2.3203 : 2/8/14 : Taste

Sweet or bitter

I'm no heavy hitter

but if I say so

I've got a little case

Sure there's no accounting

how little I'm amounting

no and can you

read the toll on my face

what I imagine constructing

or so I'm instructing

oh the beams and berms

it's been scratching in my mind

always a little behind

Since I heard about

a life on such joyful terms

what

2.3202 : 2/7/14 : What Lies Buried

Getting furious

while I meditate

is this a joke

maybe I'm doing great

work it all out

get some air to it

Some days I don't know

whether to stare or shit

Want to vomit up

every poison thought

boy what lies buried

is a juggernaut

ready to erupt

at the drop of a hat

another effort to empty

goes splat

and what lies buried

is a life's work

and sometimes hell

I just feel like a jerk

what

2.3201 : 2/6/14 : Jack of All Ports

No signs, no visions

no relief in any superstitions

Yet it seems that you

refuse to sell me out

impossible, invisible

every day fearing the rout

craving routine

and so out of sorts

fed up with the charge

to be jack of all ports

is this an adventure

or aquatic train wreck

is this terribly clever

or a shambles in dreck?

what

2.3200 : 2/5/14 : Real Magic

What if I can't stop wanting

real magic what then

get used to disappointment

oh well oh well again

there's always a million

things and only time for ten

and never any real magic to help

oh well oh well again

we get by despite

at least until we don't

we can believe despite it all

like a child at least until we won't

close your eyes and wish

and look at once nothing will happen

except the same old same old

oh well, oh well, oh well again

what

2.3199 : 2/4/14 : Extent

Extent isn't

everything

a comfort when there's

such a long line

of bells to ring

there but for the grace

uh oh

here we go again

still a long time

coming, let me

show you history's recycling bin

what

2.3198 : 2/3/14 : Trouble

Challenges

a nice word for trouble

careful what you run from

when we're sifting through the rubble

oh how we'll wish

to be back right here

Small chance of that

So sell your present

troubles dear

what

2.3197 : 2/2/14 : Event Horizon

Just like that you killed the

event horizon

So many lovely things

I had my eyes on

Was that the moment

Where the dark spot was born

and now I know it

Where am I going to blow my horn

You mean to say you've never read

or even saw my great Obscuro

I meant it to go viral man

You know I was so sure, oh

I guess at last I'm going to

have to go and roll my sleeves up

It's a dirty job but

Someone's got to sweep all these leaves up

what

2.3196 : 2/1/14 : Shatter

Don't take on problems not mine

got enough pins to scatter

don't take on someone's smoke

don't dream about shatter

Never let me practice my art

So I must pick up another

trust it will blow in on the wind

trust the spirit the mind's mother

what

2.3195 : 1/31/14 : Honky Tonk

A little of that solo

honky tonk guitar

while you pretend at

better progress

but know really where you are

and when they bring in

that high wistful

violin

you get knocked

back again

The past looks like

a lot of open spaces

but that's a trick

not true

but I've got to

learn something from it

Catch a different view

of tomorrow

of its space

the dark suspicion

it's in front of my face

or twining in my ears

a honky tonk refrain

Oh there I go again

what

2.3194 : 1/30/14 : Refrain

If I refrain

sustain this ascetic

will I end up stronger

or double pathetic

I used to think the answer

was so so clear

I used to think my

refrain would appear

I need a language of

a sort of diplomacy

I picked a hard place to be

sort of a home to me

and though it hurts me

oh I strive and strain

thinking I'll hook the least snatch

of my own refrain

refrain, stop

refrain, do it again

who comes up with this stuff

moreover where's the pin

I could yank and render

outcome inevitable

I might refrain

but then again I might just give it a pull

what

2.3193 : 1/29/14 : The Royal Road

Do I hear the call

the royal road once more

the next level head

the door the door oh God the door

do I dare to dream a peach

do I dare to dream a better way

do I dare to dream

do I dare to let go and play

what

2.3192 : 1/28/14 : Thaw

Have to be satisfied to start

with a thaw without

a change in temperature

feel free to scoff and doubt

another inward thing

called it a mental state

call it a spiritual thaw

roll my eyes mutter great

a superstitious scrap

said it was two years hence

the ship the thunderclap

the pole to vault the fence

want it to all melt now

none of this bitter wait

maybe within I'll cultivate

myself a fluid state

what

2.3191 : 1/27/14 : Froze In

Froze in

again

hard to complain

given

where I'm living

easy to complain

cabin fever

again

and no end

in sight

oh for a million

and south flight

what

2.3190 : 1/26/14 : Allegory

Perfect allegory

for the king of rubes

things that got pissed away

flushed down the tubes

nothing new

well he heard that before

nothing much

that he could not ignore

but it was not an allegory

it was him living his actual life

like a mouse in a maze

and actor in his plays

said I better buckle down for the kid and the wife

what

2.3189 : 1/25/14 : Pieces

Looks like the

same pieces man

can I really

learn a different

arrangment

having spoken

from hell to breakfast

of the tale of the

minor fall

my subsequent estrangement

or is there a

new piece for me

out there somewhere

a silver star maybe a white moon

I'm tossing my

pieces in my hand

and I'm going to

lay the new board

out- oh real soon

what

2.3188 : 1/24/14 : Magic Number

Grant me release from superstition

Oh great spirit of the heavens

for I have forsaken honey

for I have forgone all leavens

Grant me just one lucky number

One key to the rest of all of it

One key to the damn door out of here

One pole for to vault this wall of shit

Shouldn't I just cheer up up already

stop acting as if I've had a hard time

acting like I deserve lucky breaks

acting like it's my lucky card time

there's no luck and there's no magic

nothing's meant to be, nothing's special

everything running on the same crazy engine

every day potentially one fresh hell

what

2.3187 : 1/23/14 : Strength

Strength is not a weight

or a rubber band

not in a Weapon

held in the hand

strength doesn't build a wall

or a tower of reproach

it is an honest laugh

While shadows encroach

I have been weak

I have been very weak indeed

I've seen the writing on the wall

and paid no heed

I've walked back and forth

in this world, walked its breadth and length

taking digs at God

daring him to test my strength

You live to see the strong

in your life grow weak

and far from giants still

our shoulders wait for those who seek

the way of strength with all its twists

that yet bestows its crown

to any that persists

(Tower of Reproach: 3)

what

2.3186 : 1/22/14 : Always Hidden

Always hidden:

the outcome: the snap

sometimes obvious

Sometimes a shot, a slap

flying out of darkness

stark as destiny

climb under the gap

you'll find the

rest of me

not a puzzle

not a secret handshake

no a hidden path

we might be led to take

When I speak of mystery

with the capital M

dream in drift

of this ever hidden

oceanic gem

what

2.3185 : 1/21/14 : Clay

Where will I find

the craft that suits my hand

What is the nature

of my clay

I've turned this wheel

a thousand thousand times

and watched each turning

spin away

maybe some are

meant for nothing

scratch the earth

get by get by

This shapeless clay

pressed in my fingers

forever aimless

maybe toll I die

what

2.3184 : 1/20/14 : What Kind

The irony and my story

the 19 year old mind

thinking it has such developed

notions of what kind

It's not regret, second guessing

still self awareness is a mixed blessing

double it, it feels like

It could be critical hit

losing steps right and left

chancing the pendulum pit

these days doom feels imminent

feel dead old; need black tea and liniment

What kind will they say

When I'm the daisy pushing type

Will anyone even remember the hype?

what

2.3183 : 1/19/14 : SAP

Boy hell this world's adept

at ripping off saps

As for me I've had my fill

of gumption traps

I'm getting ruthless

turn real hard

you'll never see

such a stone cold bard

I used to care about

the world so much

my aspiration now is

to get well out of touch

sap no longer

mean as hell

and here you thought that

you knew me so well

dragging myself up and out

by my bootstraps

and a bucket under every tree

collecting sap

what

2.3182 : 1/18/14 : Taboo

the only thing on

my mind tonight

hush

it's taboo

Nothing racy, mind

nothing perverse

yeah like you're thinking

sure I know you

but I'm adamant

so don't wait

you're hearing all I got

it's a ridiculous

way around a small pond

you might think I'm joking

I'm not

what

2.3181 : 1/17/14 : Prestige

Try to finish everything

before I start anything

kid you're crazy

you're a dingaling

Oh my God friend

no kid I

and I may be crazy

but I got an alibi

for my whereabouts

When they pulled off the heist

When the powers that be

substituted our zeitgeist

for a show of trying

to squeeze blood from a stone

gold's flowing but these days

for the few alone

I know I wear every aspect

of privilege and prestige

but you'll find me at the last

on the same side of the siege

what

2.3180 : 1/16/14 : Books are Freedom

Books are freedom

Words are freedom

You've got to seed them

you've got to feed them

they eat space true

soak up time too

but let this face you

the truth will chime through

get me a stack this second

a shelf hell a rack I reckon

and oh when a book does beckon

and oh when a hard read whips a wreck on

what

2.3179 : 1/15/14 : Legs

I don't know what exists

I'm no blasphemer

I believe when I know for sure

You'll bring down the hammer

maybe vice versa

huh chickens and eggs

Good god son

I think this thing's got legs

Strap on an engine

Strap on wings

I heard you were crazy

for all new and shiny things

I'm not getting around

to any clearer vista

am I? Oh well, guess

and ambiguationista

what

2.3178 : 1/14/14 : Experiment in Review

Where can we expect to

wind up

if we don't try

different things?

Roll on

O Experiment

Humanity keep

grabbing for those rings

But don't forget

After every hopeful trial

We must hold

Each experiment

in review a while

we like to argue

and guess at all the

possible

outcomes

We don't care for

rigor

or follow up

long as the news cycle hums

Leave it to the

professionals

they tell me but

I am a scientist

a dilletante

an amateur for sure

but as you know

I do persist

what

2.3177 : 1/13/14 : Dreamers

Realities march

two by two

distracting all the dreamers

If I were only

stronger

if these nightmares

weren't such screamers

this is no

holy crusade

I'm no revolutionary

but it keeps me

busy

and it beats being

stationary

what

2.3176 : 1/12/14 : A Veil

At the onset of insight

a veil descends

was it an intervention

well

it depends

it didn't seem there was

all that much more

to be said

and I'll be an optimist

and count myself ahead

what

2.3175 : 1/11/14 : Closed Doors

What would this world be

without closed doors?

A million jobs

a million paramours

without editors

without frames

I guess I just thought

I'd be better at these games

I guess I just thought

there's be more middle ground

convinced my fates

and muses would come around

I used to think

new doors would keep opening

a little voice tells me

it's no such thing

it draws my mind

to the door that shuts once and all

no second chance

no final curtain call

but every next day

is a door of sorts

the only way to

the King of doors' courts

and on this sire's pleasure

I must wait

and as the next door opens

not hesitate

what

2.3174 : 1/10/14 : Shorts

Do I have a moment?

These shorts are killing me

Soon burst in the art cops

They'll sure be grilling me

It's just I've been struggling -

If you heard my deck of woe

Everything I'm juggling

No excuse for dreck here though

what

2.3173 : 1/09/14 : Wind Down

The wind down

left me feeling dumb as dirt

maybe I'd see something

maybe I'd lose my shirt

But I decided I would take a look

and and have my say

and stay right here in today

what

2.3172 : 1/08/14 : What Gave

What gave?

if I could fly through time

circle my singularity

as neatly as a dime

I said oh something's gotta

how I'd love to know what might

but I won't figure it out

well not tonight

what

2.3171 : 1/07/14 : Christ Usurp the Thorn

Christ usurp the thorn in me

return me to the joy that's free

When you're sufficient over all

it's then I hear your highest call

I'm weak and lost inside of pain

restore me to your way again

peace and perspective, simple joy

the sting of every thorn destroy

bid me be thankful, honest, just

Give me to thoughtfulness and trust

true freedom's your sufficiency

and peace surround this thorn in me

what

2.3170 : 1/06/14 : Hunger

Can't whine about the hunger

all self-imposed

explaining cold to those

so terribly exposed

yet it creeps through all

and drifts from every pore

and there's even a strange beast within

Who hisses more and more

what

2.3169 : 1/05/14 : Worm Without End

Same as it ever was

worm without end

one day will make an end of me

and then what worms to send?

When in disgrace with fortune

and can't get social hits

I wonder at the portion

that the worm gets

God where's a next sign

I am a worm and no man

only one exit and

I must avoid it if I can

I've got promises to keep

and responsibilities

So if you'd just dial back a bit

illuminate my abilities

If you'd just this once

give me a leg up on the worm

but I begin to think

you just delight to see me squirm

what

2.3168 : 1/04/14 : Tower

I set myself up

on a tower of reproach

my anger at a lifetime

of flying coach

these aspirations

I can't justify

this meaty beam

all up in my eye

So I lack humility

a sense of scale

So I'm not a stoic

yet I lack the will to wail

hell if you could hold a prince up

on that pretty hair

you'd think a smart boy

could let himself down from there

(Tower of Reproach: 2)

what

2.3167 : 1/03/14 : Expiration

What's the opposite

of inspiration

expiration

Sure I shoot

above my station

get me on the script team

for the rendezvous

let me tell

the tale for you

and these parts don't fit

but give me time

I'll put it all up

on your dime

what

2.3166 : 1/02/14 : Sign

Sign of the cross

I've got the sign of the pen

maybe everything that could be

must eventually happen

I don't even know

if that's horror or glory

So what in hell

could possibly wind up this story

the worm is strong in me

it turns and turns

these days they praise disruption

but all whistle when it burns

signs of the times they say

no signal for a halt

the way all things just have to go

and surely no one's fault

what

2.3165 : 1/01/14 : The Thorn

The thorn sought to derail me

from day one

I said you'll have no piece

for I have just begun

and pain can't

tear through beauty's veil

doesn't make it easy

doesn't rosy up the pale

But it brings me back

to all there ever is

and you'll agree

a bit of clever biz

I push the thorn

all the way through

and through the hole

the light shines right to you

what

2.31634: 12/31/13 : Before the Party

Before the party

in the quiet of the night

vow to make something nice

to bathe in the light

tonight tonight tonight

I'll commit my soul

and swear to scorn every regret

and smile through every toll

I hearby pledge

my life to beauty

regardless of the price

necessity exacts

Oh prince of dark designs

I do hereby refute thee

and declare this book henceforth

to be my Book of Acts

what

2.3163 : 12/30/13 : Wrong

Feels like all you can trust is

your every impulse is wrong

the wrong time to get creative

the wrong time to sing a song

the wrong time to dig your heels in

and pick a fight

you're a true freak of nature

at never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits inside one hand

Why can't I just swallow it

always make nice

Why after giving up

every natural vice

do I still wind up blinking

in the single hours of night

awestruck at my capacity

of never being right

and there's no rest

no destination no promised land

and what you've got to go on

fits in one hand

what

2.3162 : 12/29/13 : Sweep

A sweep is possible

I have to believe it all

what words cannot contain

What's shaken

and what does remain

For those who can't

be satisfied

the moral code

unratified

not unfinished

not uncorrected

unstarted, wholly

undirected

Who could then

wield the broom

these clumsy hands

could sweep in doom

and so wait cursed

by little hope

the mess remains

and we just cope

what

2.3161 : 12/28/13 : Possess the Heart

Does wealth possess

The heart of this world

it was the question

and the thought that whirled

And if I got some

being lucky or oh so smart

Would it possess would it possess

my heart?

I thought I thought

I thought of gold

forever bought

forever sold

possesses many hearts

Who have none at all

and that's it's cruelest trick;

our steepest fall

what

2.3160 : 12/27/13 : Impossible

There's no sense crying

over impossible dreams

but we do, but we do, but we do

It's terrible to think

nothing's ever what it seems

but it's true, but it's true, yes it's true

And I'm forever saying

everything will be all right

it's a lie, it's a lie, it's a lie

that gets spit back at me

through the teeth of the night

pass it by, pass it by, just a sigh

When we say nothing is impossible

all it means is we won't give up

no one ever did the impossible

the definition of the half full cup

I pine and fret for

my impossible dream

I'm a fool, I'm a fool, I'm a fool

If I could see right in front of me

I wouldn't try to step out of the stream

You're so cool, you're so cool, you're so cool

When we say nothing is impossible

what

2.3159 : 12/26/13 : And Joy

And joy could be

our dividend

our principle

of capital

the joyful might

conclude the old

thing had no true

value at all

perspective just

might be the cure

for craving power;

glittering heaps

pure moments of

the true pristine

might launch our ships

by bounds and leaps

and rather than

a sword king bent

on darkness to

destroy

the tale that launches

my ship may

just be a

parable of joy

what

2.3158 : 12/25/13 : Hark

What with

living in the city

I've gotten

oh so sophisticated

don't my voice

sound pretty

and my words

finely articulated

but in the night

I dream of a world gone dark

and awake I think

his world could use a little hark

Wake up

this thing is still a fight

and good is far

from winning

If you believe

in light

it's not the final inning

everywhere is a stand

and a choice stark

and the word I heard

was hark

what

2.3157 : 12/24/13 : Peace On Earth

So you figured out how to wage

a world war

What the locks

on the smallest things of all

were for

So try not to fall down

and roll with mirth

When I declare my objective

is peace on earth

Oh I'm very small

I've no influence

Oh I'm not famous

I'm scarcely of consequence

but this pearl in my hand

you'll be surprised by its worth

and this night I start the bargaining

for Peace on Earth

what

2.3156 : 12/23/13 : Content

Should I become

a content man

fill the buckets

drive the plan

the ship's corrupt

but so's it all

someone's got

to have the content ball

could I persuade

a million clods

one versus 7 thousand

how you like them odds

with only content

mightier than swords

or so they said

armed with their words

what

2.3155 : 12/22/13 : Filler

Too much filler

and thus comes the night

pitch black

freezing

brain's in a sort of twilight

all I want's a miracle

a suitcase of cash

all I want's a

whirlwind

to blow away the trash

and leave every single

thing precious to me intact

give me those little things

and then I'll act

what

2.3154 : 12/21/13 : Pearls

The irritants get buried in

the flesh of more experience

the gloss accretes around the points

acceptance maybe mere avoidance

pull back the fog of time

will some bright beauty shine there

maybe for the chosen ones

the rest may best not mine there

My minds eye whirls I think of pearls

and maybe I refuse to dive

the depths the tender moments' spurs

those times when I was all alive

what

2.3153 : 12/20/13 : Hat Trick

Hat trick

watch me

not caring

not trying

not daring

not really true

but it'll do for a lark

It's just my life's

Such a walk in the park

what

2.3152 : 12/19/13 : Eradicate

Eradicate self-reference

hey I see what I did there

hell I haven't felt this weak

since I let that bitch cut my hair

retreat from inner dialog

pull down the steady state

we'll see what's left to talk about

after all I eradicate

the hemming and the hawing

Of I know not what I know not where

I'll root out every trace of it

come watch the show: you'll gawp and stare

and most of all eradicate

the last shred of self doubt

this tower of reproach

my stand: and this swine culture's rout

(Tower of Reproach: 1)

what

2.3151 : 12/18/13 : Done to Me

Between what I do to myself

and what's done to me

Well lately not a lot

Seems like fun to me

If that's a weak complaint

well here's one more true

I got a hell of a lot worse

but I won't bore you

what

2.3150 : 12/17/13 : Beginning and Not Beginning to Begin

Don't call it wasted

since I wouldn't sell it

at any price

I should have tasted

more by now

I should have been there twice

and there were many mornings

beginning, and not

beginning to begin

and there were clear signs

and knocking, tapping

Let me in

I won't pronounce

upon a day

non one hour old

but I'll announce

for all my turnings

Your indifference is cold

what

2.3149 : 12/16/13 : False

So many

false starts

but were they

Did we figure out

who called it

are we sure they

Stopped the clock

or was it

started

as I sit here

broken hearted

maybe if I'd

started at

seventeen

but didn't I

didn't I just though

maybe if I'd

ever quit

anything clean

well there was that

one time

if you must know

what

2.3148 : 12/15/13 : Speaking

Struck by how I should treat

whereof I would not speak

Stuck on how I could see

what has truly come to my hands

I should sing of young love

heroism's lofty peak

God and love of the homelands

But I'm stuck on the top

Where my thoughts are seeking

and the moment's fierce now

blows all words to the wind

where my thoughts write words large

but they're scarcely worth speaking

and the shuddering void

knocked rang clattered and dinned

what

2.3147 : 12/14/13 : White Flag

Is that a battle cry

or a white flag

we're all mixed up

by the white stag

sure fairytales sure

superstition

but the longing persists

and dreams of sweet fruition

what

2.3146 : 12/13/13 : Reinvention (II)

While I study reinvention

I am hating everything

surely a failure state

missing on every swing

is it just the dogs at the door

is it this inner curse

have to confess that part

has never been much worse

this slumps like years before

another set of books

a litany of askance

old ways that set their hooks

what would I have the future

hold instead of that rut

won't pierce it in a day

a year will make the cut

what

2.3145 : 12/12/13 : The Plebs Flip the Channel

When do you allow

That the wheels are off

how do you distinguish

from the same old same old

You look at me

as I bow my head and cough

And the plebs flip the channel

and dream of gold

I say it's different

in quantity and quality

and maybe our attitudes

that one I'm still chewing

but the degree to which

they derailed the polity

the old rules are all broken

so forgive me for eschewing

what

2.3144 : 12/11/13 : Undisciplined

Experiment's showing

I'm undisciplined

sorta does explain

the type of fix I'm in

can I turn it round

well I sometimes have

I don't have it quite right

but here I'll take a stab

what

2.3143 : 12/10/13 : Wisdom

Got so taken up

with the lure of filthy gold

forgot myself

and my mission of old

forgot the one

for whom I long

Wisdom

oh how I once sought your song

true I wouldn't shirk

responsibility

sure but so I missed

the cutting of the sacred tree

when I longed for refuge

in the dark and dread

Wisdom did you still

reach a bower over my head

If I'm on a track

I'm not feeling it

If there's a line I don't

know who's unreeling it

waiting for the lord to ask

again who should he send

Oh wisdom are you still

waiting 'round the bend?

what

2.3142 : 12/09/13 : Outline

briefly I saw

edges of

the new shape

the doubt and

dismay

the tingling hairs on my nape

so many places

claimed to

transmit thinking's art

true I saw

the outline

Still had no idea where to start

what

2.3141 : 12/08/13 : Experiment

Only thing on my mind

will the experiment book?

will I learn anything

besides I'm still on the hook

did anyone ever get hoisted

on someone else's petard

question of the day

for an unemployed bard

the experiment is meant

to shine a light but where

can't scrape by much longer

with it all in the air

So I chip chip away

Pray I'm making a dent

Pray I get real results for once

for the experiment

what

2.3140 : 12/07/13 : Roll

Roll for initiative

roll to save

I'd be embarrassed to admit

how many fucks I gave

and what's this now

it's not as if I don't care

but effort seems irrelevant

so at another flash I stare

roll versus poison

roll to dodge

If I could find the right number

I've a complaint to lodge

I tell stories worse

than when I was thirteen

pray what the hell

is that supposed to mean?

what

2.3139 : 12/06/13 : Potato

I think my brain

is a cold boiled potato

its hot phase long past

now a blob of beige play dough

they were good days my friend

thinking thoughts so pretty

now a pound of my gray cells

isn't worth three fifty

oh it's probably depression

it's just low self-esteem

I just need a good night's sleep

I just run out of steam

what

2.3138 : 12/05/13 : Deserve

Because you deserve

a greater nation

I will behave as if

this is the early days

of transition, transformation

stranger things may

have happened

in unknown unrecorded days

stories of great deluge

and visitation

We don't know but

they might be

hints from great sages

and we may never get

straightforward explanations

but I'll behave

as if it's barely

the beginning of ages

what

2.3137 : 12/04/13 : White Night

White knight

nobody wants you

saving anything here

hang up your golden helm

is that perfectly clear

I'm walking out

on the job of world saving

that nobody asks for

and of which I was incapable

I am micronized by the world

And the world is micronized by the cosmos

And the future is inescapable

How could I have known

that perspective has just grown

within the great cosmic stage

So vast it seems to swallow the light

On my speck while I slept

my hands down favorite

covalent bipolar elemental

learned geometry from entropy

and hidden in darkness

kissed my world

with a white night

what

2.3136 : 12/03/13 : Post Ism

All category lost

even life

even right

no concept

all convention and others I could mention

You cannot build

a house on stilts

on abstract sand

You ask me what's real

look baby

my right hand

post neologistic

post exceptionalistic

post cinematic prism

kneel then raise your eyes

up to the great Post Ism

If mind is will

and will is thrill

What will you do when

I let the pre-Kingdom Come spill

ride at your own risk

because you will get wet

and I have no Idea

what I'm going to get

what

2.3135 : 12/02/13 : Flow

Why can't I find

the place I flow

why can't I find

my holy source

and then it turns

all upside down

I'm an ungrateful

wretch of course

the world got harder

while I tried to soften up

and what I tapped

seems there's no call for

and providence

seems disinclined to fill this cup

So you tell me

what was that all for

I think I've got to

really tear into this this time

get underneath

two decades' build up

can't come up

until I really have that pump primed

and I'm truly

steeled to meet this world I willed up

what

2.3134 : 12/01/13 : Inside

Shook down some old stacks

Some that weren't mine

I was praying for something

What I got was a sign

not in a manner of speaking

not in a metaphor

It wasn't my interpretation

Still it hit me like a swinging door

all the wonderful things

all the things I seek

have to believe in what's inside myself

have to believe I'll get a peek

Why would anyone believe now

that real change is in the wings

there's an insider on our side

who tells me things

I wish I had a few good days under my belt

I wish I hadn't let a few things slide

try my best to be perfect from now

for tomorrow's pledge to look inside inside

what

2.3133 : 11/30/13 : Just World

To reject superstition

must I allow there is no just world

pity my poor cranium

against that blank brick wall I heaved and hurled

am I an unrefined hick

can't fathom justice not delivered from on high

and injustice is manifest

and our ideals seem twelve times further than the sky

the worm turns again

move fool I used to think it mattered which way

another purge of the system

and all superstitious it is for a fresh start I'll pray

what

2.3132 : 11/29/13 : La La Land

For someone who decided

to commit to the present

I sure spent an awful

long damn time in La La Land

Oh I sang tough sure about

the ones easy to flip

I sang real tough about

the curse of the everyman

I don't like to rely on providence

I'm a guy who doesn't ignore evidence

But when you find the well of the real full dry

you're apt to ignore the beam in your eye

Turned out not single soul prayed hard enough

to live forever and get all the stuff

And if ask me my bright eyes have started to pall

At the thought it works out that way at all

So forgive me if I just

Check in for another tour

in lovely La La Land

If you want to reach me

it's a simple affair

You just make sure you

show up with the bird right in your hand

what

2.3131 : 11/28/13 : To Try

Dull but what else

simply to try

Infiltrate the real

flow don't just pass by

Is this it

is it happening

how do you tell

the riddle wraps a mystery

and probably just as well

when it clicks

you don't ask just

groove

when the music

dries up all

all you can do is move

I try to believe

but stumbling blocks

are thick

who put them

all there

Oh not to care

that's the final

trick

what

2.3130 : 11/27/13 : Chorus

Tired of banging on about

the daily portion

while every Greek chorus

squawks the same exhortation

be here now

but where is here?

and just what the hell's so special

about now

each talk but out here

on the shattering edge

it takes more than chorus

fortune cookies to talk you down

from the ledge

and there's no action

in this great sacred present

anyway and hey at this point

I think I'm entitled to

a little

resentment

what

2.3129 : 11/26/13 : The Hit

I'm lazy so I'll just

get all meta and sing

about the hit

I'm sure I'll lighten up

someday real soon

and get around to writing it

I'll no doubt figure out

how to make that crazy vidya

on a shoe string

it'll solve all my problems

make a million

yeah and just fix everything

I'll be that guy

they'll have me on all the shows

make me do the dance

they'll be so bored

with my little family

they'll want to see a little dark romance

you'll all get bored

even the parodies and covers

will dry up

my sophomore's swing

will leave a trail of merchandise

no one will buy up

in ten years they'll say

where is he now

the guy who wrote the one hit

Oh I'll save every check

it's nothing more than I'd expect

the sign will say he done split

what

2.3128 : 11/25/13 : Face First

Plan something clever

wind up face first

Plan the winning run

end up in place worst

forgot the follow through

and fucking ate it

should laugh it off

but I just scowl and hate it

what

2.3127 : 11/24/13 : Phantasms as Bad as Phantoms

Phantasms as bad as phantoms

at the brink of every doing

Sure the human race is haunted

All our lofty schemes ungluing

Try to tell me that it matters

If it's all just in my head

And so it goes and so who knows

So every day we make this bed

Can't believe I'm on this cusp again

of taking up the pen

am I really talking this talk

trying out this mask again

no of course I never really stopped

of course I do it every day

but oh to hear what dread phantasms

as bad as phantoms have to say

I won't make a single promise

I won't even offer odds

but I'll crack at it a useless hour

or two hey it's no crime ye gods

let it be the first or last

hell I don't even care which one

maybe just the next delusion

let it be as long as it's begun

what

2.3126 : 11/23/13 : Mr. Zero

I'm so happy to be

starting out as Mr. Zero

halfway through

maybe halfway hero

halfway through or

maybe more or maybe much less

pardon me

pardon me if I digress

It's a state of grace

oh don't you know

such rich nothing

my what zero

I'm so happy to be

starting out at square

hm I guess it's zero

Look how you can't help but stare

what

2.3125 : 11/22/13 : Wheel of Ghostly Function

I'd like to think this fresh affliction

might make some junction

but I fear it's just a spoke

On this great wheel of ghostly function

and I'm tired tired tired

and the pain is abundant

and just now anyway

prayer and planning seem redundant

Oh I could go on and on

like that damn spectral wheel

make up another last stand

make another sweet appeal

I could go on hiatus

and hell I could just quit

Despite the wheel's dire shadow though

I will not even think of it

what

2.3124 : 11/21/13 : Twitch

I got to get to

the bottom of this twitch

probably too late

for a timely stitch

but enough is enough

turn of the switch

leave it to tomorrow

for another wild pitch

what

2.3123 : 11/20/13 : Chatter

Feeling the chatter

feeling the stir

goodness does it scatter

goodness does it whir

I try to tame it

I try to be passive

I have to claim it

failure is massive

If it's never quiet

for a minute no

my squirming is a riot

no but i'n'it, tho

if you shut it up

you wonder at what half you lost

but I think I could fill that cup

at half the cost

what

2.3122 : 11/19/13 : Numbers and Signs

I played a million games

with numbers and signs

said I was ready to step up

Soon as every star aligns

hunting patterns you know

it's just our nature

If you roll up in the middle

of mine you better state your

business are you part

of the pattern the plan

are you the one I've been waiting for

the teacher, the man

take my hand

we're walking away from

the numbers the signs

from quick fixes, tricks the

ponzi schemes and anodynes

what

2.3121 : 11/18/13 : Inventory

I signed up for the inventory

I wrote the check

I'm not a hundred percent

but what the heck

Don't know how little

Don't know how late

I'm just telling myself

It will be great

In the dark arcs of the night

I sigh and sigh

So much can never happen

So much can pass you by

Hey a day's a day

And you'll sure hear the story

Of this next big push

now starting with the inventory

what

2.3120 : 11/17/13 : Bail Out

No one will buy

the bail out

and far too many

still might fail out

may I buy the optimism

of a half dozen hence

I fear I hear a voice

of experience

and if it's a bailout

the plane's going to crash

So I'll hang on to that stick

now watch me thrash

what

2.3119 : 11/16/13 : Tragedy

Are we all cooking

an earth sized tragedy

oh is it just what's

been going on forever

oh it's nice to be

a human sized

no matter the tragedy

silence will soon

forever sever

What would be worse

a long agonizing decline

and crash

true catastrophe

or this same old

mish mash

just rolling

and rolling

I'll never know

but I can ask for free

what

2.3118 : 11/15/13 : Home State

Read about the man

up in my home state

how he wrote that song

that felt like pure fate

to this boy who was three

when it went down

how I sang and sang it

in my 3rd town

how I haven't got it

how I'm not that

hearing all the context

I tip my hat

guess I'm glad just idling

in my home state

maybe I won't ask

for more on my plate

what

2.3117 : 11/14/13 : Will Work for Music

Will work for music

See I'm doing it doing it

cut up the dictionary

see I'm gluing it

up but the pile's so high

and I've got to ask why

you never bring me any

music

Ah one fellow said I

lack the true quill

That lady said

I took the wrong pill

and I just say

It's the only way

I know so I keep working

hoping for the music

what

2.3116 : 11/13/13 : Tendrils

I don't know what tendrils these are

showing through

I don't really want to start that thing

I said I'd do

Surely I don't want to go back

to the same

they curl and turn and

pull:

there goes the game

I feel like like grabbing

pull it inside out

find out what this

twinging barb's about

gather my rags and cans

to stake a claim

they twine and

climb and reach

there goes the game

what

2.3115 : 11/12/13 : Log

Do I gotta keep

the captain's log again

to try to

bootstrap out

of this dull sin

of seeking solace

in the spit warm flow

the mess of tubes

the dim electron glow

Effect the log-in

set the secret code

praying at last

I'll tap the mother lode

I know the symptom's

not the real disease

if you think up a cure

do log it please

what

2.3114 : 11/11/13 : Miss

Every swing a miss

it happens

willing on that wisp

I'm scrapping

fifty hundred old dumb dreams

nothing but what

nothing seems

and will the new thing stick?

call these old lives

a devil's

hat trick

what

2.3113 : 11/10/13 : Ridiculous

The thing had not

I realized

got so ridiculous yet

S'damn my eyes

Get good while goodies got get

Yeah it's a bolt

I'm a rum one oft a fool

but not quite yet a dolt

what

2.3112 : 11/09/13 : Authority

The game, the game

the half pauses

the rain the shame the

escape clauses

So many things

don't deserve to be good

sometimes they are anyway

don't you think there would

be some authority

but there ain't nah

how do you think he'd

explain it brah

well keep anything short

and double up the beat

throw a little flash in

make the lyric sweet

the game the game all

past the point

of no return

as such

decamp this joint

what

2.3111 : 11/08/13 : Magical Hours

So the 14,000 magical hours

had passed

and I laughed

and scorned its power

had I ever been serious

had I ever meant it

had that column ever been straight

was I the one who'd bent it

but the guy that told that tale

left the wife and kid behind

however I might slice it

I could never be that kind

but somewhere man

in the next eleven

hell I've got to figure

my own ladder up to heaven

what

2.3110 : 11/07/13 : Partners in Rhyme

So Lou Reed's slamming

with the ancestors now

Lord Lou look down on me

and my weakness empower

with a whisper a new and

never heard rhyme

What about it partner

does it ring a chime

In the shadows of those

I'm unfit to sweep up

in my towering insufficiency

why do I still try to keep up

At long last have I

nothing but the gimmick

the Ghost of Lou Reed

as usual is inimical

what

2.3109 : 11/06/13 : Real Flight

Maybe now the real fight

the real flight to Egypt

or in this allegory

maybe Canada's the story

and the reason they tripped

is not quite as noble

this global shell game

Spit on my hands

and point to the stands

and they'll all say my name

and then the real fight

the daily call to right

Comes calling

I can act soft or rough

throw away the guff: it brooks no stalling

what

2.3108 : 11/05/13 : Cycles Vicious

Feeling the cycles

vicious in the repetitions

the want to stop

the crazy machine

we're all on it

and yelling won't do anything

the bad stretch

always under the weather

how does everybody

keep it together

hope there's a bigger thing

a gear to engage

depart the cycles vicious

spin up a golden age

what

2.3107 : 11/04/13 : Baggage

The thing I forgot about

the traveling

how you dither back and forth

forget a thousand things

and how you fret over the lists

back in the baggage car

and how when you finally get there,

there you are

not being a sage

not being a wise one

I forget my lessons, mistake

the finger for the sun

I forget what's me

and what's the baggage

and dish another bowl

of boiled cabbage

what

2.3106 : 11/03/13 : Fix

Fix little things

if that's what presents

could use some fixing

I've got presentiments

of some days abed

Waiting up for me

I just keep fixing

as I'm drifting out to sea

what

2.3105 : 11/02/13 : So Me

This hideous affliction

is just so me

think about a tadpole

and a bumblebee

always transforming

flying all mysterious

always navigating

through this fog most furious

give me a centimeter

and a gram of force

and a solar system spanning lever

and a fulcrum of course

and a place to stand

and a signal to start

and so help me God

I'll finally move your heart

what

2.3104 : 11/01/13 : Off To a Rousing Start

Rampant sickness

dismal work

try to do it all

still come off as a jerk

off to a rousing start

bold adventure

voyage of discovery

or maybe

an indenture

I suppose nobody ever

felt it all the time

suppose that if I scrape away

the rust and grime

I might find a living engine yet

beating slow but sure

what can I do but press on

try to keep my motives pure

what