2.3172 : 1/08/14 : What Gave

What gave?

if I could fly through time

circle my singularity

as neatly as a dime

I said oh something's gotta

how I'd love to know what might

but I won't figure it out

well not tonight

what

2.3171 : 1/07/14 : Christ Usurp the Thorn

Christ usurp the thorn in me

return me to the joy that's free

When you're sufficient over all

it's then I hear your highest call

I'm weak and lost inside of pain

restore me to your way again

peace and perspective, simple joy

the sting of every thorn destroy

bid me be thankful, honest, just

Give me to thoughtfulness and trust

true freedom's your sufficiency

and peace surround this thorn in me

what

2.3170 : 1/06/14 : Hunger

Can't whine about the hunger

all self-imposed

explaining cold to those

so terribly exposed

yet it creeps through all

and drifts from every pore

and there's even a strange beast within

Who hisses more and more

what

2.3169 : 1/05/14 : Worm Without End

Same as it ever was

worm without end

one day will make an end of me

and then what worms to send?

When in disgrace with fortune

and can't get social hits

I wonder at the portion

that the worm gets

God where's a next sign

I am a worm and no man

only one exit and

I must avoid it if I can

I've got promises to keep

and responsibilities

So if you'd just dial back a bit

illuminate my abilities

If you'd just this once

give me a leg up on the worm

but I begin to think

you just delight to see me squirm

what

2.3168 : 1/04/14 : Tower

I set myself up

on a tower of reproach

my anger at a lifetime

of flying coach

these aspirations

I can't justify

this meaty beam

all up in my eye

So I lack humility

a sense of scale

So I'm not a stoic

yet I lack the will to wail

hell if you could hold a prince up

on that pretty hair

you'd think a smart boy

could let himself down from there

(Tower of Reproach: 2)

what

2.3167 : 1/03/14 : Expiration

What's the opposite

of inspiration

expiration

Sure I shoot

above my station

get me on the script team

for the rendezvous

let me tell

the tale for you

and these parts don't fit

but give me time

I'll put it all up

on your dime

what

2.3166 : 1/02/14 : Sign

Sign of the cross

I've got the sign of the pen

maybe everything that could be

must eventually happen

I don't even know

if that's horror or glory

So what in hell

could possibly wind up this story

the worm is strong in me

it turns and turns

these days they praise disruption

but all whistle when it burns

signs of the times they say

no signal for a halt

the way all things just have to go

and surely no one's fault

what

2.3165 : 1/01/14 : The Thorn

The thorn sought to derail me

from day one

I said you'll have no piece

for I have just begun

and pain can't

tear through beauty's veil

doesn't make it easy

doesn't rosy up the pale

But it brings me back

to all there ever is

and you'll agree

a bit of clever biz

I push the thorn

all the way through

and through the hole

the light shines right to you

what

2.31634: 12/31/13 : Before the Party

Before the party

in the quiet of the night

vow to make something nice

to bathe in the light

tonight tonight tonight

I'll commit my soul

and swear to scorn every regret

and smile through every toll

I hearby pledge

my life to beauty

regardless of the price

necessity exacts

Oh prince of dark designs

I do hereby refute thee

and declare this book henceforth

to be my Book of Acts

what

2.3163 : 12/30/13 : Wrong

Feels like all you can trust is

your every impulse is wrong

the wrong time to get creative

the wrong time to sing a song

the wrong time to dig your heels in

and pick a fight

you're a true freak of nature

at never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits inside one hand

Why can't I just swallow it

always make nice

Why after giving up

every natural vice

do I still wind up blinking

in the single hours of night

awestruck at my capacity

of never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits in one hand

what

2.3162 : 12/29/13 : Sweep

A sweep is possible

I have to believe it all

what words cannot contain

What's shaken

and what does remain

For those who can't

be satisfied

the moral code

unratified

not unfinished

not uncorrected

unstarted, wholly

undirected

Who could then

wield the broom

these clumsy hands

could sweep in doom

and so wait cursed

by little hope

the mess remains

and we just cope

what

2.3161 : 12/28/13 : Possess the Heart

Does wealth possess

The heart of this world

it was the question

and the thought that whirled

And if I got some

being lucky or oh so smart

Would it possess would it possess

my heart?

I thought I thought

I thought of gold

forever bought

forever sold

possesses many hearts

Who have none at all

and that's it's cruelest trick;

our steepest fall

what

2.3160 : 12/27/13 : Impossible

There's no sense crying

over impossible dreams

but we do, but we do, but we do

It's terrible to think

nothing's ever what it seems

but it's true, but it's true, yes it's true

And I'm forever saying

everything will be all right

it's a lie, it's a lie, it's a lie

that gets spit back at me

through the teeth of the night

pass it by, pass it by, just a sigh

When we say nothing is impossible

all it means is we won't give up

no one ever did the impossible

the definition of the half full cup

I pine and fret for

my impossible dream

I'm a fool, I'm a fool, I'm a fool

If I could see right in front of me

I wouldn't try to step out of the stream

You're so cool, you're so cool, you're so cool

When we say nothing is impossible

what

2.3159 : 12/26/13 : And Joy

And joy could be

our dividend

our principle

of capital

the joyful might

conclude the old

thing had no true

value at all

perspective just

might be the cure

for craving power;

glittering heaps

pure moments of

the true pristine

might launch our ships

by bounds and leaps

and rather than

a sword king bent

on darkness to

destroy

the tale that launches

my ship may

just be a

parable of joy

what

2.3158 : 12/25/13 : Hark

What with

living in the city

I've gotten

oh so sophisticated

don't my voice

sound pretty

and my words

finely articulated

but in the night

I dream of a world gone dark

and awake I think

his world could use a little hark

Wake up

this thing is still a fight

and good is far

from winning

If you believe

in light

it's not the final inning

everywhere is a stand

and a choice stark

and the word I heard

was hark

what

2.3157 : 12/24/13 : Peace On Earth

So you figured out how to wage

a world war

What the locks

on the smallest things of all

were for

So try not to fall down

and roll with mirth

When I declare my objective

is peace on earth

Oh I'm very small

I've no influence

Oh I'm not famous

I'm scarcely of consequence

but this pearl in my hand

you'll be surprised by its worth

and this night I start the bargaining

for Peace on Earth

what

2.3156 : 12/23/13 : Content

Should I become

a content man

fill the buckets

drive the plan

the ship's corrupt

but so's it all

someone's got

to have the content ball

could I persuade

a million clods

one versus 7 thousand

how you like them odds

with only content

mightier than swords

or so they said

armed with their words

what

2.3155 : 12/22/13 : Filler

Too much filler

and thus comes the night

pitch black

freezing

brain's in a sort of twilight

all I want's a miracle

a suitcase of cash

all I want's a

whirlwind

to blow away the trash

and leave every single

thing precious to me intact

give me those little things

and then I'll act

what

2.3154 : 12/21/13 : Pearls

The irritants get buried in

the flesh of more experience

the gloss accretes around the points

acceptance maybe mere avoidance

pull back the fog of time

will some bright beauty shine there

maybe for the chosen ones

the rest may best not mine there

My minds eye whirls I think of pearls

and maybe I refuse to dive

the depths the tender moments' spurs

those times when I was all alive

what

2.3153 : 12/20/13 : Hat Trick

Hat trick

watch me

not caring

not trying

not daring

not really true

but it'll do for a lark

It's just my life's

Such a walk in the park

what

2.3152 : 12/19/13 : Eradicate

Eradicate self-reference

hey I see what I did there

hell I haven't felt this weak

since I let that bitch cut my hair

retreat from inner dialog

pull down the steady state

we'll see what's left to talk about

after all I eradicate

the hemming and the hawing

Of I know not what I know not where

I'll root out every trace of it

come watch the show: you'll gawp and stare

and most of all eradicate

the last shred of self doubt

this tower of reproach

my stand: and this swine culture's rout

(Tower of Reproach: 1)

what

2.3151 : 12/18/13 : Done to Me

Between what I do to myself

and what's done to me

Well lately not a lot

Seems like fun to me

If that's a weak complaint

well here's one more true

I got a hell of a lot worse

but I won't bore you

what

2.3150 : 12/17/13 : Beginning and Not Beginning to Begin

Don't call it wasted

since I wouldn't sell it

at any price

I should have tasted

more by now

I should have been there twice

and there were many mornings

beginning, and not

beginning to begin

and there were clear signs

and knocking, tapping

Let me in

I won't pronounce

upon a day

non one hour old

but I'll announce

for all my turnings

Your indifference is cold

what

2.3149 : 12/16/13 : False

So many

false starts

but were they

Did we figure out

who called it

are we sure they

Stopped the clock

or was it

started

as I sit here

broken hearted

maybe if I'd

started at

seventeen

but didn't I

didn't I just though

maybe if I'd

ever quit

anything clean

well there was that

one time

if you must know

what

2.3148 : 12/15/13 : Speaking

Struck by how I should treat

whereof I would not speak

Stuck on how I could see

what has truly come to my hands

I should sing of young love

heroism's lofty peak

God and love of the homelands

But I'm stuck on the top

Where my thoughts are seeking

and the moment's fierce now

blows all words to the wind

where my thoughts write words large

but they're scarcely worth speaking

and the shuddering void

knocked rang clattered and dinned

what

2.3147 : 12/14/13 : White Flag

Is that a battle cry

or a white flag

we're all mixed up

by the white stag

sure fairytales sure

superstition

but the longing persists

and dreams of sweet fruition

what

2.3146 : 12/13/13 : Reinvention (II)

While I study reinvention

I am hating everything

surely a failure state

missing on every swing

is it just the dogs at the door

is it this inner curse

have to confess that part

has never been much worse

this slumps like years before

another set of books

a litany of askance

old ways that set their hooks

what would I have the future

hold instead of that rut

won't pierce it in a day

a year will make the cut

what

2.3145 : 12/12/13 : The Plebs Flip the Channel

When do you allow

That the wheels are off

how do you distinguish

from the same old same old

You look at me

as I bow my head and cough

And the plebs flip the channel

and dream of gold

I say it's different

in quantity and quality

and maybe our attitudes

that one I'm still chewing

but the degree to which

they derailed the polity

the old rules are all broken

so forgive me for eschewing

what

2.3144 : 12/11/13 : Undisciplined

Experiment's showing

I'm undisciplined

sorta does explain

the type of fix I'm in

can I turn it round

well I sometimes have

I don't have it quite right

but here I'll take a stab

what

2.3143 : 12/10/13 : Wisdom

Got so taken up

with the lure of filthy gold

forgot myself

and my mission of old

forgot the one

for whom I long

Wisdom

oh how I once sought your song

true I wouldn't shirk

responsibility

sure but so I missed

the cutting of the sacred tree

when I longed for refuge

in the dark and dread

Wisdom did you still

reach a bower over my head

If I'm on a track

I'm not feeling it

If there's a line I don't

know who's unreeling it

waiting for the lord to ask

again who should he send

Oh wisdom are you still

waiting 'round the bend?

what

2.3142 : 12/09/13 : Outline

briefly I saw

edges of

the new shape

the doubt and

dismay

the tingling hairs on my nape

so many places

claimed to

transmit thinking's art

true I saw

the outline

Still had no idea where to start

what

2.3141 : 12/08/13 : Experiment

Only thing on my mind

will the experiment book?

will I learn anything

besides I'm still on the hook

did anyone ever get hoisted

on someone else's petard

question of the day

for an unemployed bard

the experiment is meant

to shine a light but where

can't scrape by much longer

with it all in the air

So I chip chip away

Pray I'm making a dent

Pray I get real results for once

for the experiment

what

2.3140 : 12/07/13 : Roll

Roll for initiative

roll to save

I'd be embarrassed to admit

how many fucks I gave

and what's this now

it's not as if I don't care

but effort seems irrelevant

so at another flash I stare

roll versus poison

roll to dodge

If I could find the right number

I've a complaint to lodge

I tell stories worse

than when I was thirteen

pray what the hell

is that supposed to mean?

what

2.3139 : 12/06/13 : Potato

I think my brain

is a cold boiled potato

its hot phase long past

now a blob of beige play dough

they were good days my friend

thinking thoughts so pretty

now a pound of my gray cells

isn't worth three fifty

oh it's probably depression

it's just low self-esteem

I just need a good night's sleep

I just run out of steam

what

2.3138 : 12/05/13 : Deserve

Because you deserve

a greater nation

I will behave as if

this is the early days

of transition, transformation

stranger things may

have happened

in unknown unrecorded days

stories of great deluge

and visitation

We don't know but

they might be

hints from great sages

and we may never get

straightforward explanations

but I'll behave

as if it's barely

the beginning of ages

what

2.3137 : 12/04/13 : White Night

White knight

nobody wants you

saving anything here

hang up your golden helm

is that perfectly clear

I'm walking out

on the job of world saving

that nobody asks for

and of which I was incapable

I am micronized by the world

And the world is micronized by the cosmos

And the future is inescapable

How could I have known

that perspective has just grown

within the great cosmic stage

So vast it seems to swallow the light

On my speck while I slept

my hands down favorite

covalent bipolar elemental

learned geometry from entropy

and hidden in darkness

kissed my world

with a white night

what

2.3136 : 12/03/13 : Post Ism

All category lost

even life

even right

no concept

all convention and others I could mention

You cannot build

a house on stilts

on abstract sand

You ask me what's real

look baby

my right hand

post neologistic

post exceptionalistic

post cinematic prism

kneel then raise your eyes

up to the great Post Ism

If mind is will

and will is thrill

What will you do when

I let the pre-Kingdom Come spill

ride at your own risk

because you will get wet

and I have no Idea

what I'm going to get

what

2.3135 : 12/02/13 : Flow

Why can't I find

the place I flow

why can't I find

my holy source

and then it turns

all upside down

I'm an ungrateful

wretch of course

the world got harder

while I tried to soften up

and what I tapped

seems there's no call for

and providence

seems disinclined to fill this cup

So you tell me

what was that all for

I think I've got to

really tear into this this time

get underneath

two decades' build up

can't come up

until I really have that pump primed

and I'm truly

steeled to meet this world I willed up

what

2.3134 : 12/01/13 : Inside

Shook down some old stacks

Some that weren't mine

I was praying for something

What I got was a sign

not in a manner of speaking

not in a metaphor

It wasn't my interpretation

Still it hit me like a swinging door

all the wonderful things

all the things I seek

have to believe in what's inside myself

have to believe I'll get a peek

Why would anyone believe now

that real change is in the wings

there's an insider on our side

who tells me things

I wish I had a few good days under my belt

I wish I hadn't let a few things slide

try my best to be perfect from now

for tomorrow's pledge to look inside inside

what

2.3133 : 11/30/13 : Just World

To reject superstition

must I allow there is no just world

pity my poor cranium

against that blank brick wall I heaved and hurled

am I an unrefined hick

can't fathom justice not delivered from on high

and injustice is manifest

and our ideals seem twelve times further than the sky

the worm turns again

move fool I used to think it mattered which way

another purge of the system

and all superstitious it is for a fresh start I'll pray

what

2.3132 : 11/29/13 : La La Land

For someone who decided

to commit to the present

I sure spent an awful

long damn time in La La Land

Oh I sang tough sure about

the ones easy to flip

I sang real tough about

the curse of the everyman

I don't like to rely on providence

I'm a guy who doesn't ignore evidence

But when you find the well of the real full dry

you're apt to ignore the beam in your eye

Turned out not single soul prayed hard enough

to live forever and get all the stuff

And if ask me my bright eyes have started to pall

At the thought it works out that way at all

So forgive me if I just

Check in for another tour

in lovely La La Land

If you want to reach me

it's a simple affair

You just make sure you

show up with the bird right in your hand

what

2.3131 : 11/28/13 : To Try

Dull but what else

simply to try

Infiltrate the real

flow don't just pass by

Is this it

is it happening

how do you tell

the riddle wraps a mystery

and probably just as well

when it clicks

you don't ask just

groove

when the music

dries up all

all you can do is move

I try to believe

but stumbling blocks

are thick

who put them

all there

Oh not to care

that's the final

trick

what

2.3130 : 11/27/13 : Chorus

Tired of banging on about

the daily portion

while every Greek chorus

squawks the same exhortation

be here now

but where is here?

and just what the hell's so special

about now

each talk but out here

on the shattering edge

it takes more than chorus

fortune cookies to talk you down

from the ledge

and there's no action

in this great sacred present

anyway and hey at this point

I think I'm entitled to

a little

resentment

what

2.3129 : 11/26/13 : The Hit

I'm lazy so I'll just

get all meta and sing

about the hit

I'm sure I'll lighten up

someday real soon

and get around to writing it

I'll no doubt figure out

how to make that crazy vidya

on a shoe string

it'll solve all my problems

make a million

yeah and just fix everything

I'll be that guy

they'll have me on all the shows

make me do the dance

they'll be so bored

with my little family

they'll want to see a little dark romance

you'll all get bored

even the parodies and covers

will dry up

my sophomore's swing

will leave a trail of merchandise

no one will buy up

in ten years they'll say

where is he now

the guy who wrote the one hit

Oh I'll save every check

it's nothing more than I'd expect

the sign will say he done split

what

2.3128 : 11/25/13 : Face First

Plan something clever

wind up face first

Plan the winning run

end up in place worst

forgot the follow through

and fucking ate it

should laugh it off

but I just scowl and hate it

what

2.3127 : 11/24/13 : Phantasms as Bad as Phantoms

Phantasms as bad as phantoms

at the brink of every doing

Sure the human race is haunted

All our lofty schemes ungluing

Try to tell me that it matters

If it's all just in my head

And so it goes and so who knows

So every day we make this bed

Can't believe I'm on this cusp again

of taking up the pen

am I really talking this talk

trying out this mask again

no of course I never really stopped

of course I do it every day

but oh to hear what dread phantasms

as bad as phantoms have to say

I won't make a single promise

I won't even offer odds

but I'll crack at it a useless hour

or two hey it's no crime ye gods

let it be the first or last

hell I don't even care which one

maybe just the next delusion

let it be as long as it's begun

what

2.3126 : 11/23/13 : Mr. Zero

I'm so happy to be

starting out as Mr. Zero

halfway through

maybe halfway hero

halfway through or

maybe more or maybe much less

pardon me

pardon me if I digress

It's a state of grace

oh don't you know

such rich nothing

my what zero

I'm so happy to be

starting out at square

hm I guess it's zero

Look how you can't help but stare

what

2.3125 : 11/22/13 : Wheel of Ghostly Function

I'd like to think this fresh affliction

might make some junction

but I fear it's just a spoke

On this great wheel of ghostly function

and I'm tired tired tired

and the pain is abundant

and just now anyway

prayer and planning seem redundant

Oh I could go on and on

like that damn spectral wheel

make up another last stand

make another sweet appeal

I could go on hiatus

and hell I could just quit

Despite the wheel's dire shadow though

I will not even think of it

what

2.3124 : 11/21/13 : Twitch

I got to get to

the bottom of this twitch

probably too late

for a timely stitch

but enough is enough

turn of the switch

leave it to tomorrow

for another wild pitch

what

2.3123 : 11/20/13 : Chatter

Feeling the chatter

feeling the stir

goodness does it scatter

goodness does it whir

I try to tame it

I try to be passive

I have to claim it

failure is massive

If it's never quiet

for a minute no

my squirming is a riot

no but i'n'it, tho

if you shut it up

you wonder at what half you lost

but I think I could fill that cup

at half the cost

what

2.3122 : 11/19/13 : Numbers and Signs

I played a million games

with numbers and signs

said I was ready to step up

Soon as every star aligns

hunting patterns you know

it's just our nature

If you roll up in the middle

of mine you better state your

business are you part

of the pattern the plan

are you the one I've been waiting for

the teacher, the man

take my hand

we're walking away from

the numbers the signs

from quick fixes, tricks the

ponzi schemes and anodynes

what

2.3121 : 11/18/13 : Inventory

I signed up for the inventory

I wrote the check

I'm not a hundred percent

but what the heck

Don't know how little

Don't know how late

I'm just telling myself

It will be great

In the dark arcs of the night

I sigh and sigh

So much can never happen

So much can pass you by

Hey a day's a day

And you'll sure hear the story

Of this next big push

now starting with the inventory

what

2.3120 : 11/17/13 : Bail Out

No one will buy

the bail out

and far too many

still might fail out

may I buy the optimism

of a half dozen hence

I fear I hear a voice

of experience

and if it's a bailout

the plane's going to crash

So I'll hang on to that stick

now watch me thrash

what

2.3119 : 11/16/13 : Tragedy

Are we all cooking

an earth sized tragedy

oh is it just what's

been going on forever

oh it's nice to be

a human sized

no matter the tragedy

silence will soon

forever sever

What would be worse

a long agonizing decline

and crash

true catastrophe

or this same old

mish mash

just rolling

and rolling

I'll never know

but I can ask for free

what

2.3118 : 11/15/13 : Home State

Read about the man

up in my home state

how he wrote that song

that felt like pure fate

to this boy who was three

when it went down

how I sang and sang it

in my 3rd town

how I haven't got it

how I'm not that

hearing all the context

I tip my hat

guess I'm glad just idling

in my home state

maybe I won't ask

for more on my plate

what

2.3117 : 11/14/13 : Will Work for Music

Will work for music

See I'm doing it doing it

cut up the dictionary

see I'm gluing it

up but the pile's so high

and I've got to ask why

you never bring me any

music

Ah one fellow said I

lack the true quill

That lady said

I took the wrong pill

and I just say

It's the only way

I know so I keep working

hoping for the music

what

2.3116 : 11/13/13 : Tendrils

I don't know what tendrils these are

showing through

I don't really want to start that thing

I said I'd do

Surely I don't want to go back

to the same

they curl and turn and

pull:

there goes the game

I feel like like grabbing

pull it inside out

find out what this

twinging barb's about

gather my rags and cans

to stake a claim

they twine and

climb and reach

there goes the game

what

2.3115 : 11/12/13 : Log

Do I gotta keep

the captain's log again

to try to

bootstrap out

of this dull sin

of seeking solace

in the spit warm flow

the mess of tubes

the dim electron glow

Effect the log-in

set the secret code

praying at last

I'll tap the mother lode

I know the symptom's

not the real disease

if you think up a cure

do log it please

what

2.3114 : 11/11/13 : Miss

Every swing a miss

it happens

willing on that wisp

I'm scrapping

fifty hundred old dumb dreams

nothing but what

nothing seems

and will the new thing stick?

call these old lives

a devil's

hat trick

what

2.3113 : 11/10/13 : Ridiculous

The thing had not

I realized

got so ridiculous yet

S'damn my eyes

Get good while goodies got get

Yeah it's a bolt

I'm a rum one oft a fool

but not quite yet a dolt

what

2.3112 : 11/09/13 : Authority

The game, the game

the half pauses

the rain the shame the

escape clauses

So many things

don't deserve to be good

sometimes they are anyway

don't you think there would

be some authority

but there ain't nah

how do you think he'd

explain it brah

well keep anything short

and double up the beat

throw a little flash in

make the lyric sweet

the game the game all

past the point

of no return

as such

decamp this joint

what

2.3111 : 11/08/13 : Magical Hours

So the 14,000 magical hours

had passed

and I laughed

and scorned its power

had I ever been serious

had I ever meant it

had that column ever been straight

was I the one who'd bent it

but the guy that told that tale

left the wife and kid behind

however I might slice it

I could never be that kind

but somewhere man

in the next eleven

hell I've got to figure

my own ladder up to heaven

what

2.3110 : 11/07/13 : Partners in Rhyme

So Lou Reed's slamming

with the ancestors now

Lord Lou look down on me

and my weakness empower

with a whisper a new and

never heard rhyme

What about it partner

does it ring a chime

In the shadows of those

I'm unfit to sweep up

in my towering insufficiency

why do I still try to keep up

At long last have I

nothing but the gimmick

the Ghost of Lou Reed

as usual is inimical

what

2.3109 : 11/06/13 : Real Flight

Maybe now the real fight

the real flight to Egypt

or in this allegory

maybe Canada's the story

and the reason they tripped

is not quite as noble

this global shell game

Spit on my hands

and point to the stands

and they'll all say my name

and then the real fight

the daily call to right

Comes calling

I can act soft or rough

throw away the guff: it brooks no stalling

what

2.3108 : 11/05/13 : Cycles Vicious

Feeling the cycles

vicious in the repetitions

the want to stop

the crazy machine

we're all on it

and yelling won't do anything

the bad stretch

always under the weather

how does everybody

keep it together

hope there's a bigger thing

a gear to engage

depart the cycles vicious

spin up a golden age

what

2.3107 : 11/04/13 : Baggage

The thing I forgot about

the traveling

how you dither back and forth

forget a thousand things

and how you fret over the lists

back in the baggage car

and how when you finally get there,

there you are

not being a sage

not being a wise one

I forget my lessons, mistake

the finger for the sun

I forget what's me

and what's the baggage

and dish another bowl

of boiled cabbage

what

2.3106 : 11/03/13 : Fix

Fix little things

if that's what presents

could use some fixing

I've got presentiments

of some days abed

Waiting up for me

I just keep fixing

as I'm drifting out to sea

what

2.3105 : 11/02/13 : So Me

This hideous affliction

is just so me

think about a tadpole

and a bumblebee

always transforming

flying all mysterious

always navigating

through this fog most furious

give me a centimeter

and a gram of force

and a solar system spanning lever

and a fulcrum of course

and a place to stand

and a signal to start

and so help me God

I'll finally move your heart

what

2.3104 : 11/01/13 : Off To a Rousing Start

Rampant sickness

dismal work

try to do it all

still come off as a jerk

off to a rousing start

bold adventure

voyage of discovery

or maybe

an indenture

I suppose nobody ever

felt it all the time

suppose that if I scrape away

the rust and grime

I might find a living engine yet

beating slow but sure

what can I do but press on

try to keep my motives pure

what

2.3103 : 10/31/13 : And a Third

Twenty four hundred

minus fourteen and a third

the math don't work out

it's not base ten, word?

Sad as most anything

you might have heard

What might not ever be

one act, two

dare I ask for a third one?

seems like I designed

for failure from word one

they should make stories like that

but I never heard one

and a third's a tall order

but I'm a clever bee

I'll tell a tale how past a fail

a third one stuck

I'm on a long haul Saul

ain't no word one shuck

after all the arrows you

heard one struck

I named that bullseye

the forever free

what

2.3102 : 10/30/13 : 500 Books

Here's a deal

just tell me the first

of 500 books to

slake this thirst

for reinvention

transformation

in a day and change

I want whole recreation

will it be stories

or true events

will it tell technique

or sacraments

at the end of the day

will it show me

how to fly

I've wished it all

my life

and never really known why

what

2.3101 : 10/29/13 : Reinvention

The reinvention didn't start

or did it?

Expected things to change crazily

get it?

I thought what is it this guy knows?

But still the cat gets by on prose

and as long as anything goes

See the other side of my oar

ring the bell: I'm out the door

what

2.3100 : 10/28/13 : Waiting (Lou: 3/3)

Still waiting for the bells, Lou

did you hear

did I ever tell you

I could never put it

quite so bold

and the life I live is quieter

by a hundred fold

Who am I fooling

a thousand at least

and when you're left on this side

regret is a beast

but I don't regret on hour

I spent with you

So thanks for the sound

So thanks for the bells too

what

2.3099 : 10/27/13 : Oh (Lou: 2/3)

Lovely says

Oh

and tells me the news

that falls like a small stone

that's lost from all views

I don't hear a thing

Can't hear the bells ring

So I wait for the depth charge

the artist

the man at large

what

2.3098 : 10/26/13 : Presage (Lou: 1/3)

Did I blow past the presage

Somehow missed you'd hit old age

faded into my background

forgot about that sound

In the cold on a hillside

was a play for all who died

and none said your name

It was later that answer came

no prescience, divining

ever the briar twining

ever the dusky rose

And you knew it, I suppose

what

2.3097 : 10/25/13 : Dollar Origami

How many ways

to fold that little page

I'm up to my hips

in thoughts of sin's wage

Dollar origami

fold my way out of this cul de sac

this shaky tack this back

to back this lousy world of smack

what

2.3096 : 10/24/13 : Feeling

All force feeling

Finally I could understand

while I was reeling

I lost hold of your hand

now I am trying

to fall faster than gravity

all day I'm dying

to beg you just to stay with me

I followed false ways

craved soft and easy bread

Saw no end to days

Said I'll sleep when I'm dead

Should I give up feelings

run the show all on intellect

Should I give up dark dealings

earn back some more self-respect

Nothing's ever easy

nothing ever happens on its own

I hate wrapping up cheesy

and my distrust of hope has grown

but I won't be afraid now

though I am sick and sore afflicted

Here I can show you how

this new feeling's got me plain addicted

what

2.3095 : 10/23/13 : Sucker Bet

It makes me feel a little desperate

I can't tell the difference between a sucker bet

And risking on a path with heart

Neither can I distinguish between

Resisting easy bait from the wicked machine

and just not knowing where to start

What should I consider to be risk

is there any flip side to this mortal disk

The answer seems pretty damn relevant

And maybe there my deficiency is on display

As the noose tightened up on my day to day

This damn room went

and grew itself an elephant

what

2.3094 : 10/22/13 : SLOW

Could I take it real slow?

It sure feels like I have to

Go, go, go

that sparks a memory

that makes me say oh no

But it carries

perspective

I feel the hammer swinging

but that alarm bell I hear ringing

Is subjective

Looking back it wasn't

that I never took the time

but I sure never slowed down

and though I'm guilty of

no crime

I think I owe myself

restitution

just between you and me

and a certain

institution

what

2.3093 : 10/21/13 : Potential

I read about a guy who

found all meaning in potential

there's always some value

to deem perfect and essential

You got your dualist heresy

or monopole hegemony

and me I don't claim anything

no white scroll in my hand to bring

just cooling off here wondering

about today's potential

what

2.3092 : 10/20/13 : Dragon

Does there always have to be

another dragon to slay

Could I be totally done

Forever just one day

When all my effed up birds

Come home to roost

will I beat it with meditation

or by reading Proust?

Will hard work dissolve all barriers

I know it can't always be true

and we can't all be the special ones

but I hope I can still be for you

When all our birds come home to roost

is it really going to be so bad?

does hard work mean a thing in that circus

I wish I knew, I wish I had

what

2.3091 : 10/19/13 : Dirty Jobs

I ain't the first

and not so exciting

but there's always demand

and so I am inviting

You to give me

your dirty jobs

Come on

give them up you slobs

I keep my mouth shut

and I work for a pittance

and when you see my back

You'll say good riddance

to your dirty jobs

hard as nails

and rough as cobs

I'll put the wheel back

on that old wheelbarrow

and cart your sorry ass

back on the straight and narrow

Stay away from dirty jobs

and turn your nose up on me

dear snobs

what

2.3090 : 10/18/13 : While We Wait

Kid

What we doing

in this tacky little place

they're only halfway to our number

and there's folks up in my space

why we have to sit and wait

like little people do

kind of seems like I always feel

like little people with you

I got something

we can do while we wait

uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh

I got something we can do while we wait

it's not little and it's only getting bigger

look at these tacky chairs

why does it smell like that

What's that nonsense you said

what you looking at

kid what you looking at

looking at me that way

where are we going now

I thought I heard you say

Oh baby

I got something

we can do while we wait

uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh

I got something

we can do while we wait

It's strictly first class

wait and see

I got something

we can do while we wait

uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh

I got something we can do

while we wait

It's only getting bigger

girl you're coming with me

what

2.3089 : 10/17/13 : To Earth

What's it worth

once

run to earth

and holed up in some

stone's lee

a little more

for a few of you

a little less

for the many me

I take this fight

to earth

I'll tear

your rarified

schematics

showing the

market's hand

the dismal promised lands

and when I execute it

will be without theatrics

what

2.3088 : 10/16/13 : Stop Fighting Time

And just like that

he says I:

stop fighting time

no more

such thing as a deadline

show me

the beautiful

show me anciency standing

I will stop saying

I'm sick of everything

I will stop demanding

I will stop

fighting time

and make truce with regret

and you're smiling, nodding

but you're

betting against me

I bet

what

2.3087 : 10/15/13 : Moments

I like calling moments

so I'll keep it up

who's going to stop me?

As always only me

never quite all the way

and someday fate'll pop me

time to get called out again

time to give up my friend

or maybe now the long fight

half hopeless half on the make

whatever tomorrow might take

but not another like this night

what

2.3086 : 10/14/13 : Spiral

Smiley on the train

to the click clack box

the man's third life

and the third death unlocks

the ectoplasm from

nostril and mouth

smiley on the train

returns south

The fourth life

meanwhile another man

awakes in a new life

an unnatural span

Confusion in the stockyards

fall into a new past

It's spiral within spiral

but none will last

what

2.3085 : 10/13/13 : Restoration

These layers of grime

are impossible

years of neglect

years of dross and bull

years of abuse

by my own hand mercy

plus I made that

old gypsy curse me

bad habits

and worse planning

plus a mean social arc

a century spanning

but do I give up

on it all, hell no

look up ma

I'm ringing a bell, yo

And singing all

hail the Restoration

kicked off right

with an invocation

rise up rise up

join the restoration

going to be real damn

busy for the duration

what

2.3084 : 10/12/13 : Deep

This double

this triple talk

how many layers

deep?

And to whom shall

we pray?

And for what to keep?

Why did it go

ugly on me

Stoke my ire?

Why do we

why do we

turn so much to fire?

is there really a way

through weakness

ignorance?

will I get what

passes

for another chance

the learning curve

was treacherous

and steep

and I knew every coming

trough

could go very deep

what

2.3083 : 10/11/13 : No Plan

If there's truly no plan

can you still be all right

I think about that one

night after night

philosophers roll their eyes

So simplistic

but get down to my level

try to be realistic

you can't just die

and you gotta buy bread

and even if it's all made

up in your head

you must bow at least

to this idea of a plan

try to make sense of this moment

just anyway you can

what

2.3082 : 10/10/13 : ZIP

Join the null

set end to

end

sixty seconds

per degree I

bend

each day looks

lighter

as I give it all

the slip

ask what I mean

I don't say

won't say

zip

what

2.3081 : 10/09/13 : Hole

However many mental boards

I may nail over that hole

angry at the monotony

the hours that its pull stole

What can I say when its card turns up

I'm mum mum mum

You want to hear a silent thing?

Let me give you some

what

2.3080 : 10/08/13 : So Much Meta

reference town

so much meta

a little from column hell

a little from vendetta

the thing he got I don't got

is there any way to get it

wondering who I could ask

who wouldn't tell me to forget it

do tell me to work harder

just tell me what to do

just tell me what's the ticket

that'll stick to me like glue

what

2.3079 : 10/07/13 : Jack

I had this thing

but I don't have jack

Is it 'cause I don't want to

Was there too much flack

it was just that I

lost all energy

ran out of gumption

chutzpa and synergy

what

2.3078 : 10/06/13 : Everything

Everything's going to

get better, easier tomorrow

everything's going

to get handed me

no need to steal or borrow

no need to think

it'll just be all so clear

Close my eyes and wish:

oh see that ship appear

what

2.3077 : 10/05/13 : Third Time's a Curse

Third time's a curse

but don't call a hearse

I'll half redeem it

with a half-baked verse

the first is a fluke

the second is learning

but do it three times

you know which end is burning

The third time's the curse

don't take it to heart

Push right to the next

dare call it a start

what

2.3076 : 10/04/13 : Not Dead

The tired absurdity

of calling an end

to ends.

the slightly

cleaned up

version

you sell to your friends

the worst case

fright scenario

likely only

in your head

better get on

wake up you're

not dead

what

2.3075 : 10/03/13 : The Difference

Oh right

the difference

the lead out

from the inference

was supposed to

was supposed to

did you want it?

Still it chose you

maybe we all get

the difference then in the last

maybe we all

drag the present

from a fractured past

what

2.3074 : 10/02/13 : Discordant

Get the outside

orderly

ignore within's

discordant tree

No I'm attending

it's just that

I'm bothered by

the fit of this hat

better get

on top of something

check the mess

see what I'm lumping

Your poor discord

lost and lonely

meet up with mine

last time only

what

2.3073 : 10/01/13 : Smaller

Rebel by

thinking smaller

rebel by

unplugging

Rebel by

thinking outside the dollar

see how this engine

can keep chugging

the world's not

run by money

money is a boss

and a bad one

the world runs

on love grit and honey

And the truth's

we've all been had, son

what