942 : 11/13/18 : Slow Transformation

Slow

transformation

so slow

it's just a theory

I better let it go at that

before the morning gets

me bleary

though I've given up

on the surge

still yet

these beams may merge

what

2.4941 : 11/12/18 : Winner

Winter bites early

that's not all that's

biting

tell me I'm progressing

surely

why doesn't it feel

more exciting?

it's a weird little

catechism

in the middle of this mess

as I start to apprehend

sometimes more is less

what

2.4940 : 11/11/18 : Hex

Better gin up

the hex and

the hashes

exorcise the

dismal din

with divots

and dashes

better nonsense than

that prior gack

chew through the old views

like a snack

what

2.4939 : 11/10/18 : Pretend

Pretend pretend

Don't know what else

all the partisans

fooling themselves

but what does being smart

get anyone

not a dime

not another day in the sun

So am I giving up?

Heaven forfend

so until I'm feeling it again

guess I pretend, pretend

what

2.4938 : 11/9/18 : Living And

I was cooking up a

whole line

about the living and

the dead

but I just want to

shelve it now

Lay my head in bed

And put a punctuation

mark on one dumb part

the end of the era

of start and stop and start

what

2.4937 : 11/8/18 : Frantic

It's all part of the design

the frantic pace

keep my gimbals unaligned

Keep me in my place

I gotta gotta breathe deep

get my bearings straight

until I've got my line down

in my sleep

And at the cusp

I will not hesitate

what

2.4936 : 11/7/18 : Actually

Oh right but

I didn't actually

Well I had

a rough week

factually

and it isn't

but half done

and I'm not looking to

impress anyone

what

2.4935 : 11/6/18 : Face

Don't even want to

hold the place

want to get up in

someone's face

but I don't know

who

and does this place

seem so familiar to you

the bad kind of déjà vu

a dirty beige venue

what

2.4934 : 11/5/18 : Boss

It ain't a compliment

Look how we caved

I'd hate to be a boss

Nobody gets saved

I have to bring it in

nothing like a boss

never in charge of one thing

trust me it's your loss

what

2.4933 : 11/4/18 : Talent

Ghosts of raw talent

from before I was born

like I need the reminder

well I won't yield to scorn

not to be claiming

I'm getting anyplace

While more of my grin

falls out of my face

I reckon they'll patch me

back up again yet

like I patch up these bits

just the best I can get

what

2.4932 : 11/3/18 : The Joy

All I want

the joy the passion

jettison politics

commerce

fashion

if only you'd confirm

the art for

my pursuit

am I ignoring

the obvious

or waiting for a

dead tree to bear fruit

what

2.4931 : 11/2/18 : Pivot

Saw what was coming

and tried to pivot

not quite an answer but

the answerman

won't give it

but hell I'll swing

right on and follow

through

try to shade the line

and prove my pivot true

what

2.4930 : 11/1/18 : Buy

Bring me something I can buy

I mean believe if you can take

the irony of putting it that way

I need a hope transfusion

credible and not delusion

and I need to be able to make it pay

and I guess that it's a little bit

better than the old time

brother act depression and rage

but when I boil it down it's

still a lot of what if what if

blame it like a weakling on the age

what

2.4929 : 10/31/18 : Hack

Stark reminder

I can't hack the abuse

anymore not getting

younger

and in the absence

of a muse

What do I know

but the daily attack

though you very

well may

go and call me a hack

what

2.4928 : 10/30/18 : Wicked

Went a day that

I forgot to do

the wicked wanting

While winners

played their plots

Lord I was punting

and not tonight oh no

don't get

two in a row

and I'm already

feeling wicked

don't ya know

what

2.4927 : 10/29/18 : Sense of Horror

Sense of horror

who needs anything more

than the persistence

of absence

of a functional door

none of your

howling rants

really cut

Where it counts

easier said than done

in whatever amounts

what

2.4926 : 10/28/18 : Play on Words

Play on words

somehow the flourish

makes real change

don't think me churlish

If I blame it on you

If that doesn't work out

get cynical again

try this fresh smirk out

can that terrible attitude

throwa match in after

get the real world play up

behold the spell caster

what

2.4925 : 10/27/18 : Whatever Insight

Bring along

whatever insight

of a day

the dark again

still hoping

for the bright

What about

the next go round

still pushing on

seeking the sound

what

2.4924 : 10/26/18 : Turnaround

Pray for epiphany

feeling like I'm getting

worn down

and it's not charming

and my face is

in a frown

where is the carousel

where is the turnaround

what

2.4923 : 10/25/18 : Cowardly

If pessimism is

cowardly

But the alternative

is slippery

easier to be

high and mighty

oh give me

one pinpoint

shining brightly

what

2.4922 : 10/24/18 : CATASTROPHE

Is it anything at all

but to hold off

catastrophe

till I don't

someday inevitable

the ultimate

and all my wills will

become won't

So overthinking

is a sad squandering

and we might as well

love

since we're all wandering

what

2.4921 : 10/23/18 : Woken Up

I'm not more woken up

than anyone

and I don't want to be

So let your speech

be done

I don't want to

talk the talk

show I'm with it

not much of an

alternative

to all that myth shit

what

2.4920 : 10/22/18 : Mile Wide Stripe

I guess that I could talk

a mile wide stripe

of garbage on this

piled of pig tripe

But that's so stale

and overdone

a line that could be

spewed by anyone

dark as it might

call on my soul

I won't be enticed

to feed the hole

what

2.4919 : 10/21/18 : Cape

Shake this off

like an old cape

I'm looking to get out

of a bad scrape

through work

alone plus

providence

but could we get

a little evidence

what

2.4918 : 10/20/18 : Bright

I'm so bright

I come with

adjustable shade

you're so right

didn't have to lift

a finger

I was born made

here's my hot take

on the heist

I diced up miles of tape

and spliced

what

2.4917 : 10/19/18 : Nevermind

Make another

pronouncement son

To hell with it

day all but done

How the hell am I

still bulling through

Nevermind

Say nothing

if I can't stay true

what

2.4916 : 10/18/18 : Spiral

No pulling out

the spiral and

the rout

never should have

shown a hand

next up

a lifetime

pounding sand

what

2.4915 : 10/17/18 : Exercise

This exercise

should maybe

get replaced by lifting

a heavy thing

over and over

not thinking

anything

and the intention

shelved at last

soon

long dead and past

what

2.4914 : 10/16/18 : Pile

What's to do

other than curse

the pile

wonder if I'll

make it to

that distant mile

more happened

I suppose

than I recall

but what's to do

next

except continue to stall

what

2.4913 : 10/15/18 : Peeve

All uncool

got a peeve on

like a kettle

in my back mind

that I leave on

I've got to trace every

long step back

likely to find

a cold stove

in a spindle shack

what

2.4912 : 10/14/18 : Better Dreams

I'm rising up to shake my fist

for better dreams

Protest the hour is

not as dark as it now seems

without hope

a little brainless positivity

the death white actor half

will rule in his proclivity

but due to certain thoughts

this answer is now

plain to me

The old veil's about split its seams

and shower us all in better dreams

what

2.4911 : 10/13/18 : Posit

Posit a slowing

only natural

approaching a peak

this one is factual

a bit of a

countdown

well we earned the count

at a price not quite

14 years

but that's not the true amount

what

2.4910 : 10/12/18 : Real Blank

Ache for a real

blank

rather than this

muddled chatter

When I catch a glimpse

the fog cranks high

like the dope

thinks it'll shatter

ho that I'd

like to exterminate

and the real blank

it's be so great

what

2.4909 : 10/11/18 : Lead

Think I was smarter before

maybe it's lead

taint in the water

and fogged up my head

the words not so glib

Short on nuance and flair

Oh likely just a slump

or time just

drove me square

 

2.4908 : 10/10/18 : 6 Possibilities

6 Possibilities

maybe 4 or 8

used to think

a thousand

but was it really

so great?

At the end of each

happenstance

you only get one

what good were the others

well dreaming was fun

what

2.4907 : 10/9/18 : Same New

Did you hear the one

about the same new

stale hat

perched on my

dumb head

how about that?

how about this then

magic trick

toss the hat in the woods

and come up

holding a brick

what

2.4906 : 10/8/18 : Too Sick

Too sick to care

or try for the

prize

another day

drifts past my eyes

watch the old

riverboat saga

start up the old

internal raga

what

2.4905 : 10/7/18 : Dangerous Times

Such repetition

old time end time rants

talk of dangerous times

on all familiar slants

Slippery slope

well we're all sliding

this basket's well in hand

and man we're riding

what

2.4904 : 10/6/18 : Gold Rush

Drink my Jamoka - dirt and all

waiting on a no doubt expensive call

oh as soon as I mend up, I'll crush

waiting on word of the next Gold Rush

What we cannot eat and cannot burn

Lord but it seems to make the world turn

For once damn it I'll win the marathon

When I hear the next gold rush is on

I read you wax sadly angry

about history's arc

I can't argue

these days the contrast is stark

but when my hands overflow I'll pay

it forth

what else could this rush possibly be worth

what

2.4903 : 10/5/18 : WORSE

I'll do you worse

as I am done by

as above

so below

another

celestial drive by

I might just

Lose the plot

fly off the handle

go in hot

what

2.4902 : 10/4/18 : LEAST

Least resistance

I deserve

A minor fall

for all I serve

guess it'll drag

however it goes

and the way I

feel about it

really shows

what

2.4901 : 10/3/18 : What Do I Think

What do I think?

That I'd dig deep within

Pull out a stack of batteries

the readiness to begin

Obviously this is it

and everything's long since begun

half good again like always

dearest square number one

wrap it up fast

thought is sounds so stale

what the hell lately

it all feels like

a shot down a rail

what

2.4900 : 10/2/18 : Pedant's Theory

Pedant's theory

of course

the countdown

doesn't start

at the nones

but at the ones

maybe I'll transform

overnight

so take heart

what

2.4899 : 10/1/18 : Subroutine

buried way deep

in this subroutine

the way to

break the loop

I hope you

know what I mean

I'm sure it's waiting

on the secret word

I've gone

ten thousand levels

seeking anyone

who's heard

what

2.4898 : 9/30/18 : Jump

Jump before I get

dark as pitch

keep it to yourself

avoid the stitch

maybe next time

the fool's refrain

that stripped the snitch

and left a stain

That hexed my accounts

all loss no gain

old tricks have failed

so must retrain

what

2.4897 : 9/29/18 : Levels

6,000 levels

spot me another

forces of destruction

assemble, oh brother

we sure like to

daydream about

armageddon

but nothing's ever so neat

so don't get led on

what

2.4896 : 9/28/18 : Secret

It's got a secret

Annex

a bonus track

likely no one ever

see it

probably best

it's sort of an attack

of peevishness

well and not much

has changed

and yet and still

I refuse to be estranged

what

2.4895 : 9/27/18 : Flying

Flying on a lucky chance

and will get popped surely

meanwhile the mythic pop

gets phased up and

Swirly

And oh if I could drum that

gorgeous nonsense into life

If only I could feel the

way I thought I'd be

stalwart to strife

Screw it I'm sick of the

pepe talk and the self-help

need to lock a flight pattern

because I'm no whelp

what

2.4894 : 9/26/18 : The Thresher

Climb out

before the walls

get steeper

am I still hoping

this thing is a

Sleeper

four pop shots

aren't getting

any fresher

pray some revelation

and on its heels

the thresher

what

2.4893 : 9/25/18 : Shake

What I can't shake

like the book states:

remains

Getting wound up

about my

aches and pains

I dial it back

but it comes 'round

all the same

bringing to mind a

parable

of moths 'round a flame

what

2.4892 : 9/24/18 : Father Of

Father of performance

Art

or so to speak

I heard your part

was getting thin

See through

that great

Eye

from Outside in

what

2.4891 : 9/23/18 : Pitches

So maybe I'm the one

who showed all my pitches

say change is imminent

that's got you in stitches

and ready to wind up

send my next one to the stands

everybody gets up

and claps their hands

or maybe I hold you off

for another round

think I'll still measure short

anyway, pound for pound

what

2.4890 : 9/22/18 : 13 Billion

Thinking about your

13 billion and change

things today really

aren't that much

more strange

your golden platter

and you sexy sketch

might do as well again

in my lifetime

but it'll be a stretch

what

2.4889 : 9/21/18 : Leaves

Like leaves

a'turning green

sure thought that fall

would turn to spring

didn't foresee winter

fell so dark

but here I am

here still the spark

what

2.4888 : 9/20/18 : Over

Am I getting

over it

or just getting

used to it

Oh no back

here again

This damn thing

used to fit

what

2.4887 : 9/19/18 : Holes

Cut holes through time

disrupt the air

creator of causality

a thoroughfare

anything to elevate

pierce the mundane

and quell the chatter

in the small brain

a lot of talk

but will it ever put up

holes in the plot

and just trying

to get a foot up

what

2.4886 : 9/18/18 : Pile

Pretend I'm stacking

charging the pile

preparing the outfitting

for the masterful mile

It all looks lovely

if you just don't pay heed

That just keep going nowhere

at astonishing speed

what

2.4885 : 9/17/18 : Come Up

Come up right on it

Won't get it together

to see the big peak on

ro roll in the heather

how in the hell do we

steer through this skid

Supposed to steer into it

easier said huh kid

eye on the one thing

I know I can do

Pierce with the needle

and pull the thread through

what

2.4884 : 9/16/18 : This Routine

This is routine

And the conclusion

doesn't bear repeating

avert your eyes from

this deceased horse I'm beating

easy and on tap

And it's the perfect fit

for this played out

crap

what

2.4883 : 9/15/18 : Tempus

Old tempus

just keeps fugit-ing

surely as deep Sound

rolls in, Puget-ing

will becomes is

surely as is becomes was

futureman beyond all

he'll do as he does

and if this marks

anything

I'll likely forget

in a morass of moments

I haven't

got to yet

what

2.4882 : 9/14/18 : Plot

Been a while really

since I really lost the plot

and if I rise above

what have I got

oh well whatever

not going to dwell

sit around with the

plot undeveloped a spell

what

2.4881 : 9/13/18 : Limitation

Kind of digging on the limitation

strictly proscribe the act of creation

none of these gangly run on lines

stick to the fork, 3-4 tines

long past thinking I'll crack the nut

just another morning, get up 10-hut

sew it up again at the other end

a line or twenty float around the bend

and probably time to hang up

already slipping, feel the bang up

tie you a real neat bow

follow through and keep it low

what

2.4880 : 9/12/18 : Magic

Gave up on magic and

the fantasy escape

got all dragged down

tangled up on red tape

don't know if I miss it

just so much to do

as the days fritter by

and mundane bricks

accrue

what

2.4879 : 9/11/18 : Now You See Me

Now you see me

another question

would you want to

Whole lot of nothing

the next hassle

will amount to

for all my

worries

it just grinds along

and I've got a

dark inkling

about this next song

what

2.4878 : 9/10/18 : Walk in the Park

All been misunderstanding

it's a walk in the park

not a thing to get hung up

not a shot in the dark

getting lined up like pins

roll them down the line

so the world has big problems

I won't make them mine

what

2.4877 : 9/9/18 : Embrace

Trying to embrace

is it really a race

or just a sliding

am I gliding? Eliding

red herrings abound

far from the big sound

stil debating minutiae

till ugly facts deluge you

what

2.4876 : 9/8/18 : Opinions

All the opinions

I'm sick of it

Some make it pay

the trick of it

I don't want that

I want to raise

an honest take

See how that plays

what

2.4875 : 9/7/18 : Blame

I thrash around

to pin the blame

for the back cloud

but it's most likely

all on me

best sing it loud

hope to go down easy

stay there long

and hope this mood

disperses

when a fellow can't

fake it all

I guess he rehearses

what

2.4874 : 9/6/18 : Unseen

The long unseen

the ironic

callback

Same dear

best try

land on

same hack

what

2.4873 : 9/5/18 : Accept

Accept? Or kick

Am I still on this schtick?

It'll all be forgotten

in seven long years

that's a trick to make me look up

pull a wry smile

throw the book up

and hope it's not

a joke so stale

it truns to wry tears

what

2.4872 : 9/4/18 : Symmetry

Already tripped up

all my pretty symmetry

Sure won't string along

thing thing indefinitely

pass down and crown

some last hour

try to feel the spark ghost

of a long lost power

what

2.4871 : 9/3/18 : Brief Yearning

Live up to the name

wake up to the same

guess I'll be learning

to keep things brief

as yearning

and brilliant as pain

oh it's all in your brain

just like every delight

that snaps out like a light

what

the trick to letting these days go

Well ding dang it, I came to the end of another volume in the middle of a posting continuity gap.  Albeit it a day late, The Exultation closed out ASAD volume 2.22, Tools for Knowledge. Let's steam right along and open volume 2.23, being titled Original Maps Project, or, "Figure out how to figure it out".

what

2.4870 : 9/2/18 : The Exultation

The exultation

leads to the expected report

could easily take the edge off

but I'm trying to be a sport

long hours

not much to show

will I ever find the trick

to letting these days go

but what the hell

I'm still winning as expected

and I might just find a twist

when all the ballots are collected

what

2.4869 : 9/1/18 : Shawshank

Want to bust out of this habit

like Shawshank prison

Warden's not answering me

maybe get somewhere with his son

Oh how will this one

be different than most

Remember care thanks

heart ideas time toast

So here's to all my other

last hurrahs

here's to booking right past

any thought might give me pause

add up the numbers

and call it a day

and day will come and

with the sun a hopeful ray

what

2.4868 : 8/31/18 : Secret

Another secret

turnaround

is planned

that plot's

run into the ground

and panned

a century

in this stream

all slowly

slowly

losing steam

so find another

power source

always hah

the battery of cource

then suddenly

in the silt

a gleam

what

2.4867 : 8/30/18 : Weasels

This dirty world

we're all weasels

you ideas are stupid

So I hope your kid gets measels

turn up the volume

drown out these jerks

eye for an eye for an eye

see how that works

or guess not

so ends like you'd expect

just this dirty world

and weasels getting wrecked

what

2.4866 : 8/29/18 : Next Recreation

The next recreation

better start real quick

overindulged

feeling a little sick

not in a cool way

like some cool kid

that's one illusion

I should be well rid

it's all a muddled cluttered

mess upstairs

the whole damn circus

feels like splitting hairs

Some seeing total breakdown

we should have such luck

I see another hundred years

of winding down

and staying stuck

what

2.4865 : 8/28/18 : Swell

Not much here to match

the unearthly swell

no wonder they're all cheering

forget tomorrow just as well

forget what's marked

don't care for the figure

hope most don't notice

contemplation's de rigueur

and only really trying

to stretch out one last long goodbye

on the other side

of five more days

no plan I'll catch you

on the fly

what

2.4864 : 8/27/18 : Stand Out

Search for one thing

that stands out

whole lot of is this

what it's all about

hooked in again

the old hoist and haul

and all the old fantasies

flicker and pall

high above the

earthly sphere

the spark snuffer flies

maybe far maybe near

and straining for an echo

of that good sound

maybe something will stand out

next go around

what

2.4863 : 8/26/18 : Tossing Art

Hey old acquaintence

clocking in I guess

on four years back

and glad enough

you're still tossing art

up on the stack

I hope it's led you

somewhere with more bends ahead

forget again a dozen year

see where it's all led

what

2.4862 : 8/25/18 : Anger

It's the anger

it's the lack of sleep

it's the bad old days

that cut me deep

it's the vices

it's the worm

it's the restless grasping

if that's really the term

believe believe

that things can change

not just deck chairs

to rearrange

maybe even

turn the great ship round

about the only thing

that keeps me seeking

the big sound

what

2.4861 : 8/24/18 : Paper

Running out of pages

Still doing on paper

can't get with the program

next one will be a scraper

always more words

but the arrangement disappoints

hope to turn the thing around

but it's creaking at the joints

what

2.4860 : 8/23/18 : Dark Gloom

Another dark gloom

another pointless message

from this low room

maybe I'm enjoying

this depressive stew

I guess I said

I was going to talk you

another summer

circling the drain

another fast dumb

thought circles my brain

I'll go and prove

it's unoriginal as usual

I'd ask you for something

but I know you'll refuse, you will

what

2.4859 : 8/22/18 : Experiment

Call it an experiment

distinguish the nonsense

chalk up the last thing

to something like insolence

and stop stomping

on the God damned turd

and throw away those kicks

can you feel me? Word?

not much left cool about me

nor the true quill geek

You can say I rolled some bad throws

and yet I still seek

and at another days end

though my average sucks, I swing

I guess that's what I've got

If I've got anything

what

2.4858 : 8/21/18 : Half Wrong

Is it half wrong

or moreso

Seems bound to

be poor, so

hard to see

the point of trying

another half baked

leap I'm eyeing

put that in your

pipe and smoke it

fits a pattern

think I broke it

what

2.4857 : 8/20/18 : Chrysalis

Sorry about your chrysalis

sorry about your transformation

You picked a lousy spot for sure

I should have used more imagination

the dark part that assumes the worst

and tries some wack hail mary stunt

I let the dull inevitable

and it doesn't matter what I want

what

2.4856 : 8/19/18 : Lightly

now to tread lightly

tightrope on a soggy noodle

stretched and sunbaked rubber band

the whole kit and caboodle

the attitude to cultivate

so careless so intent

I stopped the piper playing

somehow still paying his rent

still felt like I caught the slightest

scent a'wafting through the trees

and I'm following so lightly

drifting breezelike through the trees

what

2.4855 : 8/18/18 : Smacks

Smacks me

I got nothing to prove

no reason to think

all that much will improve

look back 3 generations

seems not so bad

if it's as good as it gets

fuck it

I'm glad

what

2.4854 : 8/17/18 : Able

Feeling made chiefly

of bad habits

these days mainly

off the table

Feeling deep change

must come soon

then really

wondering if I'm able

cast a glance

long seven back

distressingly the same

and soon a dark remembrance

So I best get on my game

what

2.4853 : 8/16/18 : Backstory

The backstory you can't see

the context

Is a little too spot on

you know what's next

I must decline

to elaborate

it's duller than you think

seems to be my state

what

2.4852 : 8/15/18 : Pheremones

What tracks this world's

pheremones

What is the queen?

is it money or influnece

whatever the means

mostly mindless following

following the trace

seldom remember to stop

look up feel sun on my face

like to think a year will be different

all the moreso five

something like my own track

at last, at least alive

to something I lost track of

distracted by false scent

back long the true line

Whatever that ever meant

what

2.4851 : 8/14/18 : Hollow Summer

Summer grows hollow

even in the heat

center turns to dry pith

in the long days' retreat

every one seems quicker

illusion of age

and really they've got longer

as our impact turns a page

never again that long spell

left on my own devices

better not to dwell

hours spent on fools and vices

and every hollow summer

falls into itself at last

thinking how to fall indifferent

thinking through and holding fast

what

2.4850 : 8/13/18 : B.O.C.

I'm gonna start the

brainless optimist club for real

I'm gonna do a wicked number

on how I always feel

Because I'm sick of it

I'm fed right up

I'm going to drive a hard bargain

for a different cup

half full half empty

I give you flowing over

Once the mean miser

now the shout the treasure trover

It's all long shots baby

Well we start out unique

before they file another edge off

Imma straight up freak

what

2.4849 : 8/12/18 : Inner Twist

What would be

good tonight?

Do I think I

should tonight?

write out lists

or write a letter

try to make this

come out better?

angle for

a sick reveal

or tell you how

I really feel

an inner twist

is hard to master

keep it loose

and put down faster

what

2.4848 : 8/11/18 : Forgot Again

So I forgot again

got out of order

file another bare completion

right on the border

talking with an

imaginary madman in my head

standard fare

enough to get me to bed

what

2.4847 : 8/10/18 : Primary Metaphysics

Pondering my

primary metaphysics

is it indoctrination

or something

more intrinsic

odd times I dream

one day I might make a study

proper

but I doubt that I could

make it pay

and don't quite see

myself a pauper

and wonder then if

I am just a weak dilletante

Stringing out a line

along a deadly mundane jaunt

what

2.4846 : 8/9/18 : The Plug

Need a better tactic

when I can't

be bothered

the long tyranny

and every

false start

it fathered

circling the plug

is kind of the nature

and me with nothing to fight it

but the same old

nomenclature

what

2.4845 : 8/8/18 : Blessed

Two drinks is one too many

and I'm feeling old

sure seemed to come on sudden

If I may be so bold

Still it all reminded me

I'm sure bound to feel blessed

when I can slow down, open eyes

attend and get unstressed

a great deal that is beautiful

great people I admire

and maybe on my better days

I too might just inspire

what

2.4844 : 8/7/18 : Who's Fault

Drub the bushes

shake the sheets

out looking

for grace

Ain't been feeling

so swell but

I've got to keep pace

Nothing's going to

slow down

nothing's going to halt

and nobody

gains a thing

getting a pin

in who's fault

what

2.4843 : 8/6/18 : A Raptor

What did I see today

the commute track

the box

the thoughts

revealed

would land me in the stocks

a raptor stuck

or crashed

or strangely standing

at a fence

called upon to justify

I would have

no defense

I better

open up my eyes

I better

harry out the lies

I better

get this angry

mind in check

as time is getting

thin as heck

what

2.4842 : 8/5/18 : Performance

Not my best performance

but it's been something

of a time

Even with my

full attention

you would say

I'm past my prime

guess I'll try to

redeem myself

though I got

full absolution

but I start piling

right up again

and the big grandstand

is no solution

what

2.4841 : 8/4/18 : Kick

Kick the game to the curb

and keep the can

gotta keep quick because

there's a coupon

can't you dig it man?

how it'll pan out

I'm predicting

the pigs will swim to the top

me I grow tough like a

lichen liking my chances

in this coming tide of slop

what

2.4840 : 8/3/18 : Behind

What the hell's

behind this now?

nothing ever

What it seems

go and date

the stuffings out

bring up Trump

and memes

nothing for

the ages here, folks

limping gamely on

might as well

be a pickle

get it kiddies?

blong!

what

2.4839 : 8/2/18 : Epic

What's the opposite of epic

not just quiet

not just small

trying tonight

to reach for it

what's the opposite

of all

somehow think

it's not just none

something that

won't translate

something

inexhaustible

something that

will innundate

what

2.4838 : 8/1/18 : Rainbow the Falls

The rainbow

the falls

moments

and thralls

if I could paint

a canvas

the trailbreak

the grand pass

in memory

far from the box

no money moves

no counting stocks

the memory

must now sustain

till falls again

bright summer rain

what

2.4837 : 7/31/18 : Month March

Soon the month march

better locate my starch

year countdown three two one

to where the back half

of my century begun

chuckle if you

did the math

if I made the whole next fifty

must for sure

have earned wrath

at this rate

guessing that's not my fate

and anyway

everyday it's just march

every year

some wrench will appear

to overarch

what

2.4836 : 7/30/18 : Resistor

Resistance peaking

could I yet break through

chased by a nightmare

where I lost

and failed you

what does that nemesis

represent

a ghost of the past

threat of

the present

to what end

this role as the resistor

am I boiling down

a signal

can I insist your

grand arrangement

promises some guiding

will my plodding walk

ever again feel

like gliding?

what

2.4835 : 7/29/18 : Routine

Spin up this

routine

brake the putdowns

what's left then

don't ask me clowns

divided attention

and looking to bail

since I gave up

on the holy grail

what

2.4834 : 7/28/18 : World Saver

That old World Saver

impulse

itching again

so darn silly

from this

hapless little terrapin

fires rage

swords keep rattling

whats your big idea again?

middle aged fatling

dumb as the lottery

as a mysterious rich patron

get caught in some

dumb antic

watch the network

get its hate on

does the world need

more or less saving

than ever in history?

probably not the question

needs answering

in this story

what

2.4833 : 7/27/18 : 3 Yr. Grind

I thought to plot

the three year grind

different this time

some shift in my mind

poke my head up

when I'm pushing fifty

ain't time's relentless

nature just nifty

one plan for the body

one plan for the call

one plan on earthly power

who else wants to have it all?

one plan for nature's sphere

dear to my heart

and the big one for the great axis

spirit song glory art

what

2.4832 : 7/26/18 : Free Day

Get a jump on

lowering the expectations

on the free day

thinking of the tales

old Bobby spun

check the mirror

no way

objects in my mind

are smaller

than they appear

Maybe for once

you could manifest

finally interfere

what

2.4831 : 7/25/18 : The Fall

Give up vision

give up quest

give up augery

surely you jest

give up self-improvement

replace with virtue

try for the high king

though the fall can hurt you

take up the pale words

savourless, mild

step forth in darkness

as one led by a child

what would it look like

how would I sound

Would I still always feel

like I was losing ground

what

2.4830 : 7/24/18 : Good Enough

Listening to other

people's stuff

thinking how I am

not good enough

that's sure note a

winning strategy

oh I'm up to bat

again oh gee

not trying very hard

So I can't be blamed

plus my old problem

got inflamed

good enough it

checks my only box

now another round

me versus clocks

what

2.4829 : 7/23/18 : Not Deep

Turn down

the anger

get more

sleep

eat better

move more

it's not deep

Would all things

fall into place

Would you see

there on my face

oh far off friend

that joy at last

seen in your dream

crazy years past

not smart not deep

but from the heart

would that be how

the next would start

what

2.4828 : 7/22/18 : Second Wind

Is there any real chance

at a second wind

getting tired of rolling

and the halfway mark though pinned

on the chart upon the wall

marks no real turning point

maybe uphill twice as steep

all while I still don't get the point

any chance at some renewal

of the sense at least it moves

feeling now like circling tracks

deeply rutted in blank grooves

easy enough to keep on

might be harder to desist

So far still not pulling that thread

but it's on the secret list

what

2.4827 : 7/21/18 : Grace

Oh I should

navigate this business

with more grace

and aplomb

shoulda found

a destiny

they'da called me

the bomb

I should get an early

turn in

get a fresh start

nothing's slowing down

and everything

falls apart

what

2.4826 : 7/20/18 : Go Fish

Ten minutes out

to starting to get

ridiculous

but I think

it'll all be fine

another might say

fabulous

go fish

maybe catch

nobody will mind

basically

starting from scratch

what

2.4825 : 7/19/18 : Won't

I don't want to

So I won't

You might care

but I'm guessing you don't

what

2.4824 : 7/18/18 : 3 Brief (3)

3 brief

3 briefest

time sure

the thiefest

one aim

go down quicker

figure soon how

to not get sicker

what

2.4823 : 7/17/18 : 3 Brief (2)

3 brief

descents

it matters still

briefly take on

the hatter's quill

by virtue of

one mad aproach

till all the darts

of life encroach

what

2.4822 : 7/16/18 : 3 Brief (1)

Time to quash hyperbole

This no descent to hell you see

Just common grief

the sadness up

And one more lap

to drink it up

Three brief repairs

Down in the loop

Last time recoup

what

2.4821 : 7/15/18 : Beat Goes On

I too can fairly say

the beat goes on

Just now don't want the day

to go too long

can't say I'm too jazzed

for the coming act

and if I get razzed

I deserve it in fact

what

2.4820 : 7/14/18 : Front

Watch them on the heights

a thousand floors

if it's two

me at eleven

I can explain the rest

do I have to

spell it out for you?

I can't get up

above the chop

The doldrum ocean's

set up shop

now let me take a break

look at them codgers

man can still front

a little heavy in the face

if I may be so blunt

Surely too late to start

can't scrape the loss up

some plan be please come forward

hey Eminence wassup?

what

2.4819 : 7/13/18 : Moth

Thing has no

direction

it's a restless

moth

illusion of

the restart

new, cut

from whole cloth

nothing to

pinpoint

no reference

sample

another week

to come

the same

evidence

is ample

what

2.4818 : 7/12/18 : Uncertainty

I studied the principle

pushing 30 years back

now a hundred million miles

away from having the knack

the math to form the inkling

the glimpse of the reveal

and better not to think

of what I let my stumbling

random path steal

there's commonplace uncertainty

awash at every turn

at least I've lost the taste

of being clever with the savage burn

that I saw it as a glimpse

of reality's stark resolution

fuzzing out just where

You might have thought

there's be that fine solution

what

2.4817 : 7/11/18 : Tether

Are the ends

growing together

will the next step

yank the tether

We no longer

see the other

me just father

you just mother

if I asked

oh really would you

Said I couldn't

oh but could you

knew it wouldn't

be tonight

and the when

is out of sight

what

2.4816 : 7/10/18 : Regimen

Finally get enough sleep

get on a gratitude regimen

frequent active breaks

could I be the specimen

so many tricks

that I never apply

meditate, eat great

will I ever be that guy

It just can't go on

the gnashing and grumbling

Where's the effect tho

of this truth to which I'm tumbling

the regimen sits

in its dusty box

and you'd be a fool

to invest in my stocks

what

2.4815 : 7/9/18 : Settle

Settle in

like I'm born to scrub

in a stolen moment

pathetic little dub

worrying about

my unruly tongue

pray one more outburst

goes unsung

pray the morningmen

carry off my leavings

dwindling sins

of various resleevings

pray the next hallway

ends in a door

oh the sorry little prayers

I settle for

what

2.4814 : 7/8/18 : Out of My Mind

can't much get the one thing

out of my mind

no hidden meanings here

just whining on the grind

forgot for a week

but it didn't forget me

and the sink and the swell

will aid and abet me

in being washed over

and soon well submerged

no big change in the offing

no transforming verged

I'm not out of my mind

oh I'm lucid and clear

once more into the running

try to be of good cheer

what

2.4813 : 7/7/18 : Usual Dog

So the usual dog

wants to bark and protest

So I put what I've got

saying just give it a rest

it's nice getting back

back back to normal

so though I didn't have time

to engrave nothing formal

welcome back problems

welcome back job

anyway you're mine

though at times rough as a cob

 

2.4812 : 7/6/18 : Paint a Picture

If I could paint a picture

because beauty is everywhere

from the highest falls

to the mist in the air

And the things I let drag me down

drift and shift like the fog

If I only could hold steady

pursue fidelity like analog

I'll lose the thread again

distracted by society static

and I'll drag out of that again

as long as I have a few bats left in my attic

Thinking about the ones past

the ones with so much left

I guess the losing is the warp

the beauty is the weft

what

2.4811 : 7/5/18 : Lament

Something in the water

something in the fare

or just how the trouble

finds you everywhere

the habits you know

just can't continue

no sign of the kingdom

of God within you

and no justification

for another lament

in a week I'll be wondering

how the time got spent

what

2.4810 : 7/4/18 : Freedom

Good God don't

ger me started

on freedom the word

generally seems departed

can't stop there of course

but I earned my pause

half baked but then

not expecting applause

what

2.4809 : 7/3/18 : Sheer Forgetting

Neat trick if you can pull it off

Sheer forgetting

lose that corner of my mind

I'm always subletting

wasting time and

being so very smart

I blow it off

chalk it all up to

the restart

what

2.4808 : 7/2/18 : Rough Night

A rough night

but then things went okay

hope to hook little

bit of perspective

to stay

and not demand much

of the nightly report

everyone's entitled

to a little summer sport

what

2.4807 : 7/1/18 : Witching

This spell is old

its virtue all but gone

and what I'm muttering

is neither poem nor song

And what I've been brewing's

a check I dare not cash

and so so sick

of the same old hash

I can check out

It'll come back tomorrow

and even I'm embarassed

to call the thing sorrow

but it's a weight to be sure

and whether time will tell

is a crystal ball clouded

impervious to any spell

what

2.4806 : 6/30/18 : Angry Candy

No more angry candy

from your loving cup

dumbass think-o-sphere

does its old tear it up

back in that library

that lives now in my dreams

death and love and loss

and memory, all such themes

Did I ever write that letter?

can't really recall

started it I'm sure

sure it doesn't matter at all

what now? you guessed nothing

or so I seem to think

but I hope for everything

from crazy soup to kitchen sink

what

2.4805 : 6/29/18 : Freak Out

So I got to freak out

but real real quiet

looking like a month or so

a steady diet

pray to believe

I'll come through clean

Whatever in the world

I think that would mean

what

2.4804 : 6/28/18 : Straw

That last straw is no joke

When you're the camel

I must have a breaking point

like any other mammal

If I told the tale

oh you'd laugh

I will someday I guess

but it's not the night by half

it doesn't hang together

there's no common thread

clammy and restless

and way too far from bed

making mistakes old and new

and at the crux

I'm just worn out and blue

what

2.4803 : 6/27/18 : Dream Train

Watching the dream train

the summer

the fall

The spring all past

want to see them all

the horror show bombs

the sci fi fandango

the old dismal future

where does all the pain go

load up on the dream train

and shot up in lights

like the whole thing

all the bright

fancy flights

what

2.4802 : 6/26/18 : White Noise

Record every bit of it

end to end

So low so fast

load up hit send

reduced in fidelity

sounds just like white noise

call it performance

are ya feelin' me boys

I wouldn't have the slightest

what to do on a stage

or if a wealthy barfly

offered to buy a page

So I feel so lucky

the secret gets kept

and it's like the white noise

grew a story while I slept

 

2.4801 : 6/25/18 : Lofi

Doing callbacks

and look still lofi

hark back on bad old days

I was a solo guy

and really really

better to be happy

get back to the old style

not be so rappy

and get back to

when I stood guard on crumbs of hope

and stood a little firmer

on yon slippery slope

what

2.4800 : 6/24/18 : Limps

The little thought zaps

the creative juice

rarely follows through

just can't get loose

knowing just what

tomorrow brings

It limps along

and nothing sings

Keep walking

get on with it

when it's gone

you just might miss it

and oh I'll still be

limping along

maybe somehow

get strong

what

2.4799 : 6/23/18 : My Fancy

Whatever strikes my fancy

so I check in getting antsy

I've been phoning it in

Maybe I'm honing a pin

to pop this grown up bubble

probably not, not up for trouble

but I'll let things flow tonight

and just trust things will be all right

what

2.4798 : 6/22/18 : The Young Dilettante

The on and on

the gypsy roll

the moonlight mile

all takes its toll

the tale of

the young dilettante

grown old and ragged

no spring jaunt

vow to turn to

the other path

I've seen the future

done the math

I'll foreswear demons

seek the light

that endless road

won't be my plight

what

2.4797 : 6/21/18 : Silly Affair

Blew a boiing rant

an some silly affair

But it got me past the

doom thoughts so there

and I'll box up that

silly era too

maybe maybe at last

the circuit's coming through

what

2.4796 : 6/20/18 : Write Good

Write good, I guess

I must obey

take every literal

word you say

picking favorites

it's a deep pool fair

or maybe just wide and shallow

hard to tell hout there

in my heart I fear

I'm in the heads down pack

evil runs around again

and I am seeking slack

yet get well bucked

every time I hit the box

If I could only harness

shift it all

in my own stocks

what

2.4795 : 6/19/18 : Squawk

Get all multitasky

meanwhile

life's got pretty

mask-y

once again or maybe

I just like the pose

this grindy

isn't me

or else it gets the hose

not finding

much else to be

there goes that

road I don't like

miss the days

I rode around on my bike

waiting on my own

signal

full of big talk

still feels like the cycle

So listen to me squawk

what

2.4794 : 6/18/18 : Peaks

The mysteries of

the peaks

Stats are all

fakes

Obscurity speaks

louder than

silence

turn off yes

pass by friends

it's still

going on

oh it all takes so long

what

2.4793 : 6/17/18 : Screens

Try to give advice

befitting my state

not feeling so fatherly

not doing so great

too much poking

at the stupid screens

we're all like goldfish

and who knows what it means

spending money

that's not in the bank

give the Man more tether

so he gives me a yank

No idea what I'd do

with that suitcase of cash

except I guess to leave

the younger version a stash

what

2.4792 : 6/16/18 : Dissolved

Smuggle an apple through

the gates of lost time

next up my day so called

so what's on my dime

come strike a blow

against the darkness of the heart

They'll never know

whence came the signal

for the start

paid out in pieces

hammered out the silver strand

I looked behind and

saw no fooprints in the sand

those were the times

before and after

He pulled a straight face

then we both

dissolved in laughter

what

2.4791 : 6/15/18 : Boat

Give me a glad hand

give me a boat

give me a chance

to shove my cha cha

down your throat

not what it sounds like

I just want you to dance

And this is barely a thought

and barely a stance

what

2.4790 : 6/14/18 : Dregs

Copy of a copy

The lines getting soft

like me in this room

unlikely to get aloft

the same ay oh ay ho

is it my best heigh ho

should I mix it up

or drain the dregs in the cup

the blurring gets deeper

who knows what's a keeper

So I keep them all

though the shine seems to pall

snap back up the line

one more copy to make

and the pity of course

is it all I can take

the same ah oh ay ho

is it my best heigh ho

should I mix it up

or drain the dregs in the cup

what

2.4789 : 6/13/18 : Printing Money

Soon as I

dial this disease in

I'll be printing money

sure they howled when

I slipped the tease in

what were you thinking honey

Still quite sure I'm

destined to be a winner

inches from the master plan

cheap destiny

will serve up a rich dinner

'Neath the flutes of a plaster Pan

what

2.4788 : 6/12/18 : Trinket

Little trinket half half plans

I toy aound

surely need changes

not much on the ground

half thoughts daydreams

little ideas

belie mundane existence

not half as free as

happy little clouds

afloat in the sky

and the trinket's getting

dusty as the days pass by

what

2.4787 : 6/11/18 : Wind the Watch

Count on my fingers

Wind the watch

every last toss

comes up a scotch

how's it ever

going to come up aces

will I ever again

feel I'm going places

what

2.4786 : 6/10/18 : Lease

just try to find

the spark of hope

maybe like a

periscope

glance above

this turbid swamp

far away from

glitz and pomp

seems so simple

as you say

only love

not fade away

only grant

a rest of peace

one more step on

in this brief lease

what

2.4785 : 6/9/18 : Way of Peace

oh show me

the way of peace

this ugly era

show me an exit please

useful work

rest at day's end

won't you show me?

Neighbor? Friend?

what

2.4784 : 6/8/18 : The Axe

The axe is swinging

felling heroes

more the burden

on all us zeros

Wish I could say

I knew the magic word

to turn it around

but I've never heard

what

2.4783 : 6/7/18 : Little Shop

Just want a mild obsession

to found a little shop

A place to eke out the remainder

come out nowhere near the top

likely well past halfway

closer to two thirds

today I'd say this latter stretch

is strictly for the birds

what

2.4782 : 6/6/18 : Seven Years On

Seven years on

I should express gratitude

I mainly beat the new worm

and less pain's no platitude

Some long hard years

plenty of blood

mystified as to the cause of it

way out clear as mud

of course the grind came in

stole most of the gain

pulled out of the red spiral

So much for less random pain

but I've got to be real

and give a real thanks

at least until life

pulls the next of its unholy pranks

what

2.4781 : 6/5/18 : The Order

Trying to get the order right

how to step down retire from the fight

Daybreak must take it up again

armed with nothing but a pen

I pine I'll fall into a trance

and dream at last my own true dance

the work that feels like coming home

but daytime smashes it to foam

and then I try just to accept

nothing much ever came when I slept

and what I got was what there is

and still the pining dream worlds fizz

what

2.4780 : 6/4/18 : No Magical Place

You go down the rabbit hole fast

It's no magical place

it's a blast from the past

and the present and

help me the future too

I daydream again

about escape with you

I need I need to smother this toxic seed

this angry ghost

this ersatz need

stop looking in the dead wrong places

seek the lower ground

the watery traces

If I put my hands together

bowed to the floor

If I kept my face to the wall

will you show me the door

If I edge out of this hole

a wriggle at a time

stay alert to the revert

and on tiptoes for the chime

what

2.4779 : 6/3/18 : The Mundane

Give half attention

the ranter the mocker

pointed at me

time is the stalker

dragging me along

back into the fray

call it the mundane

just a day to day

where does the time go

I know precisely

I'd tell you at length

if you'd just ask nicely

but that's not your schtick

I might well succumb

mooching holding my dick

what

2.4778 : 6/2/18 : No Plotting

No plotting

no vision tonight

no recalling a brief

glint of hope, bright

down in the tunnel

virtual realm

yet another notion

someone else at the helm

one more thing

to feel bad about

like I had options

like I had clout

closed up shop

gone and forgotten

back to earth mundane

and no more plotting

what

2.4777 : 6/1/18 : Chores

So much for that

back on my head

guess I did enough

no time for instead

all I want now

is to finish the chores

sweep out the chaff

and shut the doors

what

2.4776 : 5/31/18 : Hand Crafted

Twist a few more up

handcrafted I pour up

a bitter witchbrew warlock

a man of peace I uncock

the piece I won't posess

I won't add to this mess

the peace past understanding

let me put up with underhanding

underlings all lying

still many many dying

putting up won't cut it

but I don't know how so shut it

what

2.4775 : 5/30/18 : Rage Funk

Better the toil for sure

than the rage funk

not the good kind no

but the dumb junk

how I take a little

time back

not quite redeemed

but I'll take slack

what

2.4774 : 5/29/18 : Hits

I'm rolling under punches

I must keep

the hits coming

keep singing

keep writing

keep tapping

keep drumming

When it always feels

like so so what

up to my ears

in nonsense

and scut

holding my tongue

my nose

and my horses

don't rush through it

as hits

cruise through the courses

what

2.4773 : 5/28/18 : As Usual

Feeling the effects

as usual

late nights

indulgence

nothing unusual

thinking this time

to pull up quicker

guess I still

loved sickness

why else get sicker

no research

no deep searching

no mulling and dwelling

toward what portal

I'm lurching

keep things simple

damn for once

stick it spike it

forward on all fronts

what

2.4772 : 5/27/18 : Riddle

As we close in on

the beginning of the middle

getting lazy

giving a shrug invoke the riddle

an inkling tickles

but it's not like there's a pulpit

for a gospel I might preach

and anyway

I'm just a culprit

in this seven billion lineup

no no's stand out in the crowd

however I might quietly

however I might loud

try to ring a bell

or flash a little light

better start something small

as well befits

my dim insight

what

2.4771 : 5/26/18 : On Base

Did I hit any home runs

seems like a long time

try to get on base

wait for the song chime

try to work the pause

try to change the script

keep my mind away

from where the story slipped

keep my mind away

from how the plays get ripped

always another day

and watch the page get flipped

what

2.4770 : 5/25/18 : Launch

Launch into

this passage

with perfect intent

all bad thoughts

shall get

well bent

keep balance

rest and work

still a few tricks

in this

middle age turk

be my grubby self

not pristine

but the coin I

pull out will be

perfectly clean

what

2.4769 : 5/24/18 : Consistency

Chasing conistency and scope

chasing the imp of a reserve

Don't know if I'm just stringing out the rope

If there's anything more I deserve

I try to balance out the sides

stay open challenge comfort

still some uneasiness abides

deep down I'm searching for some fort

Something to fortify, provision

something to arm and entrench

easier before when I though I had vision

and only thought to hurl in the odd wrench

what

2.4768 : 5/23/18 : Contraption

Soaped the hours away

on the modern

idiot contraption

this old war brain

is tired

been a long time

since it's seen real action

I know just why

they cloister

in the ivory towers

I lost my least

on decades since

and seldom

taste those powers

but there's no use

crying over

spilled opportunity

dust off the old

contraption

try to find a new community

what

2.4767 : 5/22/18 : On Point

Am I on point

i get so easily astray

The principle

of just a little

every day

seems to be losing

ground to entropy

another morning

dragged awake, dopey

if I can only

stick on a point

ready for striking

when time's the joint

what

2.4766 : 5/21/18 : There Was an Attempt

There was an attempt

to make measure

of just how far I strayed

from my true treasure

of how long an extension

I bought for the latest

series of contemplations

how I still could be the greatest

Someday sure I'll count the cost

write out a list of every item tossed

but today I'll write a zero

and start the count

five by five supplied

a fair amount

what

2.4765 : 5/20/18 : Ask

Don't ask

and I'm not telling

no tale or portent

the runes are spelling

no current interest

in the outcome

just want to finish

as the state is loathsome

what

2.4764 : 5/19/18 : 7

Seven years

and I can puzzle

over which

effort to rise

above

ended up in what ditch

and different's

the same

change means nil

I can puzzle

over which

dry swallowed bitter pill

what

2.4763 : 5/18/18 : Murder Mill

The murder mill

then the news machine

and nobody

will ever ever

get out clean

people stop talking about

that thing called change

it was only a rumor

and we've all turned strange

nobody wants to think

where we hit the twist

all feel we might be

culpable

and dream no

answer but

a clenched fist

what

2.4762 : 5/17/18 : Taking It

Mad as hell

and taking it daily

protesting frailty

under a spell

worth achievement

what will fulfill

the fear nothing will

hold off the bereavement

on pins and needles

one spun off the cuff

made of sterner stuff

and pitch forward heedless

what

2.4761 : 5/16/18 : Glutted

Glutted on the

quick fix of the wire

it'll all come to nothing

the opposite of inspire

hard to feel the chance

of a reckoning

reversal or correction

and nothing much is beckoning

what

2.4760 : 5/15/18 : Plank

Never know

if the next step

is walking the plank

Here I go

anyway

likely breaking the bank

well it's felt

pretty tapped

not much like getting there

all on edge

waiting to step

and only feeling air

what

2.4759 : 5/14/18 : Get Ahead

And now I think I see my chance

toe get ahead of the game

that I know is an illusion

but I chase it just the same

and if I do each thing just right

somehow pans out to the same

There's no ahead because there's

nothing but the game the game the game

While I cling to hope like a crazy hoarder

to think we used to laugh about the new world order

never imagined it could get so dumb and mean

to think I used to think I served the truth machine

that's enough that's where

I put my foot on the chalk mark

you better believe I will soliloquy

fall back before resolve so stark

In some sense I have stayed

one step ahead some way somehow

I'm hardly tearing up the scene

yet I've made it up to now

what

2.4758 : 5/13/18 : Sleeper

For a hot minute got fired up

to go deeper

Plumb those hidden depths

the real summer sleeper

but while I toiled, the depths

sank out of sight

Left with the obvious

Call that the usual plight

Briefly sought a rhythm

briefly thought a rhyme

but I only get to work

what I've got

when it's time

and so so seldom

find a real refrain

and the sleeper slumbers hidden

the conclusion is plain

but I won't disdain

say I failed the mark

however small however lodged

in the deepest crack I fan the flame

what